Its weird hearing back from other internet personas what I am like as a person -as in a 3D human being- especially when I have not had any in person or much on line interaction with these personas.
Apparently I am/was a literal crack whore, and thats a polite way of putting it. I think that persona I have on line stems from stupid live journal originally- with the help of the good old msn grape vine, and a little bit of cliquey crap that is renound BL behaviour LJ is not the best thing to keep in hindsight, but I did think my friends list were actual friends at the time. LJ is not the bible of a persons life, not everything is put in there, and not everything that is private is private. Unfortunately.
Id find it funny, if it wasnt so insulting, as its false. Sure, I joined up here under the influence of drugs with friends, have been under the influence with people here plenty of times, and know now that my business is not any of yours so I dont have to share, but thought I would just state for the record- Ive never been a crack whore, but Ill always be an addict and have never pretended to be any better, or any different to that.
I have known many people, including my friends who I joined up with originally, who have gotten themselves into disasterous troubles via drugs and the lifestyle that surrounds it. Some people are now dead. Some are in jail. Some have broken marriages, been institutionalised, some have been been through more shit than I could imagine, but theyve also had some kick arse times and been successful in their private lives too.
You dont get to see the whole picture from shitty posts on the net, you only see what you are allowed to see by that person.
Its just the internet if it stays on the internet. But unfortunately- these things do tend to cross over, and as much as Id like to write the net off as being harmless, it is not.