Tommyboy
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You saw my post above. I didn't avoid them I went through them and just recovering. I'm still fuzzy and went to the rehab place today. They are regulating my subs. They told me I could take up to 16 mg " If I need it".
I'm feeling jittery and fuzzy. I've takes like 12 today and last dosed several hours ago. it's late PM here.
Honestly, maybe suboxone just isn't for you. Everybody reacts differently to the drug, so therefore not everyone will experience positive effects that outweigh the negative ones. Have you considered methadone? You have to go to get the subs doses every other day as is, so it would just be a few more days of going there when you take into consideration the take-homes.
Honestly, aside from keeping withdrawals at bay I find suboxone to be a pretty nasty drug. I don't feel any high from it, and the little buzz that I get from it a few times here and there isn't that good to me, and is just a half-assed fake opioid buzz IME. The side effects are pretty noticeable too (headaches, neck ache, constipation, anxiety, trouble sleeping, weird thoughts), so that's why I just got one script a few months ago and have been tapering with that. I couldn't bring myself to get another script since I really don't like how I feel on it, but without it I feel worse but only in terms of withdrawals and lack of energy, which makes sense since the only positives I feel from it are increased energy and no withdrawals. That's it really.
I remember when I was first getting on it at my outpatient rehab my counselor said to me "now tommyboy, make sure that you use the suboxone correctly, and don't get high off of it" and I was just thinking to myself if only she knew how it was for people with really high tolerances that have been using for almost 10 years now, because suboxone is the last drug I would turn to for a high since I don't really like the feeling from it, and because with my high tolerance and it's ceiling affect I don't really feel anything from it. It worked better a while back, but all of that changed in the early summer when I kept trying to quit but ended up going back and forth between subs and dope. I went from being able to feel it the day I took it (considering I was in mod-severe withdrawal) to taking 3 days before I was stable on it, and then another 3 days before I felt anything more from it other than just the withdrawal relief.
I think it made me want to use more since I didn't like how I felt on it, and it was like a tease since I felt slight opioid effects, which would make me want to feel the full ones. Then I just got sick of all that and decided to do a 3 month taper, so here I am. It will probably end up being 10 weeks total, but I'll keep you all posted. Next week is 2mg/day and I'm only doing that for 8-10 days before dropping again. I would rather do a faster taper since I believe that with longer acting opioids such as suboxone, the duration that you are on it may play a bigger role than the amount you cut down to. So I would rather do a 10 week taper and jump off at say 1mg than do a 4 month taper and jump off at 0.125, because the longer your body and mind get used to being on a drug, the harder it is for it to readjust to not being on it, which is what withdrawal essentially is. I just wanted enough time away from dope, and enough time for the subs to build up in me a bit, and that should help a lot in coming off of it, so I don't want my body getting too used to having this drug in it.
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