Stargazer
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Apr 28, 2013
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Hi Everyone. I pray you're all well and in a good head space.
I apologize for not posting. However, I've been on BL everyday reading your threads.
When I returned from Florida a month and a half ago- I went crazy. I got high about 2hrs after I landed in Philadelphia. And kept going w short periods of abstinence.
For those that don't know me- I am an IV heroin user. Just wanted to clarify.
I'm currently in a period of abstinence. On day 2 of using Loperamide. And do I feel like shit. I don't immediately respond to lope. It takes me about 3 days to stabilize on it.
When I woke up yesterday morning at 5am- I sharply inhaled and was panicking. I was in w/d. God do I hate waking up like that. No subs are available.
I recently moved to a new town. Im feeling a little lost here. I love my apt. Its big. In an old mansion. But- Im not crazy about the area. Im about 25mins away from where Im from. So I feel kind of - uh scared? I don't know how to articulate it. But my anxiety has been high if Im not high.
As I stated, no subs are available due to my connection-again- flaking out.
I'm looking into sub Drs. Theres only ONE in my new town. Wtf'in hell?! I called and left msg's several times but never got a call back. So Im looking for one in the town Im from.
I just wanted to let you all know you're always in my thoughts.
And Sim-you dodged a bullet by not using. I wanted to tell you that. You really dont want to go through this. Im proud of you. Well done. ?
I apologize for not posting. However, I've been on BL everyday reading your threads.
When I returned from Florida a month and a half ago- I went crazy. I got high about 2hrs after I landed in Philadelphia. And kept going w short periods of abstinence.
For those that don't know me- I am an IV heroin user. Just wanted to clarify.
I'm currently in a period of abstinence. On day 2 of using Loperamide. And do I feel like shit. I don't immediately respond to lope. It takes me about 3 days to stabilize on it.
When I woke up yesterday morning at 5am- I sharply inhaled and was panicking. I was in w/d. God do I hate waking up like that. No subs are available.
I recently moved to a new town. Im feeling a little lost here. I love my apt. Its big. In an old mansion. But- Im not crazy about the area. Im about 25mins away from where Im from. So I feel kind of - uh scared? I don't know how to articulate it. But my anxiety has been high if Im not high.
As I stated, no subs are available due to my connection-again- flaking out.
I'm looking into sub Drs. Theres only ONE in my new town. Wtf'in hell?! I called and left msg's several times but never got a call back. So Im looking for one in the town Im from.
I just wanted to let you all know you're always in my thoughts.
And Sim-you dodged a bullet by not using. I wanted to tell you that. You really dont want to go through this. Im proud of you. Well done. ?