muntedmunter said:I have to say it but I think that poll is very unreliable... I am more then positive the majority of the users on this forum would use the drug atleast once a week?? Not once a month... Pffffft.
If you only did it once a month then you wouldn't have much interest in it and therefore you wouldn't bother signing up and posting regulary in this forum...
royksopp said:Hmm..come the end of 2008 Ill have rolled about 7 times across the year. I usually take about 1.5, so thats 10.5 pills this year. There were a couple blurry events, so we will round to 15. 15 pills divided by 12= 1.25 per month. I cant push my limit passed that now a days. The mind opening effects just are not quite mind opening anymore.
I can see passed the short sighted answers and solutions MDMA gave to me.
Back in my first 'MDMA days, I was always floating on some magic fluffy rolling cloud in the sky. No one could stop me. I finally felt my spirit was free.
Only I had become a slave to a new cause. And it was'nt just the massive trance DJ's who control the masses like they are messiahs.
Now my mind has become much darker...I still don't entirely understand what happened.
Sometimes I wonder why I still bother. Pills are a hit or miss with the mnajority being cut with neurotoxic substances. Even with a testing kit sometimes my Rolls still fail to satisfy. It makes the comedowns very disturbing and at some points horrifying.
Why do I do this? I guess im still hoping for some secret answer to life, some revelation that makes us all special... to feel the power of God.
But its not real. I thought it was, but if you cant feel that incredible on your own then its simply an illusion. I thought it would never end.
All of us have something in common here in ED> Bluelight -
We all share the same fate.