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Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 23, 2011
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I have had shocking brain fog for nearly this whole year. I can't function, think, remember, rationalise, problem solve, or feel anything except numbness.
I posted here about 8 months or so claiming that I had brain damage or a brain tumor. Since then I have seen various specialist doctors and had loads of tests. Probably the most conclusive test was a MRI I had, which came back normal and pretty much ruled out a brain tumor and severe brain damage (probably didn't detect mild brain damage from boozing).
Anyway, every single doctor including my psychiatrist has put this down to long term stress (collective word for alot of mental issues) causing my brain to eventually turn on this natural defence mechanism to protect it from the thoughts that used to haunt me.
Personally, I now believe this is the case. At first I thought it was bullshit that those mental issues I have dealt with for a long time could cause this crippling cognitive dysfunction, but apparantly it can happen.
Deep down I know the only chance I have of beating it is by addressing these issues and possibly cutting loose a very important part of my life. When I consider it I go into a panic attack (which is good I guess, at least I can feel something, meaning maybe I'm on the right track). I'm way too scared of losing this part of my life, something for a long time I considered to be the only thing I live for. However that part of my life has now become toxic and is destroying my mind.
I'm sorry this was vague, and also looks like it was written by an 8 year old- but I just can't think straight anymore.
I was just hoping for a bit of advice, or for people to share their similar stories. I don't want to live like this, but it feels like I will never go back to normal.
I posted here about 8 months or so claiming that I had brain damage or a brain tumor. Since then I have seen various specialist doctors and had loads of tests. Probably the most conclusive test was a MRI I had, which came back normal and pretty much ruled out a brain tumor and severe brain damage (probably didn't detect mild brain damage from boozing).
Anyway, every single doctor including my psychiatrist has put this down to long term stress (collective word for alot of mental issues) causing my brain to eventually turn on this natural defence mechanism to protect it from the thoughts that used to haunt me.
Personally, I now believe this is the case. At first I thought it was bullshit that those mental issues I have dealt with for a long time could cause this crippling cognitive dysfunction, but apparantly it can happen.
Deep down I know the only chance I have of beating it is by addressing these issues and possibly cutting loose a very important part of my life. When I consider it I go into a panic attack (which is good I guess, at least I can feel something, meaning maybe I'm on the right track). I'm way too scared of losing this part of my life, something for a long time I considered to be the only thing I live for. However that part of my life has now become toxic and is destroying my mind.
I'm sorry this was vague, and also looks like it was written by an 8 year old- but I just can't think straight anymore.
I was just hoping for a bit of advice, or for people to share their similar stories. I don't want to live like this, but it feels like I will never go back to normal.