justwannabefree
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I am now 29 years old and have been using opiods/opiates since 9th grade with very few small breaks. About 3 years ago, I quit for a few months. Then I met my last gf, also in recovery, and a few weeks later she relapsed and I shortly followed. So for the past 3 years I have been using herion (was up to 15 bags a day of pretty decent stuff, not injecting) and about 6 mg of Xanax on average. I've been wanting to get clean the past year, she kept putting off. Eventually I set a final date for new years to quit, unfortunately she left and didn't stick it out. I tried quiting cold turkey and failed. Twice. Tried with the Thomas Method.
On Jan 20 I decided to go to a clinic and they prescribed me suboxone (2 strips a day) and some anti seizure medicine for stopping the xanax. I actually needed 3 strips at first, and tapered down to 1/8th of a strip. I last took a sub 7 days ago on Feb 23rd. So about a month of sub use. The past week has been hell. I can't sleep and haven't eaten anything and kept it down. I am always so cold.
When should I start to feel better? I find myself just laying around depressed doing absolutely nothing whenever I'm home. Work is brutal as I have a physical job outside and it's been 20 degrees out and i cant take off. When your whole life has revolved around drugs, few non-using friends... it seems hard to switch to a life of sobriety. I really want to but at the same time... i miss it. And I'm sick of being sick. The insomnia and depression and anxiety is unreal.
And just to clarify never quit using subs before or used subs before this past month so I have no experience coming off them.
Sorry for the long post! Thanks for any help or support.
On Jan 20 I decided to go to a clinic and they prescribed me suboxone (2 strips a day) and some anti seizure medicine for stopping the xanax. I actually needed 3 strips at first, and tapered down to 1/8th of a strip. I last took a sub 7 days ago on Feb 23rd. So about a month of sub use. The past week has been hell. I can't sleep and haven't eaten anything and kept it down. I am always so cold.
When should I start to feel better? I find myself just laying around depressed doing absolutely nothing whenever I'm home. Work is brutal as I have a physical job outside and it's been 20 degrees out and i cant take off. When your whole life has revolved around drugs, few non-using friends... it seems hard to switch to a life of sobriety. I really want to but at the same time... i miss it. And I'm sick of being sick. The insomnia and depression and anxiety is unreal.
And just to clarify never quit using subs before or used subs before this past month so I have no experience coming off them.
Sorry for the long post! Thanks for any help or support.
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