44mgs diazepam (weird dose, I know, I'm tapering).
45mgs methadone.
Feeling mildly relaxed, but 'done takes forever to kick in, for me - like I don't peak for up to 12 hours after taking it. Given that the dope available to me is shit, and there's been a shortage of the pharms I'd usually take, I ended up buying a bunch of 5mg physeptone pills, not having used 'done since two bad experiences with excessive doses of linctus back when I was first chipping H, a lifetime ago. Now I find it more pleasant than most seem to, and though I know it's a dangerous combination with benzos, my tolerance to both is high enough that these kind of doses eventually produce a long, deep nod filled with vivid opiate dreams. I've got to stop taking the stuff, though, as I'm not currently opiate-dependent: a few more doses and I will be. Hoping to take a week off, but I've been skating on the edge of re-addiction for months, using dope, morphine and high-dose DHC as they've been available...and three doses of methadone, plus one of H this week is probably going to leave me a little sick when the 'done wears off.
But there's a self-limiting aspect to the stuff for me - I find it constipates worse than morphine. Gobbling stool softeners and hoping that it doesn't end up too painful...
Would honestly have much rather had a whole shitload of DHC60s and some weed, but all I can get at the moment are my taper 'script, bad H and methadone. I miss the days of morphine linctus, oxy IRs and cheap Thai weed...may they come again, and that right soon.