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One time when i was addicted to crack i didn't have a piece on me so instead i poked a bunch of small holes in my tongue and i sprinkled on the crack and wazzam!!! now my name's Crackpipe
 
March 13th 2014 was the last time I smoked heroin that's also the day I went to jail, right after I lost my job house car family friends my dog even my clothes and everything I owned. Lately I've had it on my mind ( i cant really tell anyone that ), lucky for me I've got an amazing boyfriend who helps me get threw the evil thought of going back. Last night I had a dream of heroin and ever since than I've been thinking of it. Not only that Ive become sick as if Im "dope sick" just because of the simple thought. Ive been clean since March 13th but the thought of heroin crosses my mind every day. I have not gotten on anything like subs (i tired them once and i couldn't tolerate the taste and all it did was make me mad ) and plus if my family found out that I needed that stuff they would hate me. On top of everything Iv developed sort of an an anxiety disorder. I used to be such a social butterfly and frieny to every one, now I find myself nervous around other people. Does anyone know if my life will ever be normal again. I hate feeling like this and the only thing that seems to cross my mind lately is relapsing just so I can "get right" again. My boyfriend has never done this drug I feel awful for putting him threw this.. Im staying clean for my kids but I feel like its torture and noone seems to understand what it feels like
 
I m with you the doctors put me on this and now they are being told what to do by the DEA. I don't know if you need to major in criminology or medicine to be a doctor anymore? I was first put on morphine after an accident and told I was "cured" now the cure is worse than the illness because without the pills I throw up everything including my toe nails. Where do I go for help and once I am off the pills how do I manage the constant pain the pills help stop? Can someone comment on a similar problem damned if I do damned if I don't
 
I'm almost 60 and im addicted to tramadol and trying to wean off.
I quit smoking after 38 years, quit all alcohol but when my husband died I started to abuse it taking more then I should. Now I'm having trouble with tapering. It doesn't help that I have to get new knees because of no cartilage left. I just hate being tied to a drug.
Its the hardest thing to quit!
 
When I was in detox they made it the withdrawal almost painless I swear to god. At the time I was crushing up and snorting 4x40mg extended release oxymorphone's a day. That's A LOT of oxymorphone, and the withdrawals from that were at least as bad if not worse than the WD from heroin and this is how the detox center did it. Note: if you're on MMT this won't really work because you're probably on a huge dose of methadone, I am not recommending using this method as I am not a doctor but this is how they got me to quit opiates... Until I decided to start up again over the past year...

Here's how it went: Day 1 if you're in moderate to full WD they give you a dose of 15MG right away, then every couple hours they dose you 5-10mg depending on your reaction up until a max dose of either 35-40mg that first day. Day 2 they give you 15mg in the morning and 15mg later in the day or at night. day 3 15mg morning 10mg night. Day 4 10mg morning 10 night. Day 5 10mg morning 5mg night. Day 6 5mg morning 5mg night. day 7 5mg morning and no more and monitor you throughout the night and the next day(release day) they monitor your vitals and opiate wd scale. This made it so I only had the most minor very manageable WD symptoms that were easily manageable for the 3-5 days they lasted.

Now I realize and revamped this as I started a BIG snorting H habit and upped the dose and duration just a little bit, but you don't want to be on methadone too long or you'll get addicted to an even worse opiate than heroin to WD from. It goes like this: Day 1 25mg morning 20mg night. Day 2 20mg morning 20mg night. Day 3 20mg morning 15mg night. Day 4 15mg morning 15mg night. Day 5 15mg morning 10mg night. Day 6 10mg morning 10mg night. Day 7 10mg morning 5mg night. Day 8 10mg morning 5mg night. Day 9 5mg morning 5mg night. Day 10 5 mg morning. Day 11 5 mg morning. Day 11 2.5mg morning. Day 12 2.5mg morning. DONE with detox. I haven't tried this method and don't claim it's efficacy but it's what I'm going to do when I decide to quit next.

WARNING: THIS IS NOT A GUIDE FOR YOU TO USE AS I AM NOT DOCTOR NOR WORK IN THE MEDICAL FIELD. THE FIRST DETOX STORY I SAID WAS MEDICALLY SUPERVISED AND WORKED FOR ME. I HAVE NOT EVEN ATTEMPTED THE SECOND GUIDE SO I CANNOT CLAIM THAT IT WORKED FOR ME. Always consult a doctor, this post is for educational purposes only and just to give a little story of my personal plan and in no way recommend anyone try this.
 
I made the decision. To get clean 2 days ago and I'm clean since then. My addiction was cocaine, I used about 2 grams every 2 or 3 days for about 6 months what should I expect the next week? Month?
 
something that has helped me with mental addictions is to take inventory of your thoughts, and recognize when drug fiending thoughts occur!
Just by being aware that the thought of running downstairs to fix something, so I can sneak a hit, is a drug addict thought!
I can then make a rational decision on an irrational thought.
Doesn't always work and I'll still cave occasionally but it has made an amazing difference in my usage!
 
OPIOIDS ARE ADDICTING?! No fucking way!!! I have never heard of that in all my life, but I did just crawl out from under a rock, after all! Lol you guys have the best jokes sometimes. Every last one of you knew from the jump that opioids are mentally and physically addicting! You just wanted to pretend you were superman while you played with the matches that ended up burning your house down EXACTLY LIKE EVERY FUCKING ONE ON PLANET EARTH INFORMED YOU WOULD ALMOST CERTAINLY HAPPEN LONNNNNG BEFORE YOU EVER TOOK YOUR FIRST DOSE!! Lol! Get out of here with your highly doubtful ignorance of the obvious, and take responsibility for your own actions this time. Taking responsibility for your own actions is the strongest tool you can beat off the junkie lifestyle with.
 
I too went into a suboxone withdrawal that showed absolutely zero signs of letting up in the slightest...even after 3 of the longest fucking MONTHS of my life! During the most torturous detox of my life! And I've seen so many different opioid detoxes I can't even count. I ran screaming back to oxycodone! I got on suboxone because I couldn't stand the oxycodone withdrawal. I thought it was terrible...but 3 months into suboxone withdrawal and it was painfully clear I hadn't a clue what a "terrible" withdrawal was until then! I always say, Suboxone "helps" addicted people by showing us all just how bad things really can get! Lol! The rule I always went by is that, if it gets you higher then you have that much farther to fall, but suboxone doesn't even come close to a good high and yet you will pay the most dearly for it if you ever EVER want free of those chains. Not worth it. Don't fall for the "maintenance" dope doctor racket. You WILL wish you had just stuck to banging black tar heroin it is THAT bad.
 
This is no bullshit. Starting with a legitimate neck injury, 15 years later, pain management and having several friends that are physicians, I ended up with a 40 pill/day, Oxycodone 10/325 addiction. I have been sober for 3 years now. And I have not been on any maintenance drugs for 2 of those years. Started with Suboxone, hated it. Still had cravings. Went to Methadone which helped immensely. I was tapered off of Methadone in 6 months and felt like shit for a few months after that. But nothing like the feel like shit you all know too well. Crasy thing is Ibuprofen and Tylenol actually work for my aches and pains. I don't need enough fuckin oxy to take down a small country. It can be done.
 
Addicted to opiates & want to quit

I've been addicted to prescription pain killers for over a year and have been using them on and off for over 3 years. Right now, my tolerance is at the point where I need over 60mg percocet or over 30mg opana per day to prevent myself from getting sick (withdrawal). I use up to 150mg percocet a day (5 30mg percocet). I seriously want to stop using and get my life back in order.

I can't go to detox as I cannot take time off work. I work two jobs, one of which I recently started. I am a highly functioning addict but I spend any and all of my money (after paying rent) on opiates. I'm sick of living this way and sick of living a lie.

I am going to be scheduled for an appointment with a psychiatrist in the next two weeks as I have anxiety issues (PTSD) from being molested as a child. My PCP suggested I see a psychiatrist in in order to be prescribed a different anxiety med (I have been prescribed Ativan for nearly a year now and he wants me to switch to something else).

My question is: Should I tell the psychiatrist I am addicted to opiates? I have tried suboxone before and it helps with my withdrawals. Is this something he could prescribe in order for me to start my road to recovery? Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. This would be my first time admitting I have a problem to anyone besides a couple of close friends but I feel like telling my psychiatrist could help.
 
First of all, congratulations on coming to the realization that you have a problem. Where I live there are a few doctors that are addiction specialists. They are the only doctor's that can prescribe Suboxone. Otherwise insurance will not cover it. I do not know if you need a referal to an addiction doctor or if you can make your own appointment. Again, based on insurance and where you live. I do inow that there are Psychiatrist's that specialize in addiction. You might check into that. Take care of this now. Don't wait 15 years like I did. I ended up at the Methadone clinic. There are multiple options available to you. My couselor at the clinic said to me that 25 years ago 80% of his patient load were recovering heroin addicts. Today, 80% of his patient load are people recovering from opioid abuse. And 60% of those people started taking them for legitimate reasons. Crazy. You got this. You do not have to go to detox. You can recover and still have a life.
 
Thank you so much for your input 42Bones. I am one of those people that started taking them (regularly) for a legitimate reason. I had surgery to remove a cyst on my wrist last year and ended up getting a staph infection. They put me on percocets for months and I've never been able to stop using them since. I am going to try and talk to the psychiatrist and see if he will be able to prescribe me suboxone or will be able to send me to someone who can. Thanks again!
 
Four years ago I was addicted to oxycodone, using both Oxynorm and OxyContin for severe pain, my wife fed up with my catotonic state, diazepam also came into the equation alongside amitriptlyline, went to my gp at about the same time I realised I had a problem. I went to ask that he help me and he was already for me having been asked by my wife.
I reduced to no OxyContin, no diazepam and no amitriptlyline straight away for one week then I reduced it from 40mg oxycodone to 30mg for one week then 20mg for two weeks followed by 10 mg for three weeks. It worked, I felt horrible and restless for a few days but it did the job.


Four years later though and I have had to use oxycodone again because of pain and waiting for surgery. Oromorph makes me puke, codeine phosphate and tramadol just are not strong enough and tend to make me sleepy and angry. Oxycodone on the other hand works well and doesn't have any adverse side effects.
Some will say what's the problem if it's being prescribed etc etc.
The problem is I have found that snorting the oxycodone works so much quicker but doesn't last as long so from the two 10mg pills a day I have been taking, I'm now snorting 5-6 pills a day.
I don't think I'm going to have an easy ride this time but I spoke to my doc yesterday and asked that he limits me to 14 pills a month, which he readily agreed to.
I didn't tell him what my problem was but figured he knew because of the amount I had used the last couple of months. Without my supply I will be using the tablets correctly and hopefully not at all in a months time, however I know I'm going to be in a world of discomfort over the next few weeks.
Better that than live a lie and possibly lose my family.
 
Hey QuasiStoned, good answer. Never underestimate the world that you have become involved with because as ethics / morales dictate, they will be calling, stuffing on you and making it harder to stop. So Once a week is not going to be an option as we all know, how quickly it apparently happens, before you are smoking brown and white on the same gauze and don't give a shit, every 10 minutes. The world of crack or heroin is evil. SWIM has never once met a person who was able to maintain a 'relationship' with their dealer to get one nag a week. The nature of the beast is what they'd have typically called PUSHING drugs on people and that gets born out of the 'cluck' - people rob, scam, cut and run to get what they want. Unless you're gonna buy it from Miss Marple I'd stay the fuck away from those lot. p e a c e x x x x
 
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I've been addicted to prescription pain killers for over a year and have been using them on and off for over 3 years. Right now, my tolerance is at the point where I need over 60mg percocet or over 30mg opana per day to prevent myself from getting sick (withdrawal). I use up to 150mg percocet a day (5 30mg percocet). I seriously want to stop using and get my life back in order.

I can't go to detox as I cannot take time off work. I work two jobs, one of which I recently started. I am a highly functioning addict but I spend any and all of my money (after paying rent) on opiates. I'm sick of living this way and sick of living a lie.

I am going to be scheduled for an appointment with a psychiatrist in the next two weeks as I have anxiety issues (PTSD) from being molested as a child. My PCP suggested I see a psychiatrist in in order to be prescribed a different anxiety med (I have been prescribed Ativan for nearly a year now and he wants me to switch to something else).

My question is: Should I tell the psychiatrist I am addicted to opiates? I have tried suboxone before and it helps with my withdrawals. Is this something he could prescribe in order for me to start my road to recovery? Any feedback would be greatly appreciated. This would be my first time admitting I have a problem to anyone besides a couple of close friends but I feel like telling my psychiatrist could help.
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I believe that once you start your treatment, this will need to be your priority and you might need a sick leave for about two weeks just to get that totally out of your system. Find a support group, read more about it here in some more specific threads.
a moderator can help you with finding it here. But you have to remember you will go through withdraws and cravings and that this will be best resolved if done only once or at last in case you've done it before.
Good luck!!:)
 
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