2C-T-7 -- Experienced -- Another Evening With An Old Friend

Another Evening With An Old Friend, 2C-T-7

At the time of this experience, I had slipped into a very dark place in my mind. Any motivation to do work beyond what was required of me was hard to come by. Depression had seeped its cold ugly head in, and I experienced an almost complete loss of control over my emotions. A past high dose 2C-T-7 trip had unexpectedly acted as a catalyst to the release of built-up and repressed emotion. The outcome was unbelievably positive, so I decided to reserve my next free night for some psychedelically-induced negative rut destruction, hoping the material would help.
50 milligrams of 2C-T-7 was weighed and encapsulated to give me a much-needed psychedelic shake-up. It was the same dose I had used in the past. I chose to have this experience alone because I wanted/anticipated a major emotional release at some point. I must at this point add that 50 milligrams is a very, very heavy dose and should only be taken by someone who is already very familiar with the substance, and extreme altered states of consciousness in general.
I took the pill around 3:00 p.m. and felt an alert within 15 minutes. By the 45-min point I was at a plus 2. As usual, the 2C-T-7 made me quite nauseous and I vomited after about an hour. Very quickly, my body recovered. I spent much of the first 2 1/2 hours just sitting in the dark thinking about nothing too particular. Occasionally, I would start reminiscing about past-relationships and such, but I couldn't really force myself to deal with all of the issues that had been plaguing me during those days. Finally, I got up and decided to do something a bit more uplifting.
I plugged in my base guitar and put on "Scar Tissue", which then runs into "Otherside", by the Red Hot Chili Peppers and played alongside the record with a ferocious intensity. Both are songs my brain strongly associates with the past. The emotions I felt from listening and playing along with the music were so intense. The emotional effects of 2C-T-7 always overwhelm me, and are my favorite property. I think subconsciously I put all of the hurt and pain I had been feeling at that time into my fingertips because I played that base like never before. As any musician knows, playing can be both an emotional release and a mystical experience. I got to have both of those occur while in the midst of a 50 milligram 2C-T-7 peak! Very nice.
I can't possibly describe what was truly going on in my mind at the time, but at the height of all of this, my ego dissolved and became instilled in the space orbiting my body. I could see my soul in objects surrounding me, such as the clock on my wall, or in the furniture. I simply existed as an empty body that reverberated with the energy of the music being played. No worries, no issues, no sadness, no pain, just the energy of the song driving along this force. Oh that was powerful.
Understandably I felt pretty good after that experience, and for about an hour or so I just basked in the afterglow of it all. I took some time to play with the absolutely overwhelming visuals 50 milligrams of 2C-T-7 will cause. They were unbelievably beautiful, intense, and indescribable…so I won't bother trying. There is no way to put what I saw into words.
Psychologically, I noticed being very much in control of my thoughts and emotions for the first time in weeks. I never really thought directly about the issues that were causing me so much pain at that time while I was playing the base guitar, but I definitely let go of something because I felt very clean and renewed afterward. Somehow though, the medicine had sneaked in and worked its magic.
After a bit of time (maybe 5 hours into the trip) I decided to take a shower and afterwards, I invited some company over. Before my guest arrived, I had a balloon of N2O, and then insufflated 30 milligrams of DPT. The interaction between the two materials was incredible. By the time company was arrived, the DPT was going off like fireworks…literally. It arranged 2C-T-7's flowing visuals into more organized geometric shapes and patterns. Everything around me became very, very active and exploded in color…like fireworks. Also, my surroundings appeared a lot "heavier" than before, as darker and cooler colors were now being produced.
Mentally, there was a major intensification of the experience. Somehow, DPT's usually aggressive and demanding personality managed not to surface. Just as well. I laid down on my couch, shut my eyes, and then dissolved into nothingness as my friend played his classical guitar. What I experienced was simply blissful. Absolute universal joy. My friend and I spent some time talking, playing guitars, smoking cannabis, and just generally having a good time. Also along the way, I also managed to discover that 2C-T-7 and DPT do not enhance my ability to play chess. Eventually my friend and I parted ways, and I fell asleep around 3:00 a.m.
I awoke the next day feeling quite renewed. Somewhere along in the journey, I shed a lot of emotional baggage. It's very interesting considering I had no conscious release of emotion during the trip, as did happen the first time I took the substance. If it is possible to ever establish 2C-T-7's safety, this material could have potential as a therapeutic agent. Wonderful material
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"I have discovered that common sense is quite uncommon" My name here
[This message has been edited by morninggloryseed (edited 10 September 2001).]

sounds like an awesome experience MGS. im glad you got what you seemed to want out of it. these are the types of trips you will remeber for the rest of your life. peace man.

i've noticed that using pharmaceuticals to work through difficult emotional periods is quite common amongst the people that post here. although it's obviously paid off for many people, i would personally be _extremely_ wary of trying it. i went through a tough break-up earlier this year, and i think that if i had mixed chemicals with the depression i was suffering i wouldn't have become the sensible, upstanding member of society i am today . without wanting to berate the people who have already chosen this method, wouldn't it generally be more beneficial to work through problems by yourself? doesn't it defeat the purpose of enduring hardship if you use drugs to make bad feelings go away? opinions?

I am glad you brought that up pindrop, and I wish I would have addressed the issue in the report. It is not my intention to give the impression that 2C-T-7, or any other psychedelic, can magically fix all of life's problems. They don't. You still have to work out your problems out yourself, the drug doesn't magically fix them. When I wake up the next day after a trip, I am back down, and it is up to me to get myself through each day. The 2C-T-7 I took obviously isn't going to help me anymore. What the drug did do for me was give me a fresh start. In a sense ego destruction, and the near death experience, is like starting over.
I don't know where you get this "using drugs to make bad feelings go away" from pindrop. Psychedelic drugs are not a means of escaping your problems. In fact, your problems tend to get thrown in your face while you are tripping. What they are, is a means of aquiring new perceptions to gain fresh insights into your problems. It is still up to you to make everything work. The drug can't do that for you. You have completly misunderstood the point of why I am using psychedelic drugs pindrop, or you wouldn't make statements that show you view it as "chasing your bad feelings away." I don't believe you have any first hand experience with this, so you are judging a situation from which you have no personal insight.
As far as one method of dealing with problems being more benificial than another, it is only fair to judge something by the end results. Like I said, I was in a negative rut with no sign of change. I decided to do something about it. What I chose to do has worked so far worked. Looks pretty effective to me. Certainly more so than I was able to do on my own at that point, wouldn't you say? So really what's the difference? Again remember...the drug is mearly a catalyst for inducing me to change, but I am the one who makes the changes occur. As a matter of fact, I pissed the drug out before anything really happened to me. My problems are still there and I must work them out by myself, and I will not be continually redosing with 2C-T-7 to do it. It does just so happen that I feel better now and I am glad.
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"I have discovered that common sense is quite uncommon" My name here
[This message has been edited by morninggloryseed (edited 20 December 2000).]

Totally with you on that one MGS. I have said elsewhere that I have had more bad acid trips than good, yet always learn about the dark side of me that I will never confront in normal conciousness (I have a history of pretending problems don't exist). But I do find that LSD, although more recently 2C-T-7 for preference due to the lower propensity for intense negativity, always give me a more positive outlook the next day, even if I have had a difficult and negative experience at the time. Central to this is of course the belief that psychedelics don't produce anything in me that wasn't there before, they just unlock the doors in my mind that (normally) conciously I don't want to open. ALL my bad trips through subsequent analysis have shown me where my own mental enemies lie, and often give me an idea of what to do about them.
I can understand though that if you believe psychedelics put something in your mind that wasn't there before it can be a scary, profoundly negative experience to believe that something invaded your most private places in your mind and deposited a big pile of crap which may or may not go away.
To pindrop:
If you aren't sure what the problem is, or like me you can't confront it conciously because you're not sure you can solve it, then unlocking the menta;l barriers by chemical force is immensely beneficial. If you know why you don't feel good about yourself and can come up with a plan to sort it out, great. If (like me frequently) you can't see why you're not happy with yourself then letting it all come out and then dealing with it once you've seen it is necessary, even though you won't enjoy seeing it at the time. This comes from a keen psychology student with an optometry degree that dealt in a reasonable amount of detail with neurology and neuropharmacology, although I extended my studies in those areas extensively before taking ANY psychoactive chemicals. Ignorance can most certainly lead to making problems worse rather than better in this particular field. Pre-understanding (as much as possible) is essential in my view to truly benefit from the experience.