I don't do weed often, maybe three/four times a month. I drank two days ago, and then yesterday i smoked with a couple of friends. My friends were fine, they were just chilling and everything was alright. i was laughing, and i felt really good and it was so much fun until we sat down in starbucks and i started getting a feeling that as if something is going inside my body. My eyes got really heavy, i couldnt hear anything, i couldnt speak loud (apperantly i was mumbling ) i was really heavy, and i couldnt walk. I heard my heart beating really fast, and it was as if i was in another world. I couldnt get out of it though, i wanted it to stop but it kept going. It was pinching me inside all of the sudden i started to get "fatter" and my singers got really big and my sing was stuck. It was soo horible, but im not close to done yet. I started hallucinating all the way back to when i was a little baby. I was sitting in my little crib, i saw my dad and my mom when they were young. (ive never seen my dad before, he left when i was little ) but i saw him in my hallucination, and he looked exactly the way i saw him in a picture with me. I saw him screaming, and beating my mom. I couldnt do anything about it though, because i was so little and i was in my crib. I wanted to do something, and it hurt so bad inside that i couldnt help her but i had to relive that moment and it was so horrible. I saw the police that my dad away, and i stood there not knowing what to do. I saw my mom holding me as a baby, and spinning me around , and i saw my grandma . two days ago i was in a fight with my grandma we havent talked in a month but yesterday right after i came back to myself i came up to her crying and apologizing. i told her the story, and i told her how much she means to me and that shes not a bad person. shes always been trying to help me out, but i was too selfish to realize it. I realized that the way ive been treating my family was completely wrong. I never want to relive that day, but i learned a lesson. I feel like this is a good lesson for me from God himself. His giving me another chance. I've always been meaning to apologize to my grandma, and when that happened i came up to her kissing her and asking her to please forgive me. I will never smoke ever again. It is pointles, and i would never want to go back into that world ever again. Hallucination is the worst thing that has ever happened to me, and i really hope it doesnt happen to me. I feel like if i didnt ask God for help, and if i didnt pray i would have died that day. I asked God for help, and i prayed and he saved me. This is another chance for me, and i will live to redeam all the bad that i have done. From this point on, i will be a better person. I live to serve God, and i believe that we are all equal, and in the end we will all be in a better place and we'll all be the same. You need to believe in God.
