dead93mau5
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 6, 2011
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hello, I have had an extensive drinking problem in my past
mainly drinking to the point of blackout everyday or so, and then becoming extremely violent when I was blackout and getting into fights.
I have been sober for 2 months from alcohol since my last blackout rage which wound up with me getting my nose broken in a fight, I have considered going to AA for a while but is it worth it?
I have been to NA before and it was awkward for me because my group was a bunch of old heroin addicts (I am 20yrs old I went for cocaine), so I choose not to go back to NA.
I have been able to quit drinking and cocaine by myself.
However, I have a lot of bent up feelings/problems inside of me that I have very few people to talk about with. Would AA be beneficial to me? I am nervous to go as I'm unsure what I would get out of it. I do not want to relapse and go back to my old lifestyle so I have chosen to isolate myself from partying/my friends. I know if I am around them I will say fuck it and drink a little, the problem is once I drink just a tiny bit, I want to drink more and more and more, and if I'm not blackout, I will purposefully drink to become blackout.
mainly drinking to the point of blackout everyday or so, and then becoming extremely violent when I was blackout and getting into fights.
I have been sober for 2 months from alcohol since my last blackout rage which wound up with me getting my nose broken in a fight, I have considered going to AA for a while but is it worth it?
I have been to NA before and it was awkward for me because my group was a bunch of old heroin addicts (I am 20yrs old I went for cocaine), so I choose not to go back to NA.
I have been able to quit drinking and cocaine by myself.
However, I have a lot of bent up feelings/problems inside of me that I have very few people to talk about with. Would AA be beneficial to me? I am nervous to go as I'm unsure what I would get out of it. I do not want to relapse and go back to my old lifestyle so I have chosen to isolate myself from partying/my friends. I know if I am around them I will say fuck it and drink a little, the problem is once I drink just a tiny bit, I want to drink more and more and more, and if I'm not blackout, I will purposefully drink to become blackout.