AuralAssassin
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 30, 2005
- Messages
- 267
I was an idiot. I read all the "super mega happy GBL" threads around and decided hell yea, it's for me.
Go through serveral bottles, and no real hangover affects. Well, then I get another bottle and do my regular dose, but soon after decide that I wanna push it a little bit. 2.5 ml became 4ml with a 3 hour (sleep)break and then 4ml more = sleep
I did this for about a week with no problem... well, I wake up after a weird 7 hour sleep(involving antihistamines for nausea and for sleep, as I knew I couldn't dose anymore...
I wake up feeling slight flu, but I don't think anything of it. I have to work overnight. I go to work and look afright. Smoke some weed and my heart starts pounding. Weird, I'm all paranoid... somehow I make it through the night, knowing now what the problem might be.
I go home and dose.... out like a light.
Wake up and dose.... out like a light.
This goes on for about 10 days... one day I wake up for work and I get there... the heat feels excruciating, there is noise, it's bright, people coming in and out.... my heart starts pounding... I rush home and dose for the rest of the night.
I dose for the last time at 4:00am and lay down on my couch to pass out. I wake up SICK and FIENDING at 4:32... 32 minutes?
I immediately vomit and I sit and try and force myself to sober up, to let it go...
in the end, I did the smart thing. I called my mom, I told her what I had been doing and that I needed help. I went to the ER and came clean, they laughed, but one Dr there with a trach scar(obvious former user) and explained what I had done.
prescribes me 20 x 1mg lorazopam and gives me 2mg right then to take.... they kick in and I go home to wait until someone can drive me to the drug store..
I have 12 x 1mg ativan left, and I don't know how long they will last...
anyone know how long a 4ml every 2-3 hour habit for 5 days will leave you going through withdrawls?
I am almost out of Benzo's, and I can't handle this on my own. I don't have a supplier... is there anything OTC I can get to help the effects of this shit???
please, I am begging. I finally ate something today... BARELY... and I haven't thrown up in at least 24 hours I think. I don't know if I stop taking the benzo's if that will start again...
also is 1mg lorazepam every 6 hours for roughly 4 days enough to be concernd about a second withdrawl?
any natural/legal cures?
Go through serveral bottles, and no real hangover affects. Well, then I get another bottle and do my regular dose, but soon after decide that I wanna push it a little bit. 2.5 ml became 4ml with a 3 hour (sleep)break and then 4ml more = sleep
I did this for about a week with no problem... well, I wake up after a weird 7 hour sleep(involving antihistamines for nausea and for sleep, as I knew I couldn't dose anymore...
I wake up feeling slight flu, but I don't think anything of it. I have to work overnight. I go to work and look afright. Smoke some weed and my heart starts pounding. Weird, I'm all paranoid... somehow I make it through the night, knowing now what the problem might be.
I go home and dose.... out like a light.
Wake up and dose.... out like a light.
This goes on for about 10 days... one day I wake up for work and I get there... the heat feels excruciating, there is noise, it's bright, people coming in and out.... my heart starts pounding... I rush home and dose for the rest of the night.
I dose for the last time at 4:00am and lay down on my couch to pass out. I wake up SICK and FIENDING at 4:32... 32 minutes?
I immediately vomit and I sit and try and force myself to sober up, to let it go...
in the end, I did the smart thing. I called my mom, I told her what I had been doing and that I needed help. I went to the ER and came clean, they laughed, but one Dr there with a trach scar(obvious former user) and explained what I had done.
prescribes me 20 x 1mg lorazopam and gives me 2mg right then to take.... they kick in and I go home to wait until someone can drive me to the drug store..
I have 12 x 1mg ativan left, and I don't know how long they will last...
anyone know how long a 4ml every 2-3 hour habit for 5 days will leave you going through withdrawls?
I am almost out of Benzo's, and I can't handle this on my own. I don't have a supplier... is there anything OTC I can get to help the effects of this shit???
please, I am begging. I finally ate something today... BARELY... and I haven't thrown up in at least 24 hours I think. I don't know if I stop taking the benzo's if that will start again...
also is 1mg lorazepam every 6 hours for roughly 4 days enough to be concernd about a second withdrawl?
any natural/legal cures?