hey guys. i am new here. i am looking for support in rough times. i've been a long time reader of posts on this website.. never had the balls to join. but here i am now.
where do i begin? it all started back when i was a teen. pills are my DOC. i started out snorting, thanks to my surroundings. i wasn't instantly hooked. i could control myself. a couple years later, it all went down hill from there. i found myself spending all my money on the shit. never got a proper script. no drs to blame. in Jan of 2015 i got clean. went cold turkey. it was ruining my life. later that year i found out i was pregnant. things were great. i had my son, got my tubes tied and then it happened. my uterus is bad. long story short, my obgyn has been prescribing me perc 5's for the last several months. my body became dependent and here i am again. physically and mentally addicted. i ran out of my script and my dr is on vacation right now. so im left out in the cold. my boyfriend bought me 6 vic 10s, at a whopping 9 dollars a piece. i am ashamed. these will only last until tomorrow..then what? all i wanna do is lay down and cry. not worry about anything. idk what im really looking for here.. words or encouragement? i have surgery (hysterectomy) apr 4th. after that, im done for good.
thanks for listening.
where do i begin? it all started back when i was a teen. pills are my DOC. i started out snorting, thanks to my surroundings. i wasn't instantly hooked. i could control myself. a couple years later, it all went down hill from there. i found myself spending all my money on the shit. never got a proper script. no drs to blame. in Jan of 2015 i got clean. went cold turkey. it was ruining my life. later that year i found out i was pregnant. things were great. i had my son, got my tubes tied and then it happened. my uterus is bad. long story short, my obgyn has been prescribing me perc 5's for the last several months. my body became dependent and here i am again. physically and mentally addicted. i ran out of my script and my dr is on vacation right now. so im left out in the cold. my boyfriend bought me 6 vic 10s, at a whopping 9 dollars a piece. i am ashamed. these will only last until tomorrow..then what? all i wanna do is lay down and cry. not worry about anything. idk what im really looking for here.. words or encouragement? i have surgery (hysterectomy) apr 4th. after that, im done for good.
thanks for listening.