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chicpoena
07-10-2008, 05:56
Hello Bluelighters! We in TDS are introducing substance-specific MEGA threads. This is the Cocaine and Crack MEGA Thread. This thread will focus on the problems associated with crack/cocaine abuse. Having a substance-specific thread allows us to create a wider discussion with a broader perspective to provide greater support to the coke using community. Talk about your ODs, bloody noses, struggle to stay clean and addiction here!

chicpoena
09-10-2008, 06:12
so I take it bluelight has no cocaine users?

I used to use cocaine a fair amount. We'd party with it every weekend for a few years. I'm really happy not to do it anymore. It's been exactly 2 years and 1 month since I've had any cocaine. I used to get cravings for it but not any more. I don't miss the cocaine flu one bit!

tobala
09-10-2008, 06:45
Not a day goes by that I don't think of my first love... ;)

Roman_s
09-10-2008, 16:01
When I was a kid my dad was a coke head for a year, he beat the shit out of me a lot :P. He went to rehab tho, clean for like ever. I feel like it disciplined me more anyway.

chicpoena
09-10-2008, 18:30
Child abuse is a lot different than discipline. You can discipline a child very effectively without every laying a hand on them. Sorry about your dad, although it's good to hear he's clean.

Hey Tobala!

myles p
09-10-2008, 21:31
snorting coke blows my mind for about 20 minutes, then I want the next line, then the next etc.

Turn the shit down every time sober, give me 4 beers and I'll be the one cutting the lines and handing out the straws. They say that shit is addictive....

ToxicFerret
09-10-2008, 21:44
Odd there's more junkies hereabout than fiends. Coke abuse takes you down much faster I think.

Here's to three years clean though.

enoughorangejuice?
09-10-2008, 21:54
^^ coke isn't a narcotic....that's why.. i can get coke just as easy as heroin/oxy but i'm only addicted to opiates.... i can stop using coke just as easily as pot (or close to it). physical addiction (narcotics) is what is the difference.

ohhh and i've gotten my hands on some of the best coke i've ever had. didn't think coke could be this good... purity i'd guess is around 60-75%. it's absurdly good. calming, yet exhilarating and euphoric but not jittery tense ampy-edge to it at all. it's very relaxing and you feel comfy in your skin, entire face gets numb and you feel happy and motavated. i can't believe the quality... but for a bill a bag i guess that's what one should expect.

usdathashield
09-10-2008, 21:58
i feel like im going to vomit when i think about smoking crack again. i dont miss coughing like i have black lungs either.

chicpoena
09-10-2008, 22:04
Congrats on three years ToxicFerret!

I stopped using cocaine because I couldn't stand the next day hangover. Like Myles I would usually only do cocaine while drinking. Sober I'd hardly ever partake. But once I started getting drunk I'd be the one trying to get us some some. The last time I ever did coke it was laced with something shitty and I felt like I was gonna die for about 5 hours. I felt weak and my heart was beating all weird. Thank god that was all it took for me to stop.

ToxicFerret
10-10-2008, 01:48
Congrats on three years ToxicFerret!

I stopped using cocaine because I couldn't stand the next day hangover. Like Myles I would usually only do cocaine while drinking. Sober I'd hardly ever partake. But once I started getting drunk I'd be the one trying to get us some some. The last time I ever did coke it was laced with something shitty and I felt like I was gonna die for about 5 hours. I felt weak and my heart was beating all weird. Thank god that was all it took for me to stop.

Yes, thank god. I did it for about a year and while I never paid for it, rather my rich, now dead of a heroin OD friend chris and my ex alex paid, they spent over 22000 on it. And we got the good fire shit for 40 a g, less in bulk. So figure that feeling you felt, and then figure it for six months. I'm so glad for anyone I meet that had quit without having to experience tha pain that finally encouraged my retreat.

Disabled_Traveller
10-10-2008, 03:24
I was never one who used blow on a daily or even weekly basis. Just once a month or every two months. I know it's only been a week but I get the sense within me that things are changing in a positive way. Such that I don't need to take a smash to get what I need.

What drove me to coke was sex and being very adventurous and open-minded. I never believed I could get sex without paying for it in one way or another. I never believed in myself that people could like me for being me. If I wanted something I had to pay for it.

Recently, I've noticed that girls will smile at me. So;
Maybe I'm not as unattractive as I thought.
Maybe the confidence within me is starting to shine through.
Maybe my life won't end prematurely.
Maybe life begins at 40 (which is the new 30).
Maybe what I want has become love not sex.

All that I have lost has been because of addiction.

Arzi
10-10-2008, 03:27
i think it sucks and i used to do it every day almost. :)

i feel very much better without it

chucky1432
11-10-2008, 02:17
I think it's great and I do it everyday.....

chrisinabox
11-10-2008, 13:24
i dont like coke one bit. all it does is make me have major anxiety and get paranoid and get major vascoconstriction and feel horrible, especially if insufflated. i'm sure i would like it more if it was more pure but even then it wouldnt be that good im sure. i mean how could a drug that only lasts for 30min be that good. im not saying its this way for everyone but i dont like it and neither does anyone of my friends. if they do it at all, it would be in a speedball. if i want good euphoria, ill just do mdma and have a real, long- lasting euphoric high.

Inso
11-10-2008, 17:51
I was a bit too stoned this morning and posted about my coke experience in the meth thread by mistake, so hear it is:

I was addicted to coke for roughly 6-8 months or so, not using every day but 2-3 times a week, having been on occasional user for a year or so before that. I was using more and more each week until I had an OD (thankfully no physical damage was done) followed by an insane thought-I-was-going-to-die panic attack which fucked me up mentally for ages and caused me to stop using anything harder than cannabis for good. I made a thread on it in here actually. I know the level of usage pales in comparison to others experiences on here, but even though I haven't used coke in 7 months now, I still find myself thinking about it very often, at least once a day, fantasising about scoring, racking up lines, etc. Even had a few very vivid dreams where I'm binging on it all night like the old days. The obsession that I developed over the months of heavier usage has still not left me.

It's crazy how much of an impact it left on my mind even after all this time, and considering my relatively low level of use and time abusing it. I can only imagine the lasing effect if I was using every day, which I very may well have progressed to if not for my unfortunate experience.

I'll never forget the rush from a large line of good quality coke, I can almost feel if I think about enough...

brasil
11-10-2008, 20:35
I was using coke iv'ed every almost everyday (and here in Brazil, it' very cheap)
U$: 3 a gram on the streets, ain't pure but still hardcore shit! and i'm clean of it for 7 days. It's beeing very hard to let it go. If u never used... don't try it...
Nothing good comes from cacaine, believe-me.

morrih04
20-10-2008, 19:51
I'm doing some research in to the bad effects that the stuff that coke is cut with has on you. I'm wondering if there is anyone in the UK who has had a bad experience who would be willing to talk to me.

Ashtonmuffin
20-10-2008, 20:21
Anyone else get sleep paralysis from coke abuse?

After cocaine abuse for about five or six months last year I got quite a few physical and psychological problems, especially upon quitting the substance. The worst one was sleep paralysis though =o I don't get it too often anymore, only when I'm really stressed. But I remember when I started to get it, I'd finally feel like I could sleep after a long night of coke and couldn't because of that fuuuuucking sleep disorder. It was torture, as if trying to sleep on coke isn't hard enough. :o
I did some pretty bad things to get money for it and I feel terrible about it but I know that it's in the past. And I know I can't control my self or my impulsive and obsissive behavior when it comes to cocaine and that's why I try to stay away from it.

It's a waste of my time and money. I just think of all the other things that could have lasted me longer than a few hours which could have been a much better use of my money and health.

drug_wench
21-10-2008, 05:01
i used to do a fair bit of coke in school - my friends dad was a dealer (go figure - i got sent to a posh private catholic girls school and i just got the poshest drugs there)
coke over here is rotten expensive tho, and all of its cut with speed anyway (well u might b able to get pure coke here but ive never come across it).....and as chrisinabox said, the high just doesnt last long enough
im glad i never got really into it as ive watched a friend go thru hell with it - and now shes in jail
its a nice high (a fucking wonderful high actually) but like the case of all drugs, esp stims IMO, the high isnt worth the low

chicpoena
21-10-2008, 06:25
Coke is all flash and no substance. It's just more. And more. And more... until it's all gone or you run out of money. It's an empty drug that is as hypnotizing as it is shallow.

fifleman
21-10-2008, 19:59
I enjoyed cocaine, until I overextended myself (not OD) and came around to be sober and happy not doing it. I first used two years ago in college, but at $80 a gram I could not afford it. Probably used 4-5 times that first year of college, and then a good 10 times last year. This year, however, I was doing good until I met a guy that had some fire shit that I could get anytime. Ended up doing 35 grams in two weeks and blowing $1500, all my money. Was sleeping, keeping hydrated and eating well when I wasn't snorting. In a month's time (as I kept driving up to get more) I'd probably done a good 45 grams. I sit here and hate myself for it, because I read up on how fucking deadly cocaine is but yet don't educate myself in the way of not doing it.

Inso
21-10-2008, 23:11
I'm doing some research in to the bad effects that the stuff that coke is cut with has on you. I'm wondering if there is anyone in the UK who has had a bad experience who would be willing to talk to me.

Me.

The horrible experience I had was after doing alot of heavily cut coke. It was too fluffy and would not grind down to dust no matter how hard I tried, so we were snorting little squidgy bits of coke instead of fine powder as it usually is. Also the drip gave a stinging sensation on the throat. I think this could have caused lots of it to get lodged in my nose, because I felt fine but when I walked home I was suddenly hit with an insanely large coke buzz, and that's when the problems began...

Junk Princess
22-10-2008, 00:31
i don't know if anyone else is like this but to be honest i've never found that i get that much off of coke. i get a bit wired off crack but its gotta be really good quality to even do that much.
opiates have always been more my kinda thing, and probably for the very reason that i get more off them.
who knows if i'd got more of a buzz off coke n crack i may of been a crackhead instead of a raging junkie... god forbid. lol!
Junk Princess
x :D

drug_wench
23-10-2008, 11:52
it takes me too much coke to get high i guess so i ended up blowing too much money wen i did use it
maybe its that the coke here is crap, maybe its that ive got ADHD and it takes me a fairly high dose of any stimulant to get high
that was why i was so fucking attracted to meth - cheap, long-lasting high, and it took so much less of the shit to do something for me
i can see why cokes so addictive tho - the short high means u come down fast and fiend for more in such a short period of time
ive never actually binged on coke by itself tho - wen i did use it i always tended to either hav a couple of lines and come down then not do any more, or id combine it with other stimulants...or E (not advised tbh) and use it with the other drugs over a few days
crack is totally rare here - ive heard of ppl scoring it, but never seen it round
some ppl here actually refer to crystal meth as 'crack' which always (no pun intended) cracks me up :\

narutokun19
24-10-2008, 22:56
i can see why cokes so addictive tho - the short high means u come down fast and fiend for more in such a short period of time


Ehhh not really. When I first did coke it was like that(ie shit) and it never would have gotten me addicted.

It was when I was introduced to the good stuff that the game got started. I only needed a little bit and it was fucking heaven. Redose when necessary which wasn't that often and I just found my new best friend. The problem is you start to love that feeling so much you just can't be without it. You start doing it more and more and more and more and eventually on a daily(or near daily) basis. When you finally have to stop, well it's worse than the biggest heart break you could imagine. I've been off it for less than a week and it's all I fucking think about it. Trying to take three weeks off, good fucking luck!

Coke/crack is the most addictive drug out there(psychologically). More so than meth or heroin imo(done both, been addicted to the former which is pretty harsh as well).

pilldout
24-10-2008, 23:06
I gave up my life for crack. I sold my body and my soul, lost all of my friends. The memories I have from my time doing crack still haunt me today. The friend I had who did crack with me is now in prison for 10 years for selling.

I'm so glad I changed my life and chose college over a life of prostitution and drug use.

HeyDude
25-10-2008, 02:30
Actually coke has been very nice to me up through the years. Granted I have never used more often than once or twice per month, but I have never noticed the bad comedowns and the high is always sweet. It has to be said I have a good dealer who gets me pure shit. I do feel the potential for addiction though, but luckily I do not get easily addicted to stuff.

drug_wench
25-10-2008, 07:13
Coke/crack is the most addictive drug out there(psychologically). More so than meth or heroin imo(done both, been addicted to the former which is pretty harsh as well).
im sure many meth/heroin addicts (both of which ive bn) wud beg to differ
i think watever ur DOC is is the most addictive drug out there, psychologically
over here, were in the middle of a major meth epidemic - according to the media over here, meth is the most addictive drug known to man
again, even tho it is my DOC and is definitely the one i hav found to b the most addictive, i dont agree - i think it varies depending on who u r
saying that, no i hav never tried gd coke - like i say, i dont think it even exists over here :\

narutokun19
25-10-2008, 08:11
im sure many meth/heroin addicts (both of which ive bn) wud beg to differ
i think watever ur DOC is is the most addictive drug out there, psychologically
over here, were in the middle of a major meth epidemic - according to the media over here, meth is the most addictive drug known to man
again, even tho it is my DOC and is definitely the one i hav found to b the most addictive, i dont agree - i think it varies depending on who u r
saying that, no i hav never tried gd coke - like i say, i dont think it even exists over here :\


I've felt the psychological pull of all three and I personally found coke to be the strongest. Still not exactly sure why but there's no doubt in my mind.

Also studies have been done which confirm this(coke addiction stronger than meth/heroin or anything).

**hAyzzZZ**
25-10-2008, 08:20
Imho, with ice... I could go until i would give myself a cardiac arrest, but the few times i had *fucking great* coke, i would do ANYTHING to get more. I would start thinking crazy fucking shit to get more, i would just be moremoremoremoremoremoremore one track mind until i came down or injested some other drug.

But with the ice, there was only so many days i could go for, it ran me down so fucking hard after a huge binge, i would want more, but once i slept and ate and mentally calmed down the urge wouldnt be as strong as with the coke urge.

*shrugs* thats just my 2c.

drug_wench
25-10-2008, 08:29
well i dont really see the point of arguing over this since these forums r based on opinion and definitely r not the point of this thread but the documentaries ive seen have said that studies show meth to b the most addictive
again i dont believe those studies cos i think it depends on wat floats ur boat
i used all three of those drugs too (tho like i said the coke i got was probly shit compared to the pure stuff whereas the meth i used was P, the shit was usually around 90% pure)
its all irrelevant really - ur DOC is wats ur problem
like i say ive had a friend who also used coke as well as meth and heroin and for her the big problem was coke as well - it just wasnt for me
thats the last im saying on that tho cos i dont want to derail this thread
gd luck with ur 3 weeks off

Nagelfar
25-10-2008, 21:04
Last week I got 9 grams to myself, the last 7 days have been about a half gram a day, plugged (to save my veins), just this morning I thought screw it, and did a 80mg shot...

I did about half the shot, I was tying myself off with a belt pulled tight by holding it between my knees, and trying to push the plunger down without coming out or going through the vein. This made my skin (and vein) pull up like a tent at the crook of my arm, it started looking bad, I started to feel the rush but didn't know how intense I was feeling it (this was 80mg washed, btw) because I couldn't fully loosen the belt from my arm after registering with all hands full...

I thought, screw it, and pulled the shot out half way, felt a bit of a rush, shot the rest of my syringe, with my blood in it and all, into a spoon, took one of my non-needle syringes, added some more coke, and ended up plugging my own blood from my shot as not to waste, what, possibly 40mg?....

narutokun19
25-10-2008, 21:57
My DOC has been meth, coke, ketamine, valium at different times in my life sometimes all four at the same fucking time(ie i was binging on them all at once and was not happy unless they all were in my possession/system).

I'm just trying to be objective about it, in which case the term 'drug of choice' is irrelevant.

There is just something about coke. The fact that the desire is almost entirely about the DRUG ITSELF and not what it does for(ie escape, confidence, fun whatever). You become so obsessed about doing that line that your willpower just crumbles no matter how strong it is.

With meth it was the lifestyle, ketamine the escape(the same with heroin the few times i dipped into it), valium the relief(from the anxiety, anger, sketch). But with coke it was tunnel vision a single track mind that was all about the high and absolutely NOTHING else.

It's like ever since I got turned onto the drug there's been an internal message playing over and over in my mind saying "wantcokewantcokewantcokewantcokewantcokewantcokewa ntcoke". I would go on but If I do I might just call up my dealer despite the fact I have to work in an hour lol.


well i dont really see the point of arguing over this since these forums r based on opinion and definitely r not the point of this thread but the documentaries ive seen have said that studies show meth to b the most addictive
again i dont believe those studies cos i think it depends on wat floats ur boat
i used all three of those drugs too (tho like i said the coke i got was probly shit compared to the pure stuff whereas the meth i used was P, the shit was usually around 90% pure)
its all irrelevant really - ur DOC is wats ur problem
like i say ive had a friend who also used coke as well as meth and heroin and for her the big problem was coke as well - it just wasnt for me
thats the last im saying on that tho cos i dont want to derail this thread
gd luck with ur 3 weeks off

Hoax
26-10-2008, 21:59
Never really felt much of a pull from coke, only done it a few times though. Anyway didn't really want to start a new thread when this seemed a better place to put this. Does anyone know a rough dose for freebase cocaine? Assuming it is 100% pure. I can't seem to find this anywhere. Cheers. :)

drug_wench
27-10-2008, 12:00
^id check the other subforums mate, ull hav more luck there
this is more about the addiction side of things

jimmyblaze1
28-10-2008, 04:22
Me.

The horrible experience I had was after doing alot of heavily cut coke. It was too fluffy and would not grind down to dust no matter how hard I tried, so we were snorting little squidgy bits of coke instead of fine powder as it usually is. Also the drip gave a stinging sensation on the throat. I think this could have caused lots of it to get lodged in my nose, because I felt fine but when I walked home I was suddenly hit with an insanely large coke buzz, and that's when the problems began...

HMMM....kinda sounds like flake to me...so not bad or heavily cut at all...the best...=/

beardedadventurer
29-10-2008, 09:23
So tonight Iwent over to my friends house. I've been trying to take a break from weed for a week or so because I've been thinking about it alot lately. Usually I only smoke on the weekends but the last couple of weeks I've began to let myself do it on school nights. I decided I would have a drink or two instead.
Well, I ended up having about 4 1/2 drinks and doing a line of cocaine. I felt good until I did that line and then I just felt like a piece of crap. It was only my second time to do coke but I
just flt like a total loser. I felt like I had failed, missing the point of my break on weed entirely. I just felt that I needed to get this off my chest, and help solidify the lesson I learned tonight.

drug_wench
29-10-2008, 09:32
i think u can thank ur lucky stars the coke experience wasnt enjoyable
u havnt 'failed' tho - not if u learnt a lesson from the whole saga
gd luck on ur break from weed :)

beardedadventurer
29-10-2008, 19:29
Thanks
I was still drunk when I posted that, and I'm feeling much better now.
It really wasn't that big of a deal. I just hate getting fucked up on school nights.

the_ketaman
31-10-2008, 13:17
^^Thats a good thing for sure. It shows you want to good in life and you can set limits and discipline yourself. That is huge mate especially considering your still in school because most people your age wouldnt give a fuck about getting high on a school night. It sounds like your a very mature person.

Ive only ever done coke like 2-3 times and it was pretty decent quality, I mean not the best coz it only gets so good in Australia but Im pretty sure there werent any active cuts. I liked it and would do it again, but its too expensive for my liking and if I want stimulants ill just do meth or pills unless everyone is doing coke and that very, very rarely happens. I woul love to try crack or IV coke oneday but im in no hurry, I might wait till the coke here gets cheaper and better because im almost 100% sure that will be happening in the not so distant future. theres no worries about getting addicted either because im not paying $300+ just for one night of getting high when id be high for 3 days off that much meth. Also coke is only worth it with drinks too so you get cocaethylene, more dangerous but a much better high.

Coke is definitely over-rated though, it does nothing that meth cant do 10x better. Plus I find when im coming down from meth I just get anxious and a little paranoid whereas coming down from coke makes me depressed(for me theres not much worse than being depressed) I get a bad headache, feel nauseas, cranky and not nice, the only up side to that is it only lasts a few hours where the day after meth lasts too long but with benzo's its easily manageable.

drug_wench
02-11-2008, 12:11
Plus I find when im coming down from meth I just get anxious and a little paranoid whereas coming down from coke makes me depressed(for me theres not much worse than being depressed) I get a bad headache, feel nauseas, cranky and not nice
ick, im exactly the opposite - coke was a breeze to come down from for me.....yea i do remember a bit of depression and nausea but it just didnt last long enough to worry me
meth comedowns for me were a roller-coaster ride of depression, anxiety, paranoia (even psychosis), dry-retching and angry outbursts
but again, yea cokes fucking expensive down under isnt it? thats why were the methhead countries i guess :\

WhiteLinesNcoffee
01-12-2008, 08:44
oh. cocaine. How you have given me a felony and yet i still you and i have yet to abuse you. funny how that works out

tobala
01-12-2008, 13:17
I did 0.5 to 1.0 gram per day for 24 years, finally got rid or the habit on 1/25/08.

God only knows what the fuck I was hiding from all that time... :D

junctionalfunkie
01-12-2008, 20:34
Cocaine is the only drug that has made me hate myself, fear myself, not know myself. Been probably six months since I did any. Much longer since I actually seeked it out or paid for it.

Good riddance. :)

chucky1432
30-12-2008, 18:45
Anybody doing any coke for the New Year?

xxkcxx
30-12-2008, 19:04
Uh, I hate coke whenever I do it. It makes me depressed as heck and all I think about it how I want to feel what everyone else feels on it, which is why I keep doing lines to the point of ridiculousness.

It's really weird though because even though I never get the right effect from it and I have only done it maybe 5 times, I sometimes crave it really bad. I haven't acted on it in awhile, but sometimes I will be sitting around and I will think how I would really like some yay instead of smack.

Seanjay
30-12-2008, 20:10
Anybody doing any coke for the New Year?

Me..I've been off it since October 26th and I feel I've deserved it, Also New Years day is my birthday :)


And I've promised myself I wouldn't buy anymore, I've been staying off it solely by spending all my money on Magic:The Gathering cards haha... 500$ spent since Oct 26 on them but I'm an avid player so it isn't much of a big deal :\

Frank Lucas
31-12-2008, 11:05
Tobala, that's funny, I gave up on coke 1/29/08. I had a huge ringer and a NDE in which I saw death and he told me "you can stay here if you take one more hit right now" and I realized at that moment that the closer you get to dying, the better you feel. And the better the hit, the closer you came to dying. That's all being high on coke was. I figured I should just shoot a whole gram and go out on coke if I loved coke that much, or just quit forever. I guess I quit, but real life pales in comparison to that soul spiraling rush.... haha

banksy
31-12-2008, 15:35
my last bout the rocks got me more the brown