do you think a girl that grows up without a father will be affected by this for the rest of her life?
me: i haven't seen my father since i was 3 years old. i have self esteem issues, trust issues and it seems like i need constant reassurance from men (attention, flirting, etc). i feel that relationships don't last forever. there's no such thing as a happy family that lives in the perfect little house with the white picket fence. i have a tendency of being in long term relationships (2 years+) but i end up sabotaging them because of my own fear of being left. i need constant reassurance that i'm wanted and luckily i have a great boyfriend that does so, but i often find myself wanting to leave him just because i don't want to get left.
people often see me as a confident, happy person but it's not really how i feel deep down inside. i feel like i constantly have to put on some type of facade in order to cover up how i really feel. i'm not an overly depressed person or anything. i have a lot of friends and i'm generally well liked. but i have a lot of anxiety and i can't help but wonder if it stems from me having a fatherless childhood.
are there any other girls (or even guys) that grew up without fathers? how has it affected you, if at all?
or does anyone have any information on this? or how to get/maintain a high self esteem? councelling DOES NOT work for me. i've tried multiple times and i always feel like they're trying to label me (depression, PTSD, BDD) and they never really fix the problem. maybe some of you can give me some tools as to fixing a damaged self esteem.