Well, I just bumped up this old damn thread, because like an idiot, after nearly 10 months of abstinence (not counting the off-hand couple of times I did it completely out of impulse without thinking a modicum about it), I for some reason felt like shooting cocaine again over the weekend, every night for the last 3-4 days I would get a bag (or two, after I run out) and shoot it. The thing is, my "good" dealer who's got some great stuff (completely dissolves, no cloudy residue/off-white kind of solution, the kind of the stuff that you could probably shoot without even filtering), well he's a bit unreliable and a little harder to get a hold of, whereas the few dealers nearest to my house are always stocked and are on the grind 24/7, all I have to do is drive 1 minute and 15 seconds down the street and I'm there.
Except, of course, the most convenient sources also have some pretty shitty coke overall, especially if you're attempting to IV. Like it'll be mostly powder and chunks, I could dump out like 0.2 in the spoon and add like 60 units of water and all I'm left with is a cloudy solution with floating particles (cut) while the chunks (and most people tend to associate "chunky" with "good") , they just don't dissolve whatsoever. I can spray as much water as I want, stir and stir but they still won't dissolve. Then when I'm trying to get what little actual cocaine there is in the spoon, the cotton (and the needle as well, ocasionally) eventually gets clogged and I'm left with a more or less dry mystery white powder in the spoon and a cloudy cloudy solution in the rig (cloudy, but not to the point that it would have solid particles in it either).
Is there anyway to get a decent shot out of coke that's been cut this badly? Most of the time half the solution gets wasted in the clogged up cotton anyway, so it's really, really hard to get a decent shot.
I know, I know, the easy solution would be to get it from my #1 connect with the great stuff, but it's usually more expensive and not always available so the fiend in me often ends up settling for the cheaper, nearest source, hoping each time that I'll get a decent bellringer or two out of that twenty sack (or even dime sacks, which I occasionally get sometimes, I'm surprised dealers would even sell that low amounts of powder haha).
Fuck this. I can see myself heading on a downward spiral once again, I was doing good (although IVing heroin with some degree of regularity, but not the point where it caused me any troubles with anything, as I seem to have a surprisingly good amount of self-control with opiates), but now that the Dope Man got locked up again I haven't been able to find any H here in Houston and I think I'm replacing my H use with going back to IV coke use, which I really don't want to... Sure, I could pop Percocets or take Methadone instead, but it's not about heroin being an opiate, it's just the fact that I love the shot prep ritual and I love the rush, so if I can't get that H I eventually gravitate back towards la cocaina...
Sorry for the long ramble, as always, but you know that's just how I roll when I post messages on Bluelight. %)