Hey guys.
I found that I have very little motivation when it comes to doing work. The only time I can seem to get a good amount of things done is when I use meth.
I've been calling myself an occasional user for a while now, because the only time i use it is when i have to work, whether it be physical work, mental work, etc.
Usually, after doing some and getting all my work done I am able to sleep. If there is a big physical work day for me I usually take a bit more then normal so i can keep going, then take a xanax when I know its time to bed.
I don't smoke meth, I snort it. When I was younger I got hooked on to smoking meth, but I was able to break away from it somewhat easily. I notice when I snort meth I DO NOT get that same fucked up craving I used to get when I smoked it. I also noticed snorting it doesn't seem as addictive as smoking it. When I would smoke it and come down I would feel sick and pissed off. When I snort it and come down I just feel like I'm gradually becoming sedated, and I have no hang over the next day.
So...I have a few questions:
1. Does anyone else feel the same way about snorting meth vs. smoking it? As far as how addictive it is, and the feeling you get when you come down?
2. Does anyone else feel they are an occasional user of meth? Someone who uses it like me to get things done?
3. Is it possible for anyone to be an occasional user? I mean, smoking it got me hooked SO fast, but since I have been snorting it I feel no real desire to do it unless i want to get something done. Does that make any difference or am I still destined to become a hardcore addict who needs it ALL the time?
I usually use it two-three times a week, and the amount I use in one day depends on how much work needs to be accomplished. I have never gone over 3 lines a day in my time using. When I'm not using, my work load is rather light, and I go to my friends houses and hang out, some times go to the bar and party, eat eat eat eat eat, and sleep BIG TIME if it's a weekend. I seem to have a pretty normal life either way really.
So pretty much I've just been wondering about myself...
I don't do it like I did when I smoked it. When I smoked it I was always with some punky ass "friends" and we wouldn't do anything besides sit on our asses and play gin rummy until the sun came up.
But when I snort it now a days all I want to do is work and get shit done. The only person I do it with is my brother, and he feels the same way. He told me he would rather do it occasionally (and ONLY with me, no one else) to get work done. That brings me to my fourth and final question:
4. Have I taken a better path? Have I realized the true power of this drug that I don't underestimate it like most people do? And is it wrong to use this drug in the way I have been using it?
Would love to hear all of your replies and answers to these four questions.
Thanks guys!
I found that I have very little motivation when it comes to doing work. The only time I can seem to get a good amount of things done is when I use meth.
I've been calling myself an occasional user for a while now, because the only time i use it is when i have to work, whether it be physical work, mental work, etc.
Usually, after doing some and getting all my work done I am able to sleep. If there is a big physical work day for me I usually take a bit more then normal so i can keep going, then take a xanax when I know its time to bed.
I don't smoke meth, I snort it. When I was younger I got hooked on to smoking meth, but I was able to break away from it somewhat easily. I notice when I snort meth I DO NOT get that same fucked up craving I used to get when I smoked it. I also noticed snorting it doesn't seem as addictive as smoking it. When I would smoke it and come down I would feel sick and pissed off. When I snort it and come down I just feel like I'm gradually becoming sedated, and I have no hang over the next day.
So...I have a few questions:
1. Does anyone else feel the same way about snorting meth vs. smoking it? As far as how addictive it is, and the feeling you get when you come down?
2. Does anyone else feel they are an occasional user of meth? Someone who uses it like me to get things done?
3. Is it possible for anyone to be an occasional user? I mean, smoking it got me hooked SO fast, but since I have been snorting it I feel no real desire to do it unless i want to get something done. Does that make any difference or am I still destined to become a hardcore addict who needs it ALL the time?
I usually use it two-three times a week, and the amount I use in one day depends on how much work needs to be accomplished. I have never gone over 3 lines a day in my time using. When I'm not using, my work load is rather light, and I go to my friends houses and hang out, some times go to the bar and party, eat eat eat eat eat, and sleep BIG TIME if it's a weekend. I seem to have a pretty normal life either way really.
So pretty much I've just been wondering about myself...
I don't do it like I did when I smoked it. When I smoked it I was always with some punky ass "friends" and we wouldn't do anything besides sit on our asses and play gin rummy until the sun came up.
But when I snort it now a days all I want to do is work and get shit done. The only person I do it with is my brother, and he feels the same way. He told me he would rather do it occasionally (and ONLY with me, no one else) to get work done. That brings me to my fourth and final question:
4. Have I taken a better path? Have I realized the true power of this drug that I don't underestimate it like most people do? And is it wrong to use this drug in the way I have been using it?
Would love to hear all of your replies and answers to these four questions.
Thanks guys!