Hi,
I am 27 yo male who's very physically fit bodybuilder that religiously works out 5 times a week, even during my heaviest binge.
I got in a very heavy opiate addiction 5 years ago that started with oxy, then resulted IVing H up to 1 gram a day. Then when I could no longer support the habbit I got myself into methadone clinic doing 120 mg everyday for 3 years. I weened myself down to 1 mg then I was deathly afraid of horror stories from methadone withdrawal and went on suboxone. I was doing about 4.5 mg but I kinda weened myself off. But in the last 3 weeks I was IVing suboxone, although about 1 mg a day. my total suboxone length of treatment or abuse was 6 months. Then I stopped seeing my dr and I quit cold turkey from 1 mg IV. My physical withdrawal was a cake. I had no hot and cold flashes once. I had jelly legs. I had diarhea. No naseua, GREAT appetite, very bad sneezing to the last day. Maybe 3/10 compared to my H withdrawal 10/10. But psychological aspect of it was driving me 8/10 insane. RLS lasted 12 days where I wanted to hack my legs, low mood, no energy, mild depression, 5-8 hours of sleep where before I slept 10. I didnt work out at all but I did walk 6 hours a day from day 1 till 15th day. By day 15 all of my physical and psychological symptoms subsided other than bad sleep (8 hours and waking up 3 times), sneezing, lower mood and INTENSE cravings. Then a horror story happened. That night I randomly found nearly a full 8 mg suboxone pill. There was about 7 mgs of it. Of course my eyes went wide and that night I IVed .5 mg. Then 1 mg the next day, followed by .6 the next .4 the next, .2 the next and .1 the next day. Then randomly a friend calls me and tell me has has oxy. So I end up doing an average between 60 mg to 120 mg a day for 6 days. \and once I ran out of oxy I injected on
day 1 1 mg,
day 2 0.8 mg
day 3 0.5 mg
day 4 0.3 mg
day 5 0.4 mg.
I no longer have suboxone tab.
My question is how bad will this new withdrawal be, especially RLS given the history I've given to you? Will my w/d last 12/13 days also or will they be a little shorter?
Question 2, I want to lead a sober life. It seems more fullfilling. I dont want to be emotionless. but I have a weak mind and strong opiate cravings. What should I do?
Thanks for your help!
I am 27 yo male who's very physically fit bodybuilder that religiously works out 5 times a week, even during my heaviest binge.
I got in a very heavy opiate addiction 5 years ago that started with oxy, then resulted IVing H up to 1 gram a day. Then when I could no longer support the habbit I got myself into methadone clinic doing 120 mg everyday for 3 years. I weened myself down to 1 mg then I was deathly afraid of horror stories from methadone withdrawal and went on suboxone. I was doing about 4.5 mg but I kinda weened myself off. But in the last 3 weeks I was IVing suboxone, although about 1 mg a day. my total suboxone length of treatment or abuse was 6 months. Then I stopped seeing my dr and I quit cold turkey from 1 mg IV. My physical withdrawal was a cake. I had no hot and cold flashes once. I had jelly legs. I had diarhea. No naseua, GREAT appetite, very bad sneezing to the last day. Maybe 3/10 compared to my H withdrawal 10/10. But psychological aspect of it was driving me 8/10 insane. RLS lasted 12 days where I wanted to hack my legs, low mood, no energy, mild depression, 5-8 hours of sleep where before I slept 10. I didnt work out at all but I did walk 6 hours a day from day 1 till 15th day. By day 15 all of my physical and psychological symptoms subsided other than bad sleep (8 hours and waking up 3 times), sneezing, lower mood and INTENSE cravings. Then a horror story happened. That night I randomly found nearly a full 8 mg suboxone pill. There was about 7 mgs of it. Of course my eyes went wide and that night I IVed .5 mg. Then 1 mg the next day, followed by .6 the next .4 the next, .2 the next and .1 the next day. Then randomly a friend calls me and tell me has has oxy. So I end up doing an average between 60 mg to 120 mg a day for 6 days. \and once I ran out of oxy I injected on
day 1 1 mg,
day 2 0.8 mg
day 3 0.5 mg
day 4 0.3 mg
day 5 0.4 mg.
I no longer have suboxone tab.
My question is how bad will this new withdrawal be, especially RLS given the history I've given to you? Will my w/d last 12/13 days also or will they be a little shorter?
Question 2, I want to lead a sober life. It seems more fullfilling. I dont want to be emotionless. but I have a weak mind and strong opiate cravings. What should I do?
Thanks for your help!