Thank you very much for your interest, if I think of something that you might like to know, I will let you know. For now, that's about all I really want to share. The rest of it is very personal. Even though I am not too sensitive about the topics it relates to, and even though I tend to overshare almost every chance I get, I don't think it would translate or be coherent for anyone but me, and perhaps some people who are no longer alive. Very abstract vision stuff, like the indescribable parts of a holy psychedelic experience.
It was, at one point, all recorded for all my Facebook friends to see. It ended up being one chapter in a part of my life, not long ago, wherein I live-streamed the destruction, and recomposition of my psyche, several times, trying to become sane again, and trying to find an identity I could live with. It was accompanied by some very ugly public disclosures of my worst sins and crimes, which was very humiliating for myself and others. Overall, the spectacle was very touching and inspiring for some people, and I think, totally necessary for my survival. Alas, the surviving version of me could not stomach the public viewing of the "corpse" that I had just risen from, and I deleted that Facebook profile completely, a burial of sorts, and started a whole new one.
I do have an archive I downloaded of that account, but from what I have seen after analyzing it, there were a couple of times I went into that account when it was still "alive". I deleted all kinds of posts that I thought I was not worthy of, or that I had pride in, and wanted to show how willing I was to hurt myself at that time. Kind of like a virtual "cutting" to express and alleviate pain. The Grief Epiphany Pain reports were all deleted before the archive was made, unfortunately for you and me.