Hello! First of all, I'm new so I'm hoping I'll adjust fine to the environment around here. I tried to look for a benzo section but I didn't find any, so if this is not on the forum it should be, I apologize. Also English is not my primary language, so I might write an error or two once in a while 
Some background story: I'm not really into the drug business to be honest, I really like to get drunk with my friends at parties now and then, but other than that I never really tried anything "higher" than weed. I used to smoke cigarettes but I quit 2 months ago. Yet, about like one year ago, I got this massive I'm-about-to-die feeling that led me to the hospital, only to find out I was just fine and that I had a strong panic attack. It was right after smoking weed (the last time I smoked) and that was the moment when I realized drugs were not for me. Ever since that, I started getting them occasionally (also strongly influenced by some very crappy events in my professional/private life over the year), mostly before some important event or the day after heavy drinking, but also happening out of nowhere (e.g. when I'm driving). It can happen twice a day or I can go weeks without having none. I don't really know if it is Panic Disorder already, but sometimes it sure feels like it. Over the last year I think I took about 30-40 5mg Valium pills.
Anyway, I went to the doctor, and he prescribed me Diazepam 5mg to be taken orally only when I recognize I'm having a panic attack. Ever since that, I started using them specifically for that purpose, and it works great. It's total relief and I know exactly what to take when I'm having a panic attack (when I don't take a pill, I absolutely can't control them which results in hospital trips that end up with me popping a benzo anyway). But after extensive research I found out this belongs to a class of drugs which can become really addictive and cause this life-threatening withdrawal symptoms which I don't need to say I seriously want to avoid.
My question is: since I only take them to eliminate a panic attack, and never recreationally, should I worry I'll eventually develop some sort of tolerance/dependence to them or should I seek professional help so that I learn how to control them without the pills? Because so far things have been great, I have 2 pills with me all the time for emergency cases, they always have the same sedative effect and I never crave them. I just don't want to go on an addiction adventure because I'm already this nervous and paranoid type of person without that sort of thing.
I think I should ask you experts for your opinion. Thank you very much!
Some background story: I'm not really into the drug business to be honest, I really like to get drunk with my friends at parties now and then, but other than that I never really tried anything "higher" than weed. I used to smoke cigarettes but I quit 2 months ago. Yet, about like one year ago, I got this massive I'm-about-to-die feeling that led me to the hospital, only to find out I was just fine and that I had a strong panic attack. It was right after smoking weed (the last time I smoked) and that was the moment when I realized drugs were not for me. Ever since that, I started getting them occasionally (also strongly influenced by some very crappy events in my professional/private life over the year), mostly before some important event or the day after heavy drinking, but also happening out of nowhere (e.g. when I'm driving). It can happen twice a day or I can go weeks without having none. I don't really know if it is Panic Disorder already, but sometimes it sure feels like it. Over the last year I think I took about 30-40 5mg Valium pills.
Anyway, I went to the doctor, and he prescribed me Diazepam 5mg to be taken orally only when I recognize I'm having a panic attack. Ever since that, I started using them specifically for that purpose, and it works great. It's total relief and I know exactly what to take when I'm having a panic attack (when I don't take a pill, I absolutely can't control them which results in hospital trips that end up with me popping a benzo anyway). But after extensive research I found out this belongs to a class of drugs which can become really addictive and cause this life-threatening withdrawal symptoms which I don't need to say I seriously want to avoid.
My question is: since I only take them to eliminate a panic attack, and never recreationally, should I worry I'll eventually develop some sort of tolerance/dependence to them or should I seek professional help so that I learn how to control them without the pills? Because so far things have been great, I have 2 pills with me all the time for emergency cases, they always have the same sedative effect and I never crave them. I just don't want to go on an addiction adventure because I'm already this nervous and paranoid type of person without that sort of thing.
I think I should ask you experts for your opinion. Thank you very much!
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