Lollerskates
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*Edit : I am not an habitual marijuana user. I used to smoke as a teenager, and used the drug very sporadically after that. I am 32 now.
Prologue:
This started when I got 3.5 grams of marijuana. My goal was to use it in recipes and eat it. I use a very potent recipe : let shredded weed simmer in bacon fat at low heat for about 30 minutes. Then I directly eat the mixture. The first time I did this, I used about 1 gram. The effect was very strong. Too strong in fact. This was a bad trip that lasted for a few hours. After a few hours that it dropped a bit in intensity and it was more pleasurable. I told myself to never use pot again, but as the effects went away, I was no longer scared of it. So I ate pot a few other times afterwards. I experimented with much smaller doses because I was scared to have a badtrip again.
The previous day:
Fast forward January 6. I decide to eat pot again. My logic was that by eating a smaller dose, I would have a more pleasurable trip. So I ate something that looked to be maybe half of 1 gram. I started watching a shitty movie called Dragonball Evolution. Then, 45 minutes after eating the weed, I was instantly hit with an intense buzz. I had to stop the movie. I was in badtrip mode again. Luckily for me, the bad feelings only lasted for about 1 hour, then my buzz was normal for several hours after that.
The fateful day:
Now we are at January 7, the day directly after the one I ate weed. I decided to eat weed again. My logic that day was that I would eat my weed in a few shots every few hours, instead of eating all once, so I could stop eating if my high got strong enough. So I ate my first shot at 11:00PM. I didn't feel much, so I ate a second shot at 1:00AM. I started to feel high, but I was like : "Screw this, I am eating the rest". So at 3:15 AM, I ate the remaining weed. Overall, I think the three shots combined were less than 1 gram.
At about 4:00 AM and something, I started feeling really fucked up. It didn't take long before I returned to badtrip land again. But this badtrip would be the worse of them all. I was convinced that I was about to die. I swear, I took my own temperature like 100 times. Numbers were normal, but this didn't really comfort me. THERE WAS something wrong, I swore. Maybe it was my plants? I was imagining my plants sending me toxic gazes to kill me. Then I imagined that my air exchange unit was loaded with a deadly gas. I felt like I had trouble breathing. Every 10 minutes or so, I would open my doors to breathe the air outside.
I was convinced that the whole world was spying on me, including my neighbors. So everyone could see the state I was in. I checked my pulse a few times. It was at like 138, rested (normally my rested pulse is 70). So I started imagining myself that I would get a heart attack or something. I decided that I would try to force myself to vomit to get rid of the weed of my stomach. I tried putting a finger in my mouth many times, but nothing came out. I wasn't nauseous at all. This made freak out a little more because I had to keep the weed in my body and deal with its effects.
I was so high. I felt something in my head like my whole brain was moving. I had extreme paranoia about EVERYTHING. Everything little detail was threatening, even if it didn't make any sense. I forced myself to eat a little because I ate absolutely nothing that day. The high was killing my appetite but I was paranoid that not eating would kill me in some absurd logic, so I downed some food. I then decided to take a walk outside even if it was very cold (like -20 celcius), thinking that walking would make feel better. It did absolutely nothing. I was convinced that every driver that passed by wanted to run me over. Then I saw some kids delivering newspapers and for some reason I thought they were assassins that wanted to kill me. I checked my back constantly.
So I was like : "It will stop after a few hours like the previous times, so let's just endure it while time passes." How wrong I was! This ended up being the longest weed trip I ever experienced. At about 3 PM, 12 hours after the last shot of weed, I started freaking out that my high was still there, just as strong as ever. So maybe I was going to die after all? Maybe this badtrip would never end? Maybe I was experienced liver failure? While thinking about these cheerful thoughts, I still felt like I had trouble breathing and went outside to walk a few times.
Afternoon passed, and now it was the evening, and I was STILL high as fuck. It was hell. I know that ingesting weed doesn't cause death, but when you are high, logical thoughts do not apply most of time, so I was thinking about getting a lethal weed overdose. At 9:00 PM, my best friend randomly called me. For some reason, I was convinced that the "people" who spied me in my weed trip told my friend to call me. He called me because he wanted to see The Hobbit movie with me the next day. I explained to him everything, and how I was having a bad trip. For some reason, I was able to talk easily and have almost a normal conversation. While I was talking to him, I was not feeling bad anymore. But then, as soon as I hanged the phone, the paranoia and anxiety came back.
I started being worried about lack of sleep. I hadn't sleep for 30 hours now. I tried a few times to sleep, but it was impossible. The high was too strong. I had crazy thoughts as soon as I closed my eyes and I could not relax at all. I started being convinced that I was about to die from a lack of sleep. In my mind, I had to go to sleep NOW or I was dead. So it made trying to sleep even more difficult. This added anxiety.
At midnight, I took a decision. I was still high as hell like 20 hours after eating my last dose of weed, and hadn't sleep in 30+ hours. Also I was worried that I would die. So I decided to go to the hospital. By that point, I was capable of driving my car, but I still had very high anxiety.
So I arrived at the hospital at 12:30 AM, and waited a few hours there. Then basically, around 1:30 AM, while in the urgency waiting room, my high stopped. I came back to my senses almost instantaneously. The crazy schizophrenia thoughts were gone. I started feeling very tired and yawned constantly. At that point, I knew I was ok and that I could go back home. I still stayed to see the doctor however.
At 2:30 AM, the doctor saw me. I felt embarrassed explaining what happened, especially since I was mostly sober at that point. The whole thing just sounded idiotic now. Also, this was the same doctor that I saw another time before, so it was rather embarrassing, because now he knew I was a drug user. He gave me 30mg of Serax (Oxazepam) and sent me home. I almost felt bad for wasting the time of the doctor and other hospital employees.
When I was home, I was not really feeling high anymore. I was no longer feeling paranoia and anxiety. I took my two pills of Serax then started feeling wobbly and tired. I layed in my bed at 5:00 AM (after being awake for 36 hours), closed my eyes, and the next thing I know, it was 5:00 PM (today).
Final thoughts:
What a trip! And I am not saying this in a positive sense. This was probably the worse badtrip I ever had. I think that the duration of the high was unusually long (it lasted about 22 hours). I have never experienced something like this before. Also, the quantities ingested were not that big (maybe 1 gram or less overall). Hell, I ate a bigger quantity than that before and the high wasn't as long and intense. So I am wondered what the hell happened here. One theory that I have is that I ate weed two days in a row, so I still had THC remnants in my blood on the second day and that made the high much stronger. Another theory is that I ate a more potent bud this time, like a head bud. My third theory is maybe the way I cooked the weed was better that time. I simmered it at low heat for 30 minutes, while the previous time I used a higher temperature that burned the weed more. Maybe it's a mix of these reasons and maybe it's another reason altogether. One thing is sure: I am not taking weed any time soon! Hell, I hope I never take it at all for the rest of my life. The most powerful moments of terror I ever felt in my life were caused by this drug. I don't need this.
Feel free to comment.
Prologue:
This started when I got 3.5 grams of marijuana. My goal was to use it in recipes and eat it. I use a very potent recipe : let shredded weed simmer in bacon fat at low heat for about 30 minutes. Then I directly eat the mixture. The first time I did this, I used about 1 gram. The effect was very strong. Too strong in fact. This was a bad trip that lasted for a few hours. After a few hours that it dropped a bit in intensity and it was more pleasurable. I told myself to never use pot again, but as the effects went away, I was no longer scared of it. So I ate pot a few other times afterwards. I experimented with much smaller doses because I was scared to have a badtrip again.
The previous day:
Fast forward January 6. I decide to eat pot again. My logic was that by eating a smaller dose, I would have a more pleasurable trip. So I ate something that looked to be maybe half of 1 gram. I started watching a shitty movie called Dragonball Evolution. Then, 45 minutes after eating the weed, I was instantly hit with an intense buzz. I had to stop the movie. I was in badtrip mode again. Luckily for me, the bad feelings only lasted for about 1 hour, then my buzz was normal for several hours after that.
The fateful day:
Now we are at January 7, the day directly after the one I ate weed. I decided to eat weed again. My logic that day was that I would eat my weed in a few shots every few hours, instead of eating all once, so I could stop eating if my high got strong enough. So I ate my first shot at 11:00PM. I didn't feel much, so I ate a second shot at 1:00AM. I started to feel high, but I was like : "Screw this, I am eating the rest". So at 3:15 AM, I ate the remaining weed. Overall, I think the three shots combined were less than 1 gram.
At about 4:00 AM and something, I started feeling really fucked up. It didn't take long before I returned to badtrip land again. But this badtrip would be the worse of them all. I was convinced that I was about to die. I swear, I took my own temperature like 100 times. Numbers were normal, but this didn't really comfort me. THERE WAS something wrong, I swore. Maybe it was my plants? I was imagining my plants sending me toxic gazes to kill me. Then I imagined that my air exchange unit was loaded with a deadly gas. I felt like I had trouble breathing. Every 10 minutes or so, I would open my doors to breathe the air outside.
I was convinced that the whole world was spying on me, including my neighbors. So everyone could see the state I was in. I checked my pulse a few times. It was at like 138, rested (normally my rested pulse is 70). So I started imagining myself that I would get a heart attack or something. I decided that I would try to force myself to vomit to get rid of the weed of my stomach. I tried putting a finger in my mouth many times, but nothing came out. I wasn't nauseous at all. This made freak out a little more because I had to keep the weed in my body and deal with its effects.
I was so high. I felt something in my head like my whole brain was moving. I had extreme paranoia about EVERYTHING. Everything little detail was threatening, even if it didn't make any sense. I forced myself to eat a little because I ate absolutely nothing that day. The high was killing my appetite but I was paranoid that not eating would kill me in some absurd logic, so I downed some food. I then decided to take a walk outside even if it was very cold (like -20 celcius), thinking that walking would make feel better. It did absolutely nothing. I was convinced that every driver that passed by wanted to run me over. Then I saw some kids delivering newspapers and for some reason I thought they were assassins that wanted to kill me. I checked my back constantly.
So I was like : "It will stop after a few hours like the previous times, so let's just endure it while time passes." How wrong I was! This ended up being the longest weed trip I ever experienced. At about 3 PM, 12 hours after the last shot of weed, I started freaking out that my high was still there, just as strong as ever. So maybe I was going to die after all? Maybe this badtrip would never end? Maybe I was experienced liver failure? While thinking about these cheerful thoughts, I still felt like I had trouble breathing and went outside to walk a few times.
Afternoon passed, and now it was the evening, and I was STILL high as fuck. It was hell. I know that ingesting weed doesn't cause death, but when you are high, logical thoughts do not apply most of time, so I was thinking about getting a lethal weed overdose. At 9:00 PM, my best friend randomly called me. For some reason, I was convinced that the "people" who spied me in my weed trip told my friend to call me. He called me because he wanted to see The Hobbit movie with me the next day. I explained to him everything, and how I was having a bad trip. For some reason, I was able to talk easily and have almost a normal conversation. While I was talking to him, I was not feeling bad anymore. But then, as soon as I hanged the phone, the paranoia and anxiety came back.
I started being worried about lack of sleep. I hadn't sleep for 30 hours now. I tried a few times to sleep, but it was impossible. The high was too strong. I had crazy thoughts as soon as I closed my eyes and I could not relax at all. I started being convinced that I was about to die from a lack of sleep. In my mind, I had to go to sleep NOW or I was dead. So it made trying to sleep even more difficult. This added anxiety.
At midnight, I took a decision. I was still high as hell like 20 hours after eating my last dose of weed, and hadn't sleep in 30+ hours. Also I was worried that I would die. So I decided to go to the hospital. By that point, I was capable of driving my car, but I still had very high anxiety.
So I arrived at the hospital at 12:30 AM, and waited a few hours there. Then basically, around 1:30 AM, while in the urgency waiting room, my high stopped. I came back to my senses almost instantaneously. The crazy schizophrenia thoughts were gone. I started feeling very tired and yawned constantly. At that point, I knew I was ok and that I could go back home. I still stayed to see the doctor however.
At 2:30 AM, the doctor saw me. I felt embarrassed explaining what happened, especially since I was mostly sober at that point. The whole thing just sounded idiotic now. Also, this was the same doctor that I saw another time before, so it was rather embarrassing, because now he knew I was a drug user. He gave me 30mg of Serax (Oxazepam) and sent me home. I almost felt bad for wasting the time of the doctor and other hospital employees.
When I was home, I was not really feeling high anymore. I was no longer feeling paranoia and anxiety. I took my two pills of Serax then started feeling wobbly and tired. I layed in my bed at 5:00 AM (after being awake for 36 hours), closed my eyes, and the next thing I know, it was 5:00 PM (today).
Final thoughts:
What a trip! And I am not saying this in a positive sense. This was probably the worse badtrip I ever had. I think that the duration of the high was unusually long (it lasted about 22 hours). I have never experienced something like this before. Also, the quantities ingested were not that big (maybe 1 gram or less overall). Hell, I ate a bigger quantity than that before and the high wasn't as long and intense. So I am wondered what the hell happened here. One theory that I have is that I ate weed two days in a row, so I still had THC remnants in my blood on the second day and that made the high much stronger. Another theory is that I ate a more potent bud this time, like a head bud. My third theory is maybe the way I cooked the weed was better that time. I simmered it at low heat for 30 minutes, while the previous time I used a higher temperature that burned the weed more. Maybe it's a mix of these reasons and maybe it's another reason altogether. One thing is sure: I am not taking weed any time soon! Hell, I hope I never take it at all for the rest of my life. The most powerful moments of terror I ever felt in my life were caused by this drug. I don't need this.
Feel free to comment.
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