Thats what I had been missing from my 2f experiences, the euphoria and colorful visuals. I can say after last night I did experience disassociation, but it was much different then what I had been expecting from something like say DXM. I've not used many disassociatives in general, just dxm and 2f so I think I was using dxm disassociation as a baseline for what I might expect from 2f. That is the error of my thinking because they are completely different substances. The only thing they have in common is their ability to induce disassociation. I need to adopt a new line of thinking that involves acknowledgement of the premise that 2f is not the same as dxm and that it has its own set of effects on the body
I've been on these anti depressants for at least 4 years and will admit they have helped me, but I think I'd like to see if I can live life without them. I plan to titrate off of them slowly. I have already been working on the mirtazepine and have reduced my daily dose by 15mg. Currently taking 45mg. Last night I also decided to reduce my zyprexa dose by half, from 5mg to 2.5mg and to my surprise there was no sleep disturbances. I think I will continue with the 2.5mg for a week and then either go off it entirely or split the 2.5mg in half for 1.25mg. i was also thinking of staying on the 2.5mg for a little bit and titrate the mirtazepine down another 15mg as I take them both in the evening and do not want any sleep disturbances
The 5HT2a seems to be the target for a lot of substances when it comes to serotonin induced pleasure/euphoria. My curiosity is one of the primary driving forces in all of this and cant help but wonder what I could experience if I didn't have that 5Ht2a antagonism. That goes for other thinngs besides disassociatives, like lysergamides etc