Thank you very much. I hope it helps. Ityll take me out of my own sick head by putting my attention on the kids. Just doing something as simple as taking them t school will help me. There is uncertainty, how can there not be. I have a lot of work to do with my little boy. When me and my ex met he was 2 and now he's 13 and very withdrawn and doesn't like me very much. I don't blame him. He caught the wrath of my alcoholic ways too much. Then for 5 yrs in a rom my daughter came here for summer and he didn't bc of summer school. But he def feels left out. I'm taking him snowboarding this winter, just me and him and we can talk. He's 13 now and I can't believe it. He was a premie so he's small and behind mentally. We'll see how it goes down
My dad is actually on the way up to visit. That's great but I haven't seen him since my mom died last Nov. He's been to Atlanta a shitload for his girlfriend. Kinda hurts cause he knows it's been a rough couple of years. Last summer I pose my colon and in Nov my mom and then moved into this crazy place I live in. Idk. My sisters both live out in Cali and tiring to get a hold of them is impossible. Mor than anything my mom wanted us 3 to stick together and their not doing their part. I don't wanna hear I'm busy shit. It takes 10 sec t type I love you. Here in ten I have uncles and aunts and cousins and I'm estranged from them all. It sucks but fuck it. Isolating is not good but sometimes I'm forced into it cause no family and my 2 best buddies are either working or with their families so I'm going out to my own family and see if that works. These suicide inclinations are getting old. I fee like I'm being stretched like a rubber band. Anyway, thanks for the kind words and don't forget helping me. I hope your family situations turn sn especially your dad. Take care
My dad is actually on the way up to visit. That's great but I haven't seen him since my mom died last Nov. He's been to Atlanta a shitload for his girlfriend. Kinda hurts cause he knows it's been a rough couple of years. Last summer I pose my colon and in Nov my mom and then moved into this crazy place I live in. Idk. My sisters both live out in Cali and tiring to get a hold of them is impossible. Mor than anything my mom wanted us 3 to stick together and their not doing their part. I don't wanna hear I'm busy shit. It takes 10 sec t type I love you. Here in ten I have uncles and aunts and cousins and I'm estranged from them all. It sucks but fuck it. Isolating is not good but sometimes I'm forced into it cause no family and my 2 best buddies are either working or with their families so I'm going out to my own family and see if that works. These suicide inclinations are getting old. I fee like I'm being stretched like a rubber band. Anyway, thanks for the kind words and don't forget helping me. I hope your family situations turn sn especially your dad. Take care