2 mg alprazolam, 2 mg clonazepam, 90 mg temazepam, 150 mg tramadol, 5 mg mixed amphetamine salts (extended-release) all about 5 hours ago. And, 75 mg tramadol about 7 hours ago. Feeling good - long time since I have been really downed-out, and had a good time with just benzos, tramadol, and a little bit of amphetamine to add to the high, and allow me to be somewhat functional in basic shit. I would not be able to calculate numbers now, but I am able to type, and well-enough it seems, although I notice my typing is a bit off. I have a feeling I am getting to like temazepam a little too much - oh well, already in deep-enough benzo dependence w/ obviously a high tolerance should I be able to write like this after consuming how much benzodiazepine I did only 5 hours ago. So happy to finally have temazepam available for my use - only second time, the night before last being my first with only 15 mg. Not sure how well I'll remember all of tonight tomorrow, but it won't be blacked-out, I doubt - I have never really had FULL amnesia from any drug, except maybe DXM a few times, but that is different, obviously. I actually was going to dose lower with the temazepam at first, like 60 mg, but with my tolerance, and the daily stress lately - why not 90 mg, if I can handle it, which it seems I can. I think I have found a benzo that is actually going to be practical for anxiety for me without unwanted effects, but will still rely on alprazolam for sharper anxiety attacks or paranoid anxiety. Weird thing is I don't have insomnia - only stay up late, every night, out of habit. I think it is the Adderall XR that really just wears me out through the days, and I just crash into a sleep for a decent amount of time, and repeat cycle. I am starting to, and I never thought I would really would, think about asking for a switch to pure dextroamphetamine, either in IR or Spansule form, or Vyvanse. I still like the idea of having PRN stimulants, though, so I am not sure how that would go. I like the Adderall XR in that it wakes me up and gives me that kick, but recently I have been unwarrantedly anxious of a paranoid variety, and it seems highly tied to the amps, though I never go above 20 mg Adderall XR daily. I am rambling - maybe I am just sensitive, or am feeling less of the initial positive effect leading to a perception of more side-effects? I don't know. Vyvanse sure does sound attractive, though, due to the smoothness, efficacy, and duration of action. But, I'd want like a little Adderall IR on the side to use as needed. Scratches head. Too relaxed to give a shit right now. Will worry about it later.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
...i'm about to ruin my weekend tho
sleep when ya dead. Also why do so many people hate ritalin so much? Everyone says the comedown is hellish but it ain't that bad for me... Maybe I'm just lucky but I do keep hydrated, take magnesium and have these sachets full of electrolytes etc but at the same time I generally have a few redbulls on it as well, comedown for me is just don't feel like doing anything and a bit anxious but keeping my mind occupied tends to get rid of that feeling completely. 
But, I'll take a nice bag of ketamine over tramadol any day. :D
