Speed is of the essence.
Or at least, it was. You see, the last thing that I remember before in engaging in what I believe is amongst the 'true psychedelic potential' of amanita.. I had a curious little vision..
I had my 45min nap after some moderate nausea and extreme tiredness.. got up for a walk around (cos I slept through my whole last 15g trip) and decided I needed some more sleep. I thought to myself 'hey, I just dont reckon most ppl know how to trip properly.. i mean, do they know that the mushroom consiousness is in them..despite whatever chemical name it is given.. do they realised it is a god? an entity?
..and nearly as soon as I thought a few of these thoughts, I found an Amanita in my mind. There was a gnome sitting atop of it. I ipcked the mushroom, the gnome disappeared, and I 'walked through' a door in the Fly agaric. I realised that I had 20g of magical mushroom inside of me, and that I was the shaman in this story. That begins an epic unravelling of time and space. Or re-ravelling.
Although I was both sensible and delirous enough to be imagining the width and breadth of the entire universe in one mental image.. and to talk and explain the epxerience to my g.f.. I will give only the major insights I recieved, for I feel this was a clean and universal template that was being presented.. and was also nice and neat.
Its a deliriant, yeah? Well, after my peak I could not walk without falling over. Not only the visual sense was condensed and slowed (distorted).. but my mind was working so quickly that I understood this new energy to be taking its time in healing my body cells, my mind and my spirit.
I give huge thanks to my g.f who came to lie with me and make sure i was ok. As I began my semi-delirious ramble.. everything came into pure focus. Recentyl vauge concepts became conrete truth. In particular, I was explainign the immense visual that I was having. NOt like psilocye at all- so much CLEANER. And realer. It was my own mind on supercharge, rather than an alien mind infesting me.
I was talking about waves..and wavelengths. In fact, I was physically experincing the polar reality of the universe. Of all things. I could 'see' this polar reality, and many other 'truths' I was considering, as very basic shapes. No grand landscapes of convoluted morpholiges, simply brightligh coloured lego bricks that were my own brain as they were the whole world. There was such basic simplicity in the visions, while being overwhelmingly packed full of meaning an detail.
The whole time I was rambling, and things were becoming clearer and more sensible- there was also a part of me getting quicker, and quicker and quicker. I soon new this to be an aspect the wavelenght phenomena and evetually felt myself humming in tune with the many various realites that I was moving through. With my eyes closed, I couldnt help but feel that I was coming up to the peak.. I started at edges of the conceivable universe.. and slowly, getting quicker I was coming right into tthe centre. Into the centre of me. Into the centre of one dot. One tiny point of focus amidst all the absurdity that is.
I explained to my g.f that shit was gonna get real busy. That I didnt know what was coming, but that it was gonna be ok. I likened it to an implosion. I was the rise and fall of oceans. In the cellular, all pervading sense. As it was coming in.. and folding up.. and condensing down I waondered what would happen as my mind imploded. would here be another direction I would need to unfold out into?
It was endelss. Infinite. The grandest thing, was how easily I was able to concieve of infinity. Something Id previously never been able to do.
It was around that stage that I started to wonder if my cellular vibration wasnt just about to hit hyperspace. That distant, speeding collapse.. not unlike the bigbang itself.. crushed down in on me, and then expanded into infinite microscopicness. The world within, is every bit as vast as the world outside. It seems totally viable that I was about to be physically displaced into a new universe.
Instead.. what followed was like this:
My mind was way too fast for my body. This has to be one of the effects that the bersekers capitalised on. HOWEVER, at this dosage I understood my body could not yet handle the vibration of my mind, and instead of experiencing the outer world with an inner hyperspeed, that is when shit got way Delirious!
I just had to get some music on. But I couldnt use the mouse, cos every one click I tried to make, endedup being an involutary 5-6 clicks instead. Walking to the bathroom, I fell over and hit my head on the doorframe very hard. For every 3 seconds I felt present, there was one second that I was somewhere else. Almost like 'blinking' in an out of this reailty, this common wavelength of sahred expereince. I fell ove rmany times on the way to to the toilet, and made myself quite the mess to clean in the morning. lol.
It was pure hell, to have the computer crash half way through Pink floyds ummagumma. The syneshteisa that I expereinced is beyond words. No drug to this day, has allowed me that level of vivid visualisation with music. Vivid, but of a different nature than psilocybe. The kinethesthetic/visual/auditory synesthesia was overwhleming but amazing.
I managed to chop myself a couple of cones, which I nearly dropped several times. Then I did. I packed myself a cone from the floor, scorning my g.f for being so retardedly uselss for me in that state.. and then blanked out twice during that one inhalation. Deliriant indeed.
Um yeah. It was f*ckin radical. To those who just get sick, or feel durnk or whatever.. geez, I dunno what to say. This was every bit as profound as (5dry grams of Psilocybe subaeruginosa+25grams fresh)
I found the Amanita entity to be much more loving, divine and older (than immortal?lol) than the psilocybe. Mush more generous and caring also. Thast was my 4th time. 5-10-15 and last night 20dry grams. They were found growing under oak near a lake. A very magical grove to begin with.
Yeah, I hope ppl read this and throw out all those bullshit reports and decide to find out for themselves.