once, very, very foolish. 'bout 8 mgs of klonopin and a few dimes of tar iv'ed.
i should have known benzos + heavy opiates were a bad combo, considering i got damn close to oding about 2-3 months before off of 4 mg of xanax mixed with i dont know how much heroin at the time.
my od was a good kick in the ass to make me reassess myself. nothing like waking up in an ambulance to make me rethink my chemical consumption, and actually understand the merits behind harm reduction. in fact i havent touched h since then, and in a few instances respected that less is more, when it comes to social situations.
and also, when i od'ed, i passed out sitting on the floor, and had no blood flow to my legs, making me unable to walk right for a few days. definitely scary, just think of having dead legs (without feeling) for a few days. i've never broken a bone in my life, nor been unable to walk right sober. definitely scary, but i made it out alive. i just wonder how many posters weren't able to make it out alive. nothing like learning one's own mortality to appreciate the underdose to the overdoser, heh.