LOL the last thing you need are steroids. jeesus. its not like using rec drugs you cant just use them and get big.
plus, you'll probably end up with even greater depression once you stop your steroid cycle and do PCT, as clomid makes me very emotional and depressed, not to mention low testosterone levels from HPTA shutdown will also make you even more depressed. If your already depressed, your going to end up commiting suicide, especially when you realise you didint gain nearly as much as you were hoping from your cycle.
its impossible to know how much weight you will keep after finishing a cycle. it depends on what steroids you used, how long you used them, how good your post-cycle therapy is, how good your diet is post cycle, and how hard you continue to train post cycle, as well as your genetics which none of us could ever know.
its like asking us how long you will live for... we dont know anything about you, how are we supposed to know?