Digital Angel
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 7, 2001
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Ever hurt yourself on purpouse?
when i was 13-14, i was depressed, and started cutting myself, ever since then, everytime i get upset, i do something to hurt myself, wether it is drinking too much, doing whatever drug is handy or physically causing myself harm....i've started to get scared lately...i do it without thinking about it...i do it even though i don't want to. I've even had thoughts of trying to swallow some kind of toxic substance (bleach,ammonia) when i freak out (which is often). I am only 18, and i know my life isn't that bad, but sometimes i feel like i want to die....i get obsessed with using some kind of substance...any substance, to alter the way i feel...i've even taken percription medicine..just too much of it...thinking in some warped way it will make me better....my parents know about the cutting ( i still live at home)....and they tell me to just stop it...that it is childish. I assume they know i drink too much, i don't see how they couldn't....but they don't care...
..i don't really have any friends....i know alot of people...but i don't think they are my friends....and i am scared to go to people for help, because they are going to call me a freak, or treat me like i am crazy...but i'm not!..i just get depressed alot...i work a normal job, go out, and have good times, but i just get sad alot...
....anyone had a problem like this?....any advice would be appriciated...i just feel like i am all alone..
when i was 13-14, i was depressed, and started cutting myself, ever since then, everytime i get upset, i do something to hurt myself, wether it is drinking too much, doing whatever drug is handy or physically causing myself harm....i've started to get scared lately...i do it without thinking about it...i do it even though i don't want to. I've even had thoughts of trying to swallow some kind of toxic substance (bleach,ammonia) when i freak out (which is often). I am only 18, and i know my life isn't that bad, but sometimes i feel like i want to die....i get obsessed with using some kind of substance...any substance, to alter the way i feel...i've even taken percription medicine..just too much of it...thinking in some warped way it will make me better....my parents know about the cutting ( i still live at home)....and they tell me to just stop it...that it is childish. I assume they know i drink too much, i don't see how they couldn't....but they don't care...
..i don't really have any friends....i know alot of people...but i don't think they are my friends....and i am scared to go to people for help, because they are going to call me a freak, or treat me like i am crazy...but i'm not!..i just get depressed alot...i work a normal job, go out, and have good times, but i just get sad alot...
....anyone had a problem like this?....any advice would be appriciated...i just feel like i am all alone..