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orangepaper69464
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Plz move this to darkside. TIA.
OK so Im an alcoholic. I understand that I cant ever drink again. I have 6 months of NO alcohol or drug use at all. I also keep a watch for other types of addictive behaviours like how some people become sober and get addicted to other drugs, or things like food, spending money or shopping, and using tobacco as a substitute.
I have friends who are alcoholics. I know that some of them are into AA and some went through AA but no longer go to meetings. I will sometimes ask them questions like what they do in times of stress, what they do when they are around friends that they used to drink with or are in social situations where people are drinking, and just general advice. I have been to bars with friends who drink but I just do not drink and I did not stay the entire night. I also would be at social events with friends who were drinking and I would not drink or sometimes I would not go at all if thats all people were going to be doing.
Why do a lot of them just tell me the catch all answers of GO TO A MEETING! YOURE REALLY MISSING OUT GO TO AA.? I have even told some of them how I have done some of the stuff AA has you do like realise that I cant ever drink alcohol again and Ive been honest with myself and my family and friends. I have had some of my friends who are also alcoholics tell me things like how unless you go to AA meetings you are not really sober and you are just abstaining from alcohol and how (in their opinion's) theres a major difference between the two and that if you get sober on your own and not by going to AA youre a dry drunk/not really sober, etc.
I know that AA wants you to make a list of all the people who you have harmed because of your drinking and I did tell my parents and other friends of mine how I am an alcoholic. When I was drinking I would get very drunk or sometimes be blackedout and saying really rude things to people in public while drunk. Theres no way to appologise to these people since I have no way of contacting them and I was blackout drunk when it would happen and friends would just tell me afterward what happened.
I am a very spiritual person but I do not like how AA's 12 steps are very dogmatic. Ive had spiritual experiences but not because of being sober or its not an awakening like it is for some people. I've been into meditation since I was 14 and Im in my early 30s and I do it daily. I do not have a 'sponsor' but I can talk to my parents, other family members, and certain true friends about anything and if theres a problem or an issue they will listen to me or talk.
About my other friends who went to AA or NA but no longer go they told me how they just met up with a sponsor and how going to AA/NA was a part of their treatment, and how they no longer go because they do not use any alcohol or illegal drugs and realize that they cant drink or use drugs. Some of them told me how I am OK and I dont really need to go to AA since I got sober on my own, and I am sober from alcohol.
I looked up the definition of a dry drunk and thats not me. Sure I do get bad days like we all do but I am not someone thats grandiose, judgmental, intolerant, impulsive, or indecisive.
TL;DR: Even though Im half a year sober and have never been to an AA group meeting why do some alcoholics tell me to go to meetings, and say that if youre not in AA or going to meetings regularly you are not sober and will not stay sober?
I have nothing against AA if it worked for you, thats great I just do not think it would be a good fit for me personally. Is it like this for other people here?
OK so Im an alcoholic. I understand that I cant ever drink again. I have 6 months of NO alcohol or drug use at all. I also keep a watch for other types of addictive behaviours like how some people become sober and get addicted to other drugs, or things like food, spending money or shopping, and using tobacco as a substitute.
I have friends who are alcoholics. I know that some of them are into AA and some went through AA but no longer go to meetings. I will sometimes ask them questions like what they do in times of stress, what they do when they are around friends that they used to drink with or are in social situations where people are drinking, and just general advice. I have been to bars with friends who drink but I just do not drink and I did not stay the entire night. I also would be at social events with friends who were drinking and I would not drink or sometimes I would not go at all if thats all people were going to be doing.
Why do a lot of them just tell me the catch all answers of GO TO A MEETING! YOURE REALLY MISSING OUT GO TO AA.? I have even told some of them how I have done some of the stuff AA has you do like realise that I cant ever drink alcohol again and Ive been honest with myself and my family and friends. I have had some of my friends who are also alcoholics tell me things like how unless you go to AA meetings you are not really sober and you are just abstaining from alcohol and how (in their opinion's) theres a major difference between the two and that if you get sober on your own and not by going to AA youre a dry drunk/not really sober, etc.
I know that AA wants you to make a list of all the people who you have harmed because of your drinking and I did tell my parents and other friends of mine how I am an alcoholic. When I was drinking I would get very drunk or sometimes be blackedout and saying really rude things to people in public while drunk. Theres no way to appologise to these people since I have no way of contacting them and I was blackout drunk when it would happen and friends would just tell me afterward what happened.
I am a very spiritual person but I do not like how AA's 12 steps are very dogmatic. Ive had spiritual experiences but not because of being sober or its not an awakening like it is for some people. I've been into meditation since I was 14 and Im in my early 30s and I do it daily. I do not have a 'sponsor' but I can talk to my parents, other family members, and certain true friends about anything and if theres a problem or an issue they will listen to me or talk.
About my other friends who went to AA or NA but no longer go they told me how they just met up with a sponsor and how going to AA/NA was a part of their treatment, and how they no longer go because they do not use any alcohol or illegal drugs and realize that they cant drink or use drugs. Some of them told me how I am OK and I dont really need to go to AA since I got sober on my own, and I am sober from alcohol.
I looked up the definition of a dry drunk and thats not me. Sure I do get bad days like we all do but I am not someone thats grandiose, judgmental, intolerant, impulsive, or indecisive.
TL;DR: Even though Im half a year sober and have never been to an AA group meeting why do some alcoholics tell me to go to meetings, and say that if youre not in AA or going to meetings regularly you are not sober and will not stay sober?
I have nothing against AA if it worked for you, thats great I just do not think it would be a good fit for me personally. Is it like this for other people here?