stilesface
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 7, 2013
- Messages
- 33
I have been clean for just over five years now and was inspired to come and check in. I haven't posted here for over four years, but looking through these posts was really important to me while I was struggling to get clean. I will be graduating with a BA in Psychology next Spring and am looking to attend PhD programs. I have gotten married and had a baby girl. I have moved and started this whole beautiful life where I get to be politically active and I get to study things I am passionate about. My using life still haunts me when I close my eyes. Embarrassment over the things I did, horror over the chaos I put my (then) toddler son through (he is now an amazing 4th grader who is fully adjusted). I sometimes feel that there is another life just outside of mine. My husband knows everything, of course. I was inspired, however, to come here today because I am giving a presentation in one of my classes this week on the long term impact that methamphetamine has on the degeneration of dopamine neurotransmitters and how those symptoms mimic the damage of Parkinson's disease. I was thinking how full circle I have come from being this desperate meth user on the verge of homelessness, to struggling in recovery, to whatever this is and all the steps in between. And I thought of all the awesome people I met here five years ago and wanted to stop by and just drop a line.