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Greenlighter
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- Dec 19, 2011
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Just realize how long this thing got. I'm just going to post it because I'm hoping someone else has gone through this and can see where I'm at. I'm totally committed to doing it this time and never going back. I also think I have the resources at my disposal to make this easier on me as the last few times I tried to quit I didn't make it but didn't realize I had those resources at my disposal. Maybe with knowledge from you guys I can make it.
Like everything else in my life I am even doing this bass ackwards! Here is the deal. I never did drugs. I didn't want them and they are illegal, even when they are prescribed pain killers I didn't take them. Didn't want to get hooked. Then I tried this stuff called Kratom. Not the leaves or power or anything. Friend said it is legal and would give me the euphoria of painkillers but last longer and I could work harder and stuff.
I tried and BAM! I was hooked. The euphoria was awesome! I could work so very hard writing computer programs and just a teasoon of it kicked in within 30-45 minutes, 60 on a full stomach and lasted hours. While expensive I didn't care because I was loving working on it and making lots of money. My tolerence rose but not much and I guess that is what is so cool about the liquird forms. Also I couldn't keep taking more and more and more or I would get sick.
I had no idea what trying to quit would be like. I feel HORRIBLE. I am depressed I am owned by this lousy drug. My muscles are like jello. Nothing in life seems good. So I bought more. But now that I know it has me I want to get off it.
How do I get through the withdrawals? How long to they last?
The reason I am saying I am doing this backwards is because searching the net I found a lot of people use Kratom to get off opiates. Well opiates is what I have. I don't take them! I'll fill the prescription because I heard it was smart to get them if you are prescribed in case you can't get through the pain. But I've never needed them. I'm hoping maybe someone who has withdrawn from Kratom or SWIY could help me to now use these things to get off the Kratom without getting hooked on the pills.
I went through my pill bottles and it looks like the best I have are the pills with WATSON 932 on them which are 10mg of Oxycodone and 325mg of Acetaminophen. At least from the searching on the internet those seem to be the best.
Now I don't want to get hooked on these. But I dumped the Kratom and don't want to buy an emergency order of that in two days. I want to be off Kratom for good and not give in.
How can I use the Oxy to get over Kratom? I know the Kratom withdrawals will kick in around 12 hours from now so tomorrow morning when I am at work. I already know what will happen. I am going to start feeling very depressed and very scared or suspicious of everyone who even looks at me. My nose will suddenly just start running while talking to someone. I will then start feeling very weak and very depressed and very scared.
I so don't want people at my work to find out. That would be so embarassing and they totally love me there. Probably because I get so much work done and have for the last year or so. Always Johnny on the Spot, always working late! But I won't be this week if I actually quit the Kratom and they see me withdrawing and then they'll think I'm a loser junkie which I guess I really am. I was almost tempted to just take the week off work but with Christmas bonuses and stuff all coming up and we are launching some software so the next two weeks are the only weeks this year where I totally have to be there.
What a mess and I already dumped all my Kratom which cost me a ton but I just hate it. I am so sick of being owned by it I have to get through it now. I can't keep doing the Kratom for two more weeks because it'll be another 6 months before I even try to quit. I have to quit and it has to be now. I can't do it anymore! Anyone ever felt like this or am I just the dumbest of everyone? Sheesh!
So back to my question. Can I use the Oxy to lessen my Kratom withdrawal? I've seen a lot of posts where people used Kratom to help through painkiller addiction, can I use it in reverse? I know nothing about painkillers except that they can give you euphoria which I've never felt from them. I took a couple vicodens about a dozen years ago when I broke a wrist and didn't notice anything, didn't even think they worked so I think I tossed them. I don't remember what strength they were. I can keep a bottle of the Oxy's at work if they will help. I figure I'll take 30 with me tomorrow so I'll have them at work and at home. If I only use them for a couple weeks I won't have to go through Oxy withdrawal right? Or maybe that withdrawal won't be that bad as I haven't been on them for a year.
If it helps to know how much Kratom I was taking I guess it would be equivilant to 200 grams of the powder. I don't want to give away how to get what I was taking because I so much don't want other people to think Kratom works and then buy it. Without knowing how much I was taking of the liquid you can't really cross reference it. I'm hoping that's general enough so people can't find it but specific enough so people who have taken Kratom know where I am at and why my withdrawals are so bad. Don't try Kratom, life is so much better without that demon! I want my life back. I don't want to lose my job but the withdrawals that are about to start are going to totally kick my butt. I give up every time.
It is very embarassing too because I'm a normal sized guy. About 5'11", 255pound, and not much fat. With Kratom I could work out like crazy and not eat a lot because it steals my appetite. I could work very hard and think. But man, trying to stop is like impossible for me. A day from now I'm not going to have the ability to do 15 lousy pushups that is how weak I'll be. I will also be very, very paranoid and shaky. Which isn't good! At work if something goes wrong I'm the first person people come to because I can usually figure out stuff really quick and get them out of trouble before the boss finds out. So they are always popping in my office. I never even ask people to knock, they know my door is always open to them. How bad that'll be if they pop in while I'm puking my guts out of have the dry heaves. I so shouldn't of dumped out all that Kratom.... Wow I'm stupid!
I'm so torn right now. I wish I hadn't dumped it all out. I'm thinking maybe I'll order it real fast and get it rush shipped. Then I'll quit in a couple weeks. But I can't, you have no idea how many times I've told myself that over the last 6 months. Then one day in and I'm a little baby and order more. Not this time, I am so done with Kratom! I want to be ME again.
I'm glad I found these forums, that is good. Saw that people used Kratom to overcome painkillers and I'm hoping to use the painkillers I have to get through the worst of Kratom withdrawal and start my New Year completely clean and off that crap.
I also have a lot of real good Kava which is what I use now to go to sleep because otherwise the Kratom would keep me awake.
How long does the Kratom withdrawal last? I so interested in knowing how many days I have to get though.
Sorry the post got so long. My mind is spinning, I know I have hell to go through. Nobody knows about this at work. I'm ashamed if they find out they'll really hate me or worse. Maybe even can me I don't know. This is a nightmare. Any help would be very much appreciated.
KratomBites
Like everything else in my life I am even doing this bass ackwards! Here is the deal. I never did drugs. I didn't want them and they are illegal, even when they are prescribed pain killers I didn't take them. Didn't want to get hooked. Then I tried this stuff called Kratom. Not the leaves or power or anything. Friend said it is legal and would give me the euphoria of painkillers but last longer and I could work harder and stuff.
I tried and BAM! I was hooked. The euphoria was awesome! I could work so very hard writing computer programs and just a teasoon of it kicked in within 30-45 minutes, 60 on a full stomach and lasted hours. While expensive I didn't care because I was loving working on it and making lots of money. My tolerence rose but not much and I guess that is what is so cool about the liquird forms. Also I couldn't keep taking more and more and more or I would get sick.
I had no idea what trying to quit would be like. I feel HORRIBLE. I am depressed I am owned by this lousy drug. My muscles are like jello. Nothing in life seems good. So I bought more. But now that I know it has me I want to get off it.
How do I get through the withdrawals? How long to they last?
The reason I am saying I am doing this backwards is because searching the net I found a lot of people use Kratom to get off opiates. Well opiates is what I have. I don't take them! I'll fill the prescription because I heard it was smart to get them if you are prescribed in case you can't get through the pain. But I've never needed them. I'm hoping maybe someone who has withdrawn from Kratom or SWIY could help me to now use these things to get off the Kratom without getting hooked on the pills.
I went through my pill bottles and it looks like the best I have are the pills with WATSON 932 on them which are 10mg of Oxycodone and 325mg of Acetaminophen. At least from the searching on the internet those seem to be the best.
Now I don't want to get hooked on these. But I dumped the Kratom and don't want to buy an emergency order of that in two days. I want to be off Kratom for good and not give in.
How can I use the Oxy to get over Kratom? I know the Kratom withdrawals will kick in around 12 hours from now so tomorrow morning when I am at work. I already know what will happen. I am going to start feeling very depressed and very scared or suspicious of everyone who even looks at me. My nose will suddenly just start running while talking to someone. I will then start feeling very weak and very depressed and very scared.
I so don't want people at my work to find out. That would be so embarassing and they totally love me there. Probably because I get so much work done and have for the last year or so. Always Johnny on the Spot, always working late! But I won't be this week if I actually quit the Kratom and they see me withdrawing and then they'll think I'm a loser junkie which I guess I really am. I was almost tempted to just take the week off work but with Christmas bonuses and stuff all coming up and we are launching some software so the next two weeks are the only weeks this year where I totally have to be there.
What a mess and I already dumped all my Kratom which cost me a ton but I just hate it. I am so sick of being owned by it I have to get through it now. I can't keep doing the Kratom for two more weeks because it'll be another 6 months before I even try to quit. I have to quit and it has to be now. I can't do it anymore! Anyone ever felt like this or am I just the dumbest of everyone? Sheesh!
So back to my question. Can I use the Oxy to lessen my Kratom withdrawal? I've seen a lot of posts where people used Kratom to help through painkiller addiction, can I use it in reverse? I know nothing about painkillers except that they can give you euphoria which I've never felt from them. I took a couple vicodens about a dozen years ago when I broke a wrist and didn't notice anything, didn't even think they worked so I think I tossed them. I don't remember what strength they were. I can keep a bottle of the Oxy's at work if they will help. I figure I'll take 30 with me tomorrow so I'll have them at work and at home. If I only use them for a couple weeks I won't have to go through Oxy withdrawal right? Or maybe that withdrawal won't be that bad as I haven't been on them for a year.
If it helps to know how much Kratom I was taking I guess it would be equivilant to 200 grams of the powder. I don't want to give away how to get what I was taking because I so much don't want other people to think Kratom works and then buy it. Without knowing how much I was taking of the liquid you can't really cross reference it. I'm hoping that's general enough so people can't find it but specific enough so people who have taken Kratom know where I am at and why my withdrawals are so bad. Don't try Kratom, life is so much better without that demon! I want my life back. I don't want to lose my job but the withdrawals that are about to start are going to totally kick my butt. I give up every time.
It is very embarassing too because I'm a normal sized guy. About 5'11", 255pound, and not much fat. With Kratom I could work out like crazy and not eat a lot because it steals my appetite. I could work very hard and think. But man, trying to stop is like impossible for me. A day from now I'm not going to have the ability to do 15 lousy pushups that is how weak I'll be. I will also be very, very paranoid and shaky. Which isn't good! At work if something goes wrong I'm the first person people come to because I can usually figure out stuff really quick and get them out of trouble before the boss finds out. So they are always popping in my office. I never even ask people to knock, they know my door is always open to them. How bad that'll be if they pop in while I'm puking my guts out of have the dry heaves. I so shouldn't of dumped out all that Kratom.... Wow I'm stupid!
I'm so torn right now. I wish I hadn't dumped it all out. I'm thinking maybe I'll order it real fast and get it rush shipped. Then I'll quit in a couple weeks. But I can't, you have no idea how many times I've told myself that over the last 6 months. Then one day in and I'm a little baby and order more. Not this time, I am so done with Kratom! I want to be ME again.
I'm glad I found these forums, that is good. Saw that people used Kratom to overcome painkillers and I'm hoping to use the painkillers I have to get through the worst of Kratom withdrawal and start my New Year completely clean and off that crap.
I also have a lot of real good Kava which is what I use now to go to sleep because otherwise the Kratom would keep me awake.
How long does the Kratom withdrawal last? I so interested in knowing how many days I have to get though.
Sorry the post got so long. My mind is spinning, I know I have hell to go through. Nobody knows about this at work. I'm ashamed if they find out they'll really hate me or worse. Maybe even can me I don't know. This is a nightmare. Any help would be very much appreciated.
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