I get naked at some point almost every time I roll! I never roll at raves and such. Usually, i'm at my boyfriend's apartment and he ALWAYS ahs ppl over, and i mean alot. Theres tons of people there always, on all sorts of drugs. I've always rolled there, expect the last time I rolled. And I got naked the 2nd time I ever rolled! ANd I'm not talking like in front of just my boyfirend. In my bfs room (he was gone for the night at a brewry party) it was me and 2 other girls (us 3 were rolling) one girls bf (rollin) and then about 6 other random guys who were pretty much sober, just high. And us girls all got naked..like totally in front of all these random people and everyone was laying on the bed, on top of each other, it was like this massive massage group. we were all just groping and exploring each others bodies. touching, tasting, smelling everything. It all just felt so good. Ecstasy has opened up this whole new world for me, when I'm on it, I'll do anything, with anyone. I don't care as long as it feels good. I ended up kissing another girl for the first time and touching her as well, all over. It was a whole new exhilirating experience that I will never forget. This is my good friend to so I see her sober a lot too. I don't think I would kiss her sober, but whenever we roll, and I only roll if she's with me (shes older..kind of like my big sister..watching out for me, making sure I don't do anything dumb, since I'm kinda new to the whole drug scene) we are all over each other. Her and I go to rooms together alone, just to kiss and rub each other. All the guys love it, but none of them get to come and see. My boyfriend is cool with it but never joins in...that would be awkward. I've even had sex with my boyfriend with her in the bed next to us, trying to sleep! She obviously couldn't sleep tho, but she was cool with it. I love ecstacy. And I know that people say its really not addicting, but I am so totally addicted. It's all I think about pretty much and recently, the last few times I've rolled it hasn't been good like I've taken too much and my mind couldn't handle ait and then the come downs have been so bad that I wanted to kill myself. And The next day in the morning when I try to make myself puke, I tell myself "I'll never do that again..the good feeling isn't worth this" but sure enough later that day I'm craving X, wanting so bad to roll and feel so good. But lately, I've been getting paranoid and very moody and very emotional and almost suicidal because of all the shit with my family. My parents almost found out that I've been doing drugs and my school knows, and they're counseling me w/out my parents knowing and its just been so hectic lately, I've had panic attacks and anxiety. I feel like since drugs have come, my life is spinning out of control so fast but I can't stop it even though I know I need to because I have an addiction. The desire to roll is stronger than my will power at this point. Feeling good is more important than a lot of things right now. 8(