brittanypie
Greenlighter
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- Nov 14, 2012
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The first time i ever did meth i was looking for Coke to serve my coke addiction and couldnt find any. I could only find meth and the high was brilliant, the comedown was horrible i stayed in bed for 24 hours. I wasnt able to drive myself to work because my heart felt like it was pounding out of my chest. This didnt stop me because when i moved to oklahoma for a year it was impossible to find coke...only meth.
I injected meth once and the rush was brilliant. The high was horrible and the comedown was worse. I sat in the dark by myself deciding if i should jump out of the window or not ( NOT kidding)
Still didnt stop me i bought some brilliant ice one day and the comedown wasnt so bad.
Ive done ice too many times to count but ive noticed that if you get a bad batch, the high isnt as enjoyable and the comedown is horrible.
When you get a great batch...its that rush..and its fantastic. I had a dealer who never dissapointed, he gave me the best of the best. I dont buy from him anymore but it is hard to find good stuff like his. Even my friends who smoke me out isnt great.
Ive noticed its very rare for me to get a rush or have an enjoyable high around others. . I want to be anti social and ill become incredibly tense. Ill have to hold my hands together ..pull my legs in and cross my arms. i think this has to do with my dopamine levels being low. There was a time i was doing drugs everyday for two years...heroin,meth,coke,pills. So my mind has had a tough time.
I only buy weed now. I do smoke ice still, but only when someone will smoke me out. Which lately has been often. I wont buy it though because ive learned the hard way that my bills are more important. I dont crave it anymore because of the way it makes me feel sometimes but i still smoke it when its handed to me. Its hard to explain. I cant say no. I can only say no if im super high already.
I have a better relationship with downers because it mellows me out
although i hate the withdrawals because it makes me severely sick. Downers like heroin is incredibly hard to stay away from. I grew up being told that Ice was the hardest addiction to kick. WRONG. Heroin is. That stuff is nothing to fuck with I would not have ever quit injecting had i not missed and was sent to the hospital 2 days later because my arm had an abcess. Which i lied to the doctor about how i got it. When he found out 1 day later (it became significantly worse over night) He lectured me non stop for the rest of my hospital stay and told my boyfriend i was going H...even though i was 18 and hadnt given him permission to. It didnt matter as my bf was hooked just as much as i was. That hospital stay scared me. My arm looked horrible it was so painful i couldnt move it at all. They eventually cut the abcess open and squeezed the gunk out. Incredibly painful, i cried and screamed during the process. They stuck a string in it to keep the wound open so it could drain and i was left on a heart monitering machine so they could watch my heart for infection.
Never again have i used a needle. I also have a quite noticable scar to remind me not too.
I injected meth once and the rush was brilliant. The high was horrible and the comedown was worse. I sat in the dark by myself deciding if i should jump out of the window or not ( NOT kidding)
Still didnt stop me i bought some brilliant ice one day and the comedown wasnt so bad.
Ive done ice too many times to count but ive noticed that if you get a bad batch, the high isnt as enjoyable and the comedown is horrible.
When you get a great batch...its that rush..and its fantastic. I had a dealer who never dissapointed, he gave me the best of the best. I dont buy from him anymore but it is hard to find good stuff like his. Even my friends who smoke me out isnt great.
Ive noticed its very rare for me to get a rush or have an enjoyable high around others. . I want to be anti social and ill become incredibly tense. Ill have to hold my hands together ..pull my legs in and cross my arms. i think this has to do with my dopamine levels being low. There was a time i was doing drugs everyday for two years...heroin,meth,coke,pills. So my mind has had a tough time.
I only buy weed now. I do smoke ice still, but only when someone will smoke me out. Which lately has been often. I wont buy it though because ive learned the hard way that my bills are more important. I dont crave it anymore because of the way it makes me feel sometimes but i still smoke it when its handed to me. Its hard to explain. I cant say no. I can only say no if im super high already.
I have a better relationship with downers because it mellows me out
although i hate the withdrawals because it makes me severely sick. Downers like heroin is incredibly hard to stay away from. I grew up being told that Ice was the hardest addiction to kick. WRONG. Heroin is. That stuff is nothing to fuck with I would not have ever quit injecting had i not missed and was sent to the hospital 2 days later because my arm had an abcess. Which i lied to the doctor about how i got it. When he found out 1 day later (it became significantly worse over night) He lectured me non stop for the rest of my hospital stay and told my boyfriend i was going H...even though i was 18 and hadnt given him permission to. It didnt matter as my bf was hooked just as much as i was. That hospital stay scared me. My arm looked horrible it was so painful i couldnt move it at all. They eventually cut the abcess open and squeezed the gunk out. Incredibly painful, i cried and screamed during the process. They stuck a string in it to keep the wound open so it could drain and i was left on a heart monitering machine so they could watch my heart for infection.
Never again have i used a needle. I also have a quite noticable scar to remind me not too.
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no sign of sleep. 