greenuser8
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I recently made a thread about trip "flashbacks" I may be experiencing. I'm wondering if any of you have felt this.
I've been a daily smoker for over a year now. I had a bad trip 6 months ago, and have felt fine up until the beginning of this month.
Long story short, I smoked and took a THC capsule. The capsule kicked in 5 hours later when I was not expecting it whatsoever, the first thing I felt was out of body and telling my friend I was flashing back. It could've been the near panic which explained why I thought I was flashing back, however I was convinced it was a flashback when it was going on, cause I had no idea what hit me.
Only later did I realize the capsule could've kicked in very late.
Fast forward to not even a week ago, I was smoking, and got this same "out of body" feeling. However, I've been obsessing about it since almost (I'm OCD). My OCD has been telling me it's PTSD which did worry me.
You know how when you look at something, "you" are the thing looking out your eyes? The feeling is basically imagine staring at something. I feel like my conscience is pulled back into my mind, and the front of my eyesight is almost just a screen. That's the only feeling - no real visuals, or trippy mindsets, just that weird feeling that trips me out.
The way of looking things itself doesn't come with panic, it's just if I stay there for a few minutes I'll get pretty uncomfortable. Not so much the feeling itself, but the mindset of "why am I feeling this? it must be a scar from the bad trip" etc etc.
Regardless, because of this, I now have the feeling as a memory in my mind, and when I get really high, I think I can skew my eyes to see what I'm seeing. I can even remember it right now (when sober), and it worries me that I even can. I can't fully "feel" it sober, but I can remember very well what my eyes would be registering with the feeling.
Is this even normal? I think I have felt the feeling before, it's just now I think I have control over the feeling, or the way I'm looking at things when really high. It's almost, I now "remember" the way I saw things, and now my mind just sees things like that when very high. I need to be pretty high for it to stay for more than a few seconds.
The fear of a flashback, hence my mind placeboing me into "seeing" things the way I am when really high at brief moments.
I just want to confirm, is this probably just OCD? I've had no other bad trip problems, in fact I brushed it off as experience, yet this came back to bite me all because of that THC pill and me getting hit by a very strong high unexpectedly.
Is any of this normal? Much appreciated.
I've been a daily smoker for over a year now. I had a bad trip 6 months ago, and have felt fine up until the beginning of this month.
Long story short, I smoked and took a THC capsule. The capsule kicked in 5 hours later when I was not expecting it whatsoever, the first thing I felt was out of body and telling my friend I was flashing back. It could've been the near panic which explained why I thought I was flashing back, however I was convinced it was a flashback when it was going on, cause I had no idea what hit me.
Only later did I realize the capsule could've kicked in very late.
Fast forward to not even a week ago, I was smoking, and got this same "out of body" feeling. However, I've been obsessing about it since almost (I'm OCD). My OCD has been telling me it's PTSD which did worry me.
You know how when you look at something, "you" are the thing looking out your eyes? The feeling is basically imagine staring at something. I feel like my conscience is pulled back into my mind, and the front of my eyesight is almost just a screen. That's the only feeling - no real visuals, or trippy mindsets, just that weird feeling that trips me out.
The way of looking things itself doesn't come with panic, it's just if I stay there for a few minutes I'll get pretty uncomfortable. Not so much the feeling itself, but the mindset of "why am I feeling this? it must be a scar from the bad trip" etc etc.
Regardless, because of this, I now have the feeling as a memory in my mind, and when I get really high, I think I can skew my eyes to see what I'm seeing. I can even remember it right now (when sober), and it worries me that I even can. I can't fully "feel" it sober, but I can remember very well what my eyes would be registering with the feeling.
Is this even normal? I think I have felt the feeling before, it's just now I think I have control over the feeling, or the way I'm looking at things when really high. It's almost, I now "remember" the way I saw things, and now my mind just sees things like that when very high. I need to be pretty high for it to stay for more than a few seconds.
The fear of a flashback, hence my mind placeboing me into "seeing" things the way I am when really high at brief moments.
I just want to confirm, is this probably just OCD? I've had no other bad trip problems, in fact I brushed it off as experience, yet this came back to bite me all because of that THC pill and me getting hit by a very strong high unexpectedly.
Is any of this normal? Much appreciated.