PARANOID ANDROID and CONTROL DENIED... here is a little story for you both - I am sure you will find this interesting ;
So first of all, I ended up getting some Oxycodone 5/325 (no more CWE on T1's) and it has really taken the edge off (it's no H but it is way better than codine and caffeine).... so I am semi happy, but the pill is round, white, plain on one side, and scored on the other. It looks like generic 5/325 oxycodone from the pill ID websites I have visited, but it is not what I am used to getting (which is a white pill, also convex on both sides and scored on one, but has the word TEC written on the other). It says it is a 5/325 oxycodone on the bottle, but you know, it is just not as strong as the other ones I am used too.... I am not sure if this is in my head or not, but I wanted to ask you two if you might have some feedback on this.
I Cannot tell if the pill is as strong or as good as what I am used to (the perk with the TEC written on the one side, but it is what I got locally, and I trust they are good, because I had to get a doc to write me a prescription - which was hard and time consuming and involved many many visits).... but either way, at least for now I have a legal supply.
ANYWAYS, here is what I wanted to talk about:
With the exception of one super sketchy one-time deal, all my attempts to find from meeting people have failed, and failed miserably. I actually ended up meeting someone from BlueLight who lives here locally, and from chatting and stuff thought they were pretty cool, but as PARANOID ANDROID stated, they were super paranoid and worried I was a cop or something.... which I guess is understandable since nobody wants to get busted or in trouble... but anyways, I met up with these guys, and they wanted me to "proove myself" by smoking some weed with them, so that is exactly what we did... and I thought things were going pretty good at first... they were enjoying the BC chronic (which I have discovered is not in abbundance here but lucky for me my friend visited from out west and brought some treats with him) and they were all about indulging in this.... but when it came down to helping me, they always got paranoid and acted weird around me, and in my gut, I just felt something was wrong. Anyways, these guys would always meet up with me with the promise of "meet us, puff us out, and then we will help you find"... but whenever we would meet, I would puff them out, and then they would try to change the plans and make me go somewhere super sketchy with them. On several occations they would tell me "lets meet at the park, puff us out, and we will bring something with us.." but then when we would meet, we would puff, and then they would say "lets go for a walk down the secluded trail beside the river, you and the two of us, and we will make things happen there" - when I would refuse to go there and instead reccomend a safer environment (rather than somewhere that I thought they could stab me to death and get away with it) they would say - oh, we forgot the stuff, we will meet up with you later... and things would roll on and on like this.
Eventually, this new accuanitance just stopped messaging me and stopped calling me... and it was like they dropped off the face of the earth. Now, in hindsight, I feel like a stupid idiot for putting myself in danger, but as a new person to town, I wanted to make some friends, and so I kept trying to connect with these guys.
PARANOID ANDROID has made comments that "if I act like a 'better than you' westerner' or try to exploit the "lower classes" then I will get popped in the chops..... I hate this sort of shit because as far as I go, I am a peace loving person who likes to make friends and, yes, likes opiods.. and would love to find a safe supply....
In my time here I have done good to everyone I meet, shared with everyone, proved myself to not be a narc or cop or whatever anyone might be worried about (and I don't ecactly look like a dangerous person or somone who would be a fed or anything like that) but still all I have seen is dangerous environments, sketchy people, violent situations, and really, I feel like I have put myself at risk... and it stinks.
The expereince has REALLY SOURED MY NEWFOUNDLAND EXPEREINCE because out in Vancouver, sure, we have sketchy people too, but for the most part, weather you are a junkie on east hastings or a hippie in the park or a professional that uses sometimes and keeps it under control, the scene is generally safe and is all about safe useage, harm reduction, and making friends. Here, it seems like it is all about violence and deception and manipulating others....
I understand I might have just met the wrong crowd, but I have met lots and lots of people, and they have all been like this... and it is not me (for sure) because I have traveled lots all over canada and elsewhere, and this is the most user unfriendly place I canada that I have experienced. It is hard to score, it seems easy to get busted, it seems like users are always out for themselves and looking to rip you off, it seems like penalties are way harsher here than in other parts of canada, and it is IMPOSSIBLE to find (at least this has been my experiecnce)////
The best I have seen so far is the oxycodone.. and it has really been a bitch for me to get. I have money, and am willing to pay and be nice but this has made no difference. I am willing to build relationships and make friends first, but breaking into the scene has been impossible for me.... I am affraid that this place will be a write off for me, and that is too bad, because responsible opiod use us ok in my books, but there are no responsible users/recereationalists, or otherwise to be found anywhere, and this is in the biggest city in the province.....
So I am asking... somone please tell me what I am doing wrong or what I could do right... because honestly, I am frustrated, sad, and at the end of the day, I am just a good person who wants to be peaceful, make friends, and connect with people. Where are all the open nice Newfoundlanders everyone tells you about in other parts of the country???? I have not found them here