Between Oct and Nov I took some stuff I thought was Mephedrone about 10g with 2caps of 5-htp. And it felt like a hand grenade went off in my head. A week later I couldn't cum in my brain and had bad tinnitus.
So, you took 10 g in one session? Or you spanned 10 g throughout the months of October and November?
Can you tell me what "cum in your brain" means?
Ringing of the ears is typical.
According to wiki - "...to reduce the potential harm caused by using mephedrone, users should only use mephedrone occasionally (less than weekly), use less than 0.5 g per session, dose orally rather than snorting the drug, and avoid mixing it with alcohol and other drugs. Users should also drink plenty of water whilst taking the drug as it causes dehydration."
The 10 g spread throughout 2 months wouldn't be so bad, because assuming one used it in a harm-reduction matter, there would be 20 doses in 10 g, and it would require dosing once more per week than suggested above. I am assuming this isn't the case. If you took 10 g of MCAT all at once, I am not surprised that you are having these issues. I'm surprised something worse didn't happen.
The thing with RC's is that there's not much history to go off of to see what has happened to others.
wiki - "Almost nothing is known about the long-term effects of the drug due to the short history of its use."
Which, in turn, makes it incredibly important to do your research (ie - look on BL) BEFORE you attempt snorting ten freaking grams of an RC. I don't want to be a giant asshole here, but it's people like you and behaviours that you have presented that make these drugs illegal for the rest of the responsible users. If people would research and dose correctly, deaths/worsened side effects wouldn't be brought to light to the media, thus alerting people to the 'problem drug,' all because somebody thought it would be okay to rail up a dose of some crazy chemical like they'd rail up a line of cocaine. It's simply irresponsible.
A month after that don't ask why but I took 3g and then sniffed what I thought was amyl nitrate.
some poppers? hmm...I doubt this had a huge effect on the damage already done, but I really have no idea.
I haven't slept a peep for 3 to 4months. Really. The only relief was conscious dreams.
humanly impossible. "The record for the longest period without sleep is 18 days, 21 hours, 40 minutes during a rocking chair marathon. The record holder reported hallucinations, paranoia, blurred vision, slurred speech and memory and concentration lapses." - the national sleep research project
You are probably getting small "peeps" of sleep, but perhaps you haven't entered REM sleep in quite some time. I know how this feels. I also know that your body simply shuts down when it doesn't want to run anymore. I haven't slept more than 4 contiguous hours in about 7 months. My body often says "fuck off, I'm done" at very odd times. Even if it's just for 5 minutes, your body is desperate for it, and will take it when deemed necessary. Hell, I was working last night at a packed, loud bar serving a beer tub. I was sitting on a stool and I fucking nodded out. It was probably only for 5 seconds or so, but I couldn't believe it. Did I take my ass home and go to sleep? Of course not...lol...I digress.
Now I have no anxiety, am happy and recoverd a lot of mental functions.
Still no real sleep
No brain orgasm function
No balance in ears, which effects vision slightly
Tinnitus
And numb brain
To help sleep & rebuilding of brain functions - take Melatonin every day before you go to bed. (I have personally found that melatonin works best for me on an empty stomach. Every time I have taken it with food or close to a meal (within an hour or two) I don't think it works very well. Choose a bedtime that is the exact same every night. Create a quiet, dark place that you can relax and try to drift off. Maybe try yoga or other breathing exercises that help you relax. Meditation?
I don't know what your diet is like, but I would make sure to add a multivitamin daily, 5-HTP, as you already said, drink a shitload of fluids (water, real juices, tea) fruits and veggies, you know - a well rounded diet. One would be surprised as to what a gigantic difference it can make.
All this stuff I'm saying is probably "blah blah blah no shit sherlock" but you have to start somewhere with the basics if you hope to regain functions you once had.
If I was you, I'd go to a doctor and get put on an anti depressant to stimulate serotonin regrowth. If you can't find a doctor who will listen/isn't helping, keep going to doctors until you do find one that will listen and respect what you're going through.
Anyone know if it was the cocktail I took or should I assume I was spiked/sold something nasty?
Nobody actually knows for sure I guess, and it's lost information, because it's long gone out of your system. Maybe you could get one of those hair tests done where they take a strand of hair and can see all the chemicals you've ingested for a pretty significant period of time. Other than that, both of the drugs you listed above don't stay in your system for more than 2-4 days. Therefore, there is no 'cocktail' between the MCAT and the poppers because you said you took them a month apart. If you're referring to the alleged 'cocktail' that may have been given to you in the form of what you thought was MCAT and potentially cut/laced with an SSRI, well, somebody would really hate you or have the intention of serious harm, because as a general rule, mixing stims and SSRIs or almost anything in that general anti-depressant family is a no no.
I urge you to seek a doctor that will listen to you and help you. Wish you luck.
