cyberius
Bluelight Crew
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- Mar 11, 2013
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I'm three months sober and I really don't want to relapse but I don't really feel like I can stop myself from going back. Can I have some support? I finally have the means to get a lot of my drug of choice meth. I still think I have a lot of stuff missing from my life and I still really feel attracted to meth. I don't have a sponsor. I have a pessimistic view of recovery and although I'm not depressed or really substantially anxious as I've been, I don't really feel that connected with my life or that strong of a desire to get to that point. All I want to do is partake in hedonistic activities alone effectively destroying myself in the process.
I've never honestly gone this far from stimulants since I've began using them, they have always been my crutch since I was sixteen. What else can there be in life?
I've never honestly gone this far from stimulants since I've began using them, they have always been my crutch since I was sixteen. What else can there be in life?
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