Znegative
Bluelight Crew
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- Apr 15, 2010
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I don't feel guilty or "unsober" because I take Suboxone. I AM sober from the drug that I wanted to die with, and that's really what matters, you know?
Don't let anyone try to make you feel like you're a piece of non sober shit just because you are legitimately prescribed Suboxone. You have to do shit for YOU.
You will never, EVER get clean if you don't start living for YOU
The shitty thing is that when I got on suboxone after a real bad relapse (I had been clean for nine months), my friends that were in recovery were ferry often judgmental that I decided to get on suboxone. They didn't consider me clean, which pissed me off because a lot of them took stims for ADD or clonazepam for anxiety, yet I never pointed out that those drugs were mind altering substances as well.
The whole "not being clean because you're on suboxone/methadone" seems like an unproductive attitude, and it makes it hard to go to NA meetings, because I feel like I'm holding some dirty secret. I think that self help groups and treatment centers have to catch up on the times. I sure I'm not the only one that's been turned off to NA because they viewed suboxone as just another opioid. And even to this day I still sometimes feel guilty about being suboxone, and start to take that shit to heart, which is dangerous territory, because i start to think "if suboxone is just another super addicting opioid, than I might as well take heroin, because I'm not clean anyway." I've litteray talked my way into copping dope using this mind set.