pinkanga
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Now I know that its a given that one of the effects of mdma is the ability to not only instantly connect with someone, but to connect in such a deep, meaningful way that it feels like you know the person really well. We all know that this is one of the great things about the drug, aside from the personal euphoric effects we get.
The reason Im bringing this up is that over the past few months Ive been unable to roll with any regularity (for various reasons: geography, living back at home ) and have noticed that the major disappointments I am experiencing over not rolling are not ones of stimulant withdrawal as you would expect (although they are apparent) but of the lack of that truly deep, special emotional connection with other people.
I believe now that alot of the post-MDMA absent mindedness that follows both in the short term and long term can be attributed not to the cognitive damage that mdma causes, but to the fact that we create such genuine, special connections with people (often complete strangers) when using mdma that all other relationships and interactions with others become somewhat boring and unworthy, and consequently need more effort and energy to sustain. This may be alittle extreme, but I think that a lot of the time that lack of connectiveness we feel with people after using mdma is actually quite normal and not lacking at all, but feels less due to the awesome relationships we conjure up while recreating.
Anyone agree? I think its one of the greatest things about rolling and something that you truly do not miss or even realise how much you value until you take a serious break (forced or otherwise ).
pinkanga
The reason Im bringing this up is that over the past few months Ive been unable to roll with any regularity (for various reasons: geography, living back at home ) and have noticed that the major disappointments I am experiencing over not rolling are not ones of stimulant withdrawal as you would expect (although they are apparent) but of the lack of that truly deep, special emotional connection with other people.
I believe now that alot of the post-MDMA absent mindedness that follows both in the short term and long term can be attributed not to the cognitive damage that mdma causes, but to the fact that we create such genuine, special connections with people (often complete strangers) when using mdma that all other relationships and interactions with others become somewhat boring and unworthy, and consequently need more effort and energy to sustain. This may be alittle extreme, but I think that a lot of the time that lack of connectiveness we feel with people after using mdma is actually quite normal and not lacking at all, but feels less due to the awesome relationships we conjure up while recreating.
Anyone agree? I think its one of the greatest things about rolling and something that you truly do not miss or even realise how much you value until you take a serious break (forced or otherwise ).
pinkanga