I've read as much as I could find here on bluelight and in the archives and chased down as many rabbit holes as I could find in various threads before posting here so I'm familiar with a variety of opinions on using drugs in spiritual paths but I lack proper knowledge of most spiritual paths.
Over the last year I have had an ongoing spiritual experience that has progressed from inner reflection to, awareness of my chakras and eventually the opening of them. Thinking this was a purely drug induced event I quit using weed for 90 days but still experienced the same things. Seeing no apparent detriment from continuing use I still use weed and seem to have no issues of control of my "energetic self".
I have only a limited understanding of the experience I am having. I have repeatedly attempted to fit my experience into some kind of known construct but it seems to not really fit right. I was raised in an evangelical Christian setting but being gay produced the profound question of WTF God? So, understanding the simplicity of the superlative of Christianity I have no issue accepting Christ but leaving the religious bathwater behind. Christianity in my heretical personal version meshes fairly well with reality so I can see the results of this same experience has already created about 45k christian variations. Seriously over 45000 variations of just one religion. It reminds me of a glass slipper.
So I'm here seeking. I don't expect divine answers but I do invite highly opinionated or even badly reason thoughts. I'm pretty much back to WTF God? Truth is apparent went it is found, I've found some and it has my attention. I've read some profound truths here and in the archives and psychedelic threads. Please feel free to offend me but respect the others who post, I have no fear of vulnerability or personal need of validation.
As I had zero idea what I was feeling when I became aware of what I now call chakras, they all illuminated only in a white/yellow white energy I don't see any rainbow of colour and never did before understanding what I was seeing (or thinking I was understanding what I was seeing). So the feeling was exactly as I read it described by everyone but the colours are wrong what's up?
Over the last year I have had an ongoing spiritual experience that has progressed from inner reflection to, awareness of my chakras and eventually the opening of them. Thinking this was a purely drug induced event I quit using weed for 90 days but still experienced the same things. Seeing no apparent detriment from continuing use I still use weed and seem to have no issues of control of my "energetic self".
I have only a limited understanding of the experience I am having. I have repeatedly attempted to fit my experience into some kind of known construct but it seems to not really fit right. I was raised in an evangelical Christian setting but being gay produced the profound question of WTF God? So, understanding the simplicity of the superlative of Christianity I have no issue accepting Christ but leaving the religious bathwater behind. Christianity in my heretical personal version meshes fairly well with reality so I can see the results of this same experience has already created about 45k christian variations. Seriously over 45000 variations of just one religion. It reminds me of a glass slipper.
So I'm here seeking. I don't expect divine answers but I do invite highly opinionated or even badly reason thoughts. I'm pretty much back to WTF God? Truth is apparent went it is found, I've found some and it has my attention. I've read some profound truths here and in the archives and psychedelic threads. Please feel free to offend me but respect the others who post, I have no fear of vulnerability or personal need of validation.
As I had zero idea what I was feeling when I became aware of what I now call chakras, they all illuminated only in a white/yellow white energy I don't see any rainbow of colour and never did before understanding what I was seeing (or thinking I was understanding what I was seeing). So the feeling was exactly as I read it described by everyone but the colours are wrong what's up?