xburtonchic
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I've been detoxing from a moderate heroin habit with Clonodine and small doses of Suboxone for the last 4 days. Last night was the first night I got any real sleep and I woke up this morning finally feeling at least 90%. Mentally, it's been really easy. I know that's been because of the Suboxone, although I don't know why it's taken 3 days to start working for the physical symptoms... but whatever.
Anyway tomorrow I'm taking 2 mg of Suboxone and then I'm done with that. I already know what to expect from the Suboxone dose/duration of use as far as withdrawals go (feeling like I'm good for two days after the jump and then it hits me like a train for the next four), and if I remember correctly, the physical symptoms are easy as FUCK to deal with compared to what happens when the PAWS starts creeping up on you around day three or so... which is what I'm mostly scared of, because that's when I've tended to relapse in the past. To be fair, I've never made it this far on my own before - I've always been in rehab when I've made it past the initial HEROIN kick - so that could either be a good sign that I'm making progress, or a bad sign that if I can't even manage to not relapse while I'm in rehab, how the fuck am I going to manage it out here in real life? But again, to be fair, I'm not letting myself get cocky this time and at least I know that it's coming, and fast. Like, in the next 4 days.
So my question is, what do/did you guys do to deal with that "transitional period"... for lack of a better phrase...? When the physical crap ends and the soul-crushing cravings/boredom/depression kicks in? Exercise and eating right and meetings are good and all, but they haven't been enough in the past, so I don't want to rely only on those things now, either. I guess I'm looking for something more.
I hope that made sense lol.
Anyway tomorrow I'm taking 2 mg of Suboxone and then I'm done with that. I already know what to expect from the Suboxone dose/duration of use as far as withdrawals go (feeling like I'm good for two days after the jump and then it hits me like a train for the next four), and if I remember correctly, the physical symptoms are easy as FUCK to deal with compared to what happens when the PAWS starts creeping up on you around day three or so... which is what I'm mostly scared of, because that's when I've tended to relapse in the past. To be fair, I've never made it this far on my own before - I've always been in rehab when I've made it past the initial HEROIN kick - so that could either be a good sign that I'm making progress, or a bad sign that if I can't even manage to not relapse while I'm in rehab, how the fuck am I going to manage it out here in real life? But again, to be fair, I'm not letting myself get cocky this time and at least I know that it's coming, and fast. Like, in the next 4 days.
So my question is, what do/did you guys do to deal with that "transitional period"... for lack of a better phrase...? When the physical crap ends and the soul-crushing cravings/boredom/depression kicks in? Exercise and eating right and meetings are good and all, but they haven't been enough in the past, so I don't want to rely only on those things now, either. I guess I'm looking for something more.
I hope that made sense lol.