The Re-tuning of Pyro (Acid - High dose + Campout)
FORWARD: I'm writing this to sorta make more sense of it all. This was my first really potent acid experience, and I was very overwhelmed, but I am going to get out what I can and hope that writing helps me describe what many can't explain, or never even see.
I also wonder if my trip was about the unity and community of the rave scene where I live, or the unity and community of the world as a whole. I am thinking that my setting (a beautiful rave-campout with a very select group of very sincere ravers), did very much influence the direction in which my trip took. I didn't see it until I looked back on it later, but a few things besides the campout being my setting leads me to belive that the trip was about my current situation, and how to better get involved... or to better experience life?
Though I'm not sure... I know I was shown many wonderful things throughout the course of 12 long... long long long hours...
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DOSE: I bought the paper tabs from a guy who seemed very sincere. At a campout such as the f-8 campout only *really* good drugs show up, the people are very in to the experiences in general. I asked him how strong it was. He said "man, I have done a lot of acid, and I personally only need one hit of this acid to trip very very hard" so I bought six
. He called it "white fluff" and it was an unmarked white paper. I took one initially, then about 30 mins later things slowed down to almost frozen... I explained what was happeneing to my lawyer Don B. He told me to eat the other five, and to be quick about it. I said... "but it's already very very potent, I'm already starting to dissolve, it's only been 30 mins". My lawyers mouth dropped and said "ok.. wow... then eat two more, and give me the rest"
. So I ingested three tabs sublingually, then swallowed them.
SET: I was in a great mood. I was so happy to finally be at the f-8 campout, and all the people around me were folks that I've been around for two years now while partying. I was finally talking to and meeting those "un-named faces" I've always seen. I felt like my mind was ready for anything. I looked for mushrooms, but those were gone very quickly... I decided on acid instead.
SETTING: The Frequency-8 (f8) campout. Two hours north of San Francisco, in the mountians near a town called Willits. It was a 'get away resort'. Very natural and beautiful setting. Mud baths, hot tubs heated by coals, and beautiful paths. Animals and just wonderful places to lay down and relax. A beautiful garden with a water fountian that had a stone dragon spitting drinkable mountain water into the fountian (filled with trout). "dragon's drool" is what everyone was calling the water
. The people around me were all very mature people. This was the bayarea rave community (at least a portion of it)... not the commercialized community... Not to be offensive, but the difference in people is huge.
ONSET: in 15 minutes I felt twisted. In 30 minutes my 'self' begin to shatter.
DURATION: 8 hour continual, unrelenting peak. 4 more hours of leveled off "oh, I get IT now" trip. 12 hours in total, ending almost exactly at the 12 hour point.
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entitled: Re-tuning of Pyro
FREQUENCY 2:
I sat upon the dragon's back to fill up my water bottle with some 'dragon's drool'. We were calling the fresh mountian spring water this, I think the owners of the property created the name. It hadn't been very long since I ingested the last two hits of the acid and already things were overwhelming. As the water spit forth from the gentle dragon's mouth it filled my water bottle. It hit around the edge and splashed off into the air where it froze and then fell straight down into the water, making no splash. The stream of water coming from the dragon's mouth was now accentuated with red and blue and it spiraled and spat into my bottle until finally my bottle was filled. I felt the stone dragon's back muscles flex underneath me as I sat on him. His head turned to me and the water stopped coming out. His mouth didn't move but he said "Do you get -it- yet?".
I didn't pay any attention to the fact that the dragon was stone, I was asking for acid, and anything that was to happen I was going to let happen, and to not think weird. Psycadellic is as psycadelic does right, no need to fight it. So I got off of his back and returned my bottle to it's holder that was strapped around my neck and left shoulder. I held onto it tightly as it was somewhat of an anchor (not a grounding device, but an anchor...). I thought "but ... why would it ask if I get it?" I thought that I already got IT. Ya know? I thought that I got -it- on mushrooms, and then ecstasy showed me -it- again. Then (as I stood there thinking, staring at the flowers, apparantly walking through the garden paths), I realized..
... wait. mushrooms showed me it, and that was different then ecstasy's 'it'... and salvia showed me yet another 'it'... All were different, yet interrelated. Of course! It finally clicked that I had never been shown, nor had I looked for acid's 'it'. What was the point of this chemical? What did it try to show people? What was along it's path?
Path
Path...
Path... ... woops. where was I? It seems as if I had wandered off into this garden, and I had no idea how to get out. The garden was the one place I didn't familiarize myself with before taking the acid. I stopped and sat for a moment. I figured that things would come and happen, and I had no fear as to the future of myself, as the garden was very peaceful and the various plants and flowers were dancing for me... why not sit and watch?
and think.
FREQUENCY 4:
I ended up finding my way out of the garden by simply walking around until I came to the grassy hill area I recognized vaugly from my 'grounding' earlier. I was *so* in the mood to relax for a bit so I picked a nice spot in the shade and sat back, using my new backpack to lean against. I felt that I loved my new backpack very much, and I am glad that I bought it and thew out my old one. I thanked my water bottle with the strap and carrier cause it was litterally grounding me so I could walk around. I felt that without it I would float away. But now I was sitting and thinking in the shade... I got the idea "I think I might float away now". I took off my water bottle and set it in my lap so I wouldn't forget about it when I got up next.
I sat back with my hands on my stomach and closed my eyes. Immediatly my body disolved and I became inveloped in pattern and waves of color and movement. I felt myself spiral closer and closer and closer to a 'center' until I finally it it. In reflection I now know that I was out of body completely, my ego totally disolved. When I finally came to the center of this spiral there was one thing. It was entitled "ONE". then it broke down into two "TWO"'s and then three "THREE"'s. Then back to ONE again. I cannot describe what it was, as it really was nothing but thought being shown in picture form. I heard a voice very clearly behind me say "do you get it yet?" I opened my eyes as it sounded like someone was talking into my ear. I turned around and the people behind me were lost in their own conversation and I was confused for a moment. What had said this to me?
I felt a movement beneath me, a small rock of sorts that was trying to move around. I sat up and there was this spider. Very classic black bodied spider, about an inch big at the body, and with very long legs. I was scared, not knowing if it was a hallucination or not, so I brushed it away and moved a little bit away from it, and re-adjusted myself to laying down status
. Again my body became nothing and I watched the world around me disapate and unravel at the seams. I felt "Nitrus... indeed, I should see what nitrus would do" I said it outloud on accident and the people next to me looked over and sorta laughed (knowingly) at me. I smiled. It seemed to take days to finally get my cracker and whippit and balloon together. then to put my backpack back on and all of this. Finally I had the balloon in my hand and became sidetracked with a group of people sitting a bit away from me on the edge of the grass. They were obviously tripping and laughing full heartedly. I looked to the next group of people ... oddly enough they were exactly the same as the first group. I looked around eagerly now to find someone who was differnt but I could not. Everyone's face was being pulled apart and became bulbus and round, somewhat fluxuating. I could tell that they were different people, but the vision of them all being the same was amazing...
touch. hand. fingers. balloon? huh? oh shit, nitrus.
So I sat back and adjusted myself and inhaled the nitrus. Just holding my breath didn't seem to be working. As I breathed back into the balloon the intensity began. I sucked I breathed in and out and each time it became stronger and stronger and stronger and closer and closer things came and bigger and bigger and magnified the sky became. I was engulfed in blue sky, then beyond the sky... no, not beyond the sky buy beyond this reality, this world. beyond physical and meaning I found something very very small, but unifying. Something very confusing but amazing. I came out of it and thought "holy shit, acid is nitrus, they are both saying the same thing but acid is more descriptive and easier to see!" Again I accidently mumbled this outloud to myself. I then let my head fall back and I laughed out loud as fully as I could and the trees and the clouds and the grass laughed with me.
FREQUENCY 6: I was still very out of body but decided that I wanted to walk around again. I wanted to go down to the main dance area and listen to music. I had this very pulling desire to go and listen at that point in time. The "pull" was undeniable so I got up and began to walk in the direction that I rememberd would bring me to the music area. I was shattered still, existing somewhere behind my field of vision, I felt that it could be my 'mind's eye'. Someone came up to me, one of the people I came with and asked me something. I asked him to repeat it, but slowly because I was tripping. Each word seemed to not come out correctly. It had to propell them from where I was, and I hadn't ever been here before, so I didn't quite know how to send word to the mouth. So I just did it really slowly. "I - do - not - understand - you. going - to - music - now. have - fun" He patted me on the back and left.
I rememberd that I had my glasses on. They are larger square thin gold rimmed dark lense glasses. As I reached up to take them off I rememberd "oh yeah, tracers" and my hand traced up to my glasses and I took them off. the glasses traced away from my face and I looked out over the area with my eyes. I realized that I was looking very insane and drugged at this point, and that my pupils were dialated and perhaps should not be over exposed to the sun, so I put my glasses back on. t t t t t t t t t tracers.
And besides, I didn't need people looking at my eyes at this point. Things were getting very deep and dramatic-er than they were only... how long had I been tripping?
I went down to the music area and my good friend Telene was spinning. Oh my god. Holy amazing fucking coincidence. And there was my friend. I stood next to him and smiled. He said "wonderful little thing acid is isn't it?" and I replied "verbal is fucked, but yes, wonderful little thing. Enjoying thuroughly" It was still daytime so there weren't many people out on the dancefloor. Those that were seemed to be VERY good dancers. Very unique. They seemed to feel every move of Telene's records. Telene seemed to be so very into her set that I was taken aback. This was truely a special event. Above the dancefloor was hanging a green pyramid that was the F8 logo. I *felt* a very strong energy being pushed outward in a circle from the pyramid type structure. Those on the dancefloor I had seem earlier dosing acid or mushrooms. I felt very connected with them, and felt that I knew what was going on... or that I could only guess. Everyone of us trippers made eye contact, and smiles were exchanged. Randomly a circle was formed around the hanging pyramid. We danced, each in our seperate spots, each our own very unique individual characters and dances, yet forming this perfect circle. Energy was definatly pushing outward from the pyramid.
My lawyer walked past me and without stopping his momentum his lips streatched out to my ear and he wispered "do you get it yet?" and he kept walking and his lips retracted back to his mouth.
Do I get what? My thoughts became obsessed with this. I didn't know what was being shown to me. community? circles? connection? pattern? what??? WHAT? I turned to Telene and began to watch her spin. The music was so intense that I could not even move but slightly. She was spinning 'acid-trance' and holy fucking shit, I could understand why they called it 'acid-music' now. The frequencies pulsated and *washed* over me, spraying me with undescribable things. I closed my eyes and became one with the flow of the music. Telene looked at me and smiled and waved. I blew a kiss into the wind at her and she caught it smiling like the beautiful person she is. Her character was profoundly accentuated. Someone behind me said "do you get it yet? Go sit down, watch, I'll show you" I turned around and there was no one there.
I went and sat down.
FREQUENCY 8: I realized now something. I felt as if the acid chemical was 'tuning' me. As if I was a nob on a stereo. tuning to the right a couple frequencies at a time, more and more intense, showing me deeper and deeper each time what it was that acid has to show. I felt that acid had a lot to show, but at this point in my life it was trying to show me something very specific... something individual to my situation, individual yet global. I sat back, again using my backpack to prop me up and listened to my friend spin an amazing set. Everyone around me was taken aback by her set, it wasn't just me, it wasn't just the acid, her set was phenomenal. It was emotional and amazing. I couldn't take it and behind my glasses a small tear fell from my eye. Just one. as I closed my eyes. The music again washed over me. waving and spiraling. I felt at 'one'. I felt connected to the global consiousness. An undertow that you normally would never feel. I caught it and rode it like a wave in the ocean, letting the water wash over my body, and letting myself sink to the bottom of the sea.
I got up and realized that I had to go to the bathroom. I told my friend and he replied "it's epic everytime" I looked at him weird and just walked away. Just my luck the bathrooms were full and there was a long line to wait for. I tried to wait but I REALLY had to go because I had been holding it in so I could hear Telene's set. I figured I would go over (to the other side of the camp) and relieve myself near my truck. The trek was long and I danced the whole way to the music echoing in and around the camp. I saw this area I didn't know was there and it had sheep in it and a little green murky pond. As I stood there and wondered "what the hell is this?" I noticed that each of the 20 or so sheep were looking at me -- frozen in time. The music being played was errie and mystical and slow... it was so perfect for this point in time it seemed (staring at sheep and them starring back and whatnot). All of the sheep moved their mouth at the same time, and said in a high sheep voice "do - you - get - it?" I thought that I had! That I was being tuned in? ... oh shit... I still needed to go to the bathroom. I hurried over to the place near my truck and when I was finally done going pee I noticed the forest from where I was standing. and thought "ok, I get the re-tuning thing... but ... oh. IT... IT must be what I am being tuned in to!!!!" so I looked around and tried to find what IT was. What I was being tuned in to. IT. Fuck now I was under pressure, the acid could fade away at any point and I wanted to grasp IT before I left. Everything started to move. everything together. swayed from left to right at the same time, all of the grass beneath me, all of the trees around me. the clouds and the sky and the setting sun. Everything together. Sitting on my truck looking over the forrest I 'got it'. but couldn't describe it.
I felt as if I needed to be tuned, maybe one more time...
FREQUENCY 10 (the final turn):
The visuals stopped. From one blink to the next. I found a chair in a central location where everyone passed by and I sat there with my glasses on, my hoodie on and leaning back, watching everyone pass by. Exemplification of persona and character. Everyone was unique but underlying it all was a common current. We were all here for the same reason
--to experience life
given this beautiful gift of circumstance and existance. The faces of the people around me stopped morphing and I realized that they had been morphing so that I would not pay attention to any one person, but so that I would pay attention to something deeper than physical perception. But now that I had 'gotten it' even though I couldn't describe 'it', the acid let me see people again for who they are physically. Showing me 'yes indviduality' but that 'there is an underlying theme and flow of life'
Something to not be described in words.
Pyro
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Frequency. Music. Sound. Imagination. Reality. Worlds. Hope. Love. Communication. Common Sense. Community.
[This message has been edited by Pyro (edited 19 June 2000).]
[This message has been edited by Pyro (edited 20 June 2000).]
FORWARD: I'm writing this to sorta make more sense of it all. This was my first really potent acid experience, and I was very overwhelmed, but I am going to get out what I can and hope that writing helps me describe what many can't explain, or never even see.
I also wonder if my trip was about the unity and community of the rave scene where I live, or the unity and community of the world as a whole. I am thinking that my setting (a beautiful rave-campout with a very select group of very sincere ravers), did very much influence the direction in which my trip took. I didn't see it until I looked back on it later, but a few things besides the campout being my setting leads me to belive that the trip was about my current situation, and how to better get involved... or to better experience life?
Though I'm not sure... I know I was shown many wonderful things throughout the course of 12 long... long long long hours...
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DOSE: I bought the paper tabs from a guy who seemed very sincere. At a campout such as the f-8 campout only *really* good drugs show up, the people are very in to the experiences in general. I asked him how strong it was. He said "man, I have done a lot of acid, and I personally only need one hit of this acid to trip very very hard" so I bought six
SET: I was in a great mood. I was so happy to finally be at the f-8 campout, and all the people around me were folks that I've been around for two years now while partying. I was finally talking to and meeting those "un-named faces" I've always seen. I felt like my mind was ready for anything. I looked for mushrooms, but those were gone very quickly... I decided on acid instead.
SETTING: The Frequency-8 (f8) campout. Two hours north of San Francisco, in the mountians near a town called Willits. It was a 'get away resort'. Very natural and beautiful setting. Mud baths, hot tubs heated by coals, and beautiful paths. Animals and just wonderful places to lay down and relax. A beautiful garden with a water fountian that had a stone dragon spitting drinkable mountain water into the fountian (filled with trout). "dragon's drool" is what everyone was calling the water
ONSET: in 15 minutes I felt twisted. In 30 minutes my 'self' begin to shatter.
DURATION: 8 hour continual, unrelenting peak. 4 more hours of leveled off "oh, I get IT now" trip. 12 hours in total, ending almost exactly at the 12 hour point.
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entitled: Re-tuning of Pyro
FREQUENCY 2:
I sat upon the dragon's back to fill up my water bottle with some 'dragon's drool'. We were calling the fresh mountian spring water this, I think the owners of the property created the name. It hadn't been very long since I ingested the last two hits of the acid and already things were overwhelming. As the water spit forth from the gentle dragon's mouth it filled my water bottle. It hit around the edge and splashed off into the air where it froze and then fell straight down into the water, making no splash. The stream of water coming from the dragon's mouth was now accentuated with red and blue and it spiraled and spat into my bottle until finally my bottle was filled. I felt the stone dragon's back muscles flex underneath me as I sat on him. His head turned to me and the water stopped coming out. His mouth didn't move but he said "Do you get -it- yet?".
I didn't pay any attention to the fact that the dragon was stone, I was asking for acid, and anything that was to happen I was going to let happen, and to not think weird. Psycadellic is as psycadelic does right, no need to fight it. So I got off of his back and returned my bottle to it's holder that was strapped around my neck and left shoulder. I held onto it tightly as it was somewhat of an anchor (not a grounding device, but an anchor...). I thought "but ... why would it ask if I get it?" I thought that I already got IT. Ya know? I thought that I got -it- on mushrooms, and then ecstasy showed me -it- again. Then (as I stood there thinking, staring at the flowers, apparantly walking through the garden paths), I realized..
... wait. mushrooms showed me it, and that was different then ecstasy's 'it'... and salvia showed me yet another 'it'... All were different, yet interrelated. Of course! It finally clicked that I had never been shown, nor had I looked for acid's 'it'. What was the point of this chemical? What did it try to show people? What was along it's path?
Path
Path...
Path... ... woops. where was I? It seems as if I had wandered off into this garden, and I had no idea how to get out. The garden was the one place I didn't familiarize myself with before taking the acid. I stopped and sat for a moment. I figured that things would come and happen, and I had no fear as to the future of myself, as the garden was very peaceful and the various plants and flowers were dancing for me... why not sit and watch?
and think.
FREQUENCY 4:
I ended up finding my way out of the garden by simply walking around until I came to the grassy hill area I recognized vaugly from my 'grounding' earlier. I was *so* in the mood to relax for a bit so I picked a nice spot in the shade and sat back, using my new backpack to lean against. I felt that I loved my new backpack very much, and I am glad that I bought it and thew out my old one. I thanked my water bottle with the strap and carrier cause it was litterally grounding me so I could walk around. I felt that without it I would float away. But now I was sitting and thinking in the shade... I got the idea "I think I might float away now". I took off my water bottle and set it in my lap so I wouldn't forget about it when I got up next.
I sat back with my hands on my stomach and closed my eyes. Immediatly my body disolved and I became inveloped in pattern and waves of color and movement. I felt myself spiral closer and closer and closer to a 'center' until I finally it it. In reflection I now know that I was out of body completely, my ego totally disolved. When I finally came to the center of this spiral there was one thing. It was entitled "ONE". then it broke down into two "TWO"'s and then three "THREE"'s. Then back to ONE again. I cannot describe what it was, as it really was nothing but thought being shown in picture form. I heard a voice very clearly behind me say "do you get it yet?" I opened my eyes as it sounded like someone was talking into my ear. I turned around and the people behind me were lost in their own conversation and I was confused for a moment. What had said this to me?
I felt a movement beneath me, a small rock of sorts that was trying to move around. I sat up and there was this spider. Very classic black bodied spider, about an inch big at the body, and with very long legs. I was scared, not knowing if it was a hallucination or not, so I brushed it away and moved a little bit away from it, and re-adjusted myself to laying down status
touch. hand. fingers. balloon? huh? oh shit, nitrus.
So I sat back and adjusted myself and inhaled the nitrus. Just holding my breath didn't seem to be working. As I breathed back into the balloon the intensity began. I sucked I breathed in and out and each time it became stronger and stronger and stronger and closer and closer things came and bigger and bigger and magnified the sky became. I was engulfed in blue sky, then beyond the sky... no, not beyond the sky buy beyond this reality, this world. beyond physical and meaning I found something very very small, but unifying. Something very confusing but amazing. I came out of it and thought "holy shit, acid is nitrus, they are both saying the same thing but acid is more descriptive and easier to see!" Again I accidently mumbled this outloud to myself. I then let my head fall back and I laughed out loud as fully as I could and the trees and the clouds and the grass laughed with me.
FREQUENCY 6: I was still very out of body but decided that I wanted to walk around again. I wanted to go down to the main dance area and listen to music. I had this very pulling desire to go and listen at that point in time. The "pull" was undeniable so I got up and began to walk in the direction that I rememberd would bring me to the music area. I was shattered still, existing somewhere behind my field of vision, I felt that it could be my 'mind's eye'. Someone came up to me, one of the people I came with and asked me something. I asked him to repeat it, but slowly because I was tripping. Each word seemed to not come out correctly. It had to propell them from where I was, and I hadn't ever been here before, so I didn't quite know how to send word to the mouth. So I just did it really slowly. "I - do - not - understand - you. going - to - music - now. have - fun" He patted me on the back and left.
I rememberd that I had my glasses on. They are larger square thin gold rimmed dark lense glasses. As I reached up to take them off I rememberd "oh yeah, tracers" and my hand traced up to my glasses and I took them off. the glasses traced away from my face and I looked out over the area with my eyes. I realized that I was looking very insane and drugged at this point, and that my pupils were dialated and perhaps should not be over exposed to the sun, so I put my glasses back on. t t t t t t t t t tracers.
And besides, I didn't need people looking at my eyes at this point. Things were getting very deep and dramatic-er than they were only... how long had I been tripping?
I went down to the music area and my good friend Telene was spinning. Oh my god. Holy amazing fucking coincidence. And there was my friend. I stood next to him and smiled. He said "wonderful little thing acid is isn't it?" and I replied "verbal is fucked, but yes, wonderful little thing. Enjoying thuroughly" It was still daytime so there weren't many people out on the dancefloor. Those that were seemed to be VERY good dancers. Very unique. They seemed to feel every move of Telene's records. Telene seemed to be so very into her set that I was taken aback. This was truely a special event. Above the dancefloor was hanging a green pyramid that was the F8 logo. I *felt* a very strong energy being pushed outward in a circle from the pyramid type structure. Those on the dancefloor I had seem earlier dosing acid or mushrooms. I felt very connected with them, and felt that I knew what was going on... or that I could only guess. Everyone of us trippers made eye contact, and smiles were exchanged. Randomly a circle was formed around the hanging pyramid. We danced, each in our seperate spots, each our own very unique individual characters and dances, yet forming this perfect circle. Energy was definatly pushing outward from the pyramid.
My lawyer walked past me and without stopping his momentum his lips streatched out to my ear and he wispered "do you get it yet?" and he kept walking and his lips retracted back to his mouth.
Do I get what? My thoughts became obsessed with this. I didn't know what was being shown to me. community? circles? connection? pattern? what??? WHAT? I turned to Telene and began to watch her spin. The music was so intense that I could not even move but slightly. She was spinning 'acid-trance' and holy fucking shit, I could understand why they called it 'acid-music' now. The frequencies pulsated and *washed* over me, spraying me with undescribable things. I closed my eyes and became one with the flow of the music. Telene looked at me and smiled and waved. I blew a kiss into the wind at her and she caught it smiling like the beautiful person she is. Her character was profoundly accentuated. Someone behind me said "do you get it yet? Go sit down, watch, I'll show you" I turned around and there was no one there.
I went and sat down.
FREQUENCY 8: I realized now something. I felt as if the acid chemical was 'tuning' me. As if I was a nob on a stereo. tuning to the right a couple frequencies at a time, more and more intense, showing me deeper and deeper each time what it was that acid has to show. I felt that acid had a lot to show, but at this point in my life it was trying to show me something very specific... something individual to my situation, individual yet global. I sat back, again using my backpack to prop me up and listened to my friend spin an amazing set. Everyone around me was taken aback by her set, it wasn't just me, it wasn't just the acid, her set was phenomenal. It was emotional and amazing. I couldn't take it and behind my glasses a small tear fell from my eye. Just one. as I closed my eyes. The music again washed over me. waving and spiraling. I felt at 'one'. I felt connected to the global consiousness. An undertow that you normally would never feel. I caught it and rode it like a wave in the ocean, letting the water wash over my body, and letting myself sink to the bottom of the sea.
I got up and realized that I had to go to the bathroom. I told my friend and he replied "it's epic everytime" I looked at him weird and just walked away. Just my luck the bathrooms were full and there was a long line to wait for. I tried to wait but I REALLY had to go because I had been holding it in so I could hear Telene's set. I figured I would go over (to the other side of the camp) and relieve myself near my truck. The trek was long and I danced the whole way to the music echoing in and around the camp. I saw this area I didn't know was there and it had sheep in it and a little green murky pond. As I stood there and wondered "what the hell is this?" I noticed that each of the 20 or so sheep were looking at me -- frozen in time. The music being played was errie and mystical and slow... it was so perfect for this point in time it seemed (staring at sheep and them starring back and whatnot). All of the sheep moved their mouth at the same time, and said in a high sheep voice "do - you - get - it?" I thought that I had! That I was being tuned in? ... oh shit... I still needed to go to the bathroom. I hurried over to the place near my truck and when I was finally done going pee I noticed the forest from where I was standing. and thought "ok, I get the re-tuning thing... but ... oh. IT... IT must be what I am being tuned in to!!!!" so I looked around and tried to find what IT was. What I was being tuned in to. IT. Fuck now I was under pressure, the acid could fade away at any point and I wanted to grasp IT before I left. Everything started to move. everything together. swayed from left to right at the same time, all of the grass beneath me, all of the trees around me. the clouds and the sky and the setting sun. Everything together. Sitting on my truck looking over the forrest I 'got it'. but couldn't describe it.
I felt as if I needed to be tuned, maybe one more time...
FREQUENCY 10 (the final turn):
The visuals stopped. From one blink to the next. I found a chair in a central location where everyone passed by and I sat there with my glasses on, my hoodie on and leaning back, watching everyone pass by. Exemplification of persona and character. Everyone was unique but underlying it all was a common current. We were all here for the same reason
--to experience life
given this beautiful gift of circumstance and existance. The faces of the people around me stopped morphing and I realized that they had been morphing so that I would not pay attention to any one person, but so that I would pay attention to something deeper than physical perception. But now that I had 'gotten it' even though I couldn't describe 'it', the acid let me see people again for who they are physically. Showing me 'yes indviduality' but that 'there is an underlying theme and flow of life'
Something to not be described in words.
Pyro
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Frequency. Music. Sound. Imagination. Reality. Worlds. Hope. Love. Communication. Common Sense. Community.
[This message has been edited by Pyro (edited 19 June 2000).]
[This message has been edited by Pyro (edited 20 June 2000).]
