Looking for various ways to open my heart, I found out about using the energy accumulated during sexual excitement to do so.
Two nights ago I had a successful experience. I hope people can benefit from reading this, and I would love to hear similar experiences, or any thoughts on the subject.
I hadn't orgasmed for about a month before this. I must admit it took a little light porn to start it all... but it sort of happened and wasn't planned. I spent about an hour in bed late at night barely touching my genitals (I'm a man). Even stroking the air around it had a wonderful effect, and I like to believe that I was touching the auric layer around it. I came closer and closer to the tipping point, feeling like "oh my god" the entire time. I was in a trance state.
I eventually stopped and lay on my side to try to sleep. No, it wouldn't go down. At this point it really seemed to have a mind of its own. Eventually it went down and I slept.
For two hours. I woke up again with it beckoning. On my side I gradually worked up to the point of no return (in a half asleep state this was even more magical and surreal). In this state of intense tension and bliss, I touched my chest where my heart chakra should be, and so subtly, pure aliveness seemed to find its way up there. This happened two or three times.
The last time it happened, I got this strange energy coarsing through my body, and I couldn't stop shaking with potential energy. I was just exploding with aliveness, so I got up and went outside and ran like a madman, with a profound love and peace with my surroundings. God.
The high lasted a few days afterwards, and my sexual drive decreased as if I had actually orgasmed, even though I really hadn't.
Unfortunately I was stupid today and blew my load, but I plan on doing this again. You gotta build yourself up to it though (abstain for about a month).
Yes, pretty graphic, but hopefully food for thought. Whatcha think?