monkeybackisland
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- Apr 26, 2018
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Didn't want to put this in the MMT thread since i'm not on MMT, but I've been searching the forums for hours and am increasingly freaking myself out.
I've already been beating myself up for this ridiculously stupid situation i've put myself in, just FYI.
Usually I'm on bupe, but I went away for a month and had nada for a good two weeks, but I bought dope and was using 1g-1.5g a day for a week. (I get withdrawals after just 2 days of using now)
I had to get on a few planes, and wasn't keen on hiding dope in nature's pocket: been there/done that/isn't worth the anxiety. So I picked up 400ml methadone, which i've used before and needed about 60-70ml to stave off withdrawal symptoms. For some reason this time, even though my habit was 1.5 grams I've been scared of ODing, so started as follows:
Day 1- 50ml, but 4 hours later I was still very fucking sick. Took another 10ml, still sick, took another 5ml. Total intake 65ml, still had massive pupils, sweats and a bit of diarrhoea but dealt with it.
Day 2- woke up feeling pretty horrid, took 60ml, waited 4 hours then took 15ml. Total intake 75ml, feeling better than day before but still massive pupils and not quite right.
Day 3, woke up feeling ok, took 60ml, felt a little bit off though still so took another 10ml 4 hours later. So 70ml
I intend to wait 3 days after this meth runs out then go back on subs but I'm concerned about this accumulation effect, apparently dosing high is a really bad idea at first because methadone accumulates and you can OD without necessarily raising your dose.
I keep checking my pupils and they're still fine, not small at all, but I am super exhausted and have felt a bit nauseous since last night.
The peak effect of methadone is apparently around 4 hours after ingestion, so do you think that if after 4 hours from dosing I haven't OD'ed then it's safe to assume I can go to sleep and won't OD while i'm sleeping? Genuinely quite terrified of going to sleep now.
Sorry if this is rambling and incoherent, I've been feeling a bit dizzy, as if i'm in withdrawal from SSRI's kinda dizzy. (I'm also on escitalopram which I know increases the concentration of methadone) the main thing I'm going by at the moment to convince myself I can go to sleep and not die is that my pupils are still BIG. Fairly big anyway, and I don't feel high at all.
Anyone able to help a guy out here?
I've already been beating myself up for this ridiculously stupid situation i've put myself in, just FYI.
Usually I'm on bupe, but I went away for a month and had nada for a good two weeks, but I bought dope and was using 1g-1.5g a day for a week. (I get withdrawals after just 2 days of using now)
I had to get on a few planes, and wasn't keen on hiding dope in nature's pocket: been there/done that/isn't worth the anxiety. So I picked up 400ml methadone, which i've used before and needed about 60-70ml to stave off withdrawal symptoms. For some reason this time, even though my habit was 1.5 grams I've been scared of ODing, so started as follows:
Day 1- 50ml, but 4 hours later I was still very fucking sick. Took another 10ml, still sick, took another 5ml. Total intake 65ml, still had massive pupils, sweats and a bit of diarrhoea but dealt with it.
Day 2- woke up feeling pretty horrid, took 60ml, waited 4 hours then took 15ml. Total intake 75ml, feeling better than day before but still massive pupils and not quite right.
Day 3, woke up feeling ok, took 60ml, felt a little bit off though still so took another 10ml 4 hours later. So 70ml
I intend to wait 3 days after this meth runs out then go back on subs but I'm concerned about this accumulation effect, apparently dosing high is a really bad idea at first because methadone accumulates and you can OD without necessarily raising your dose.
I keep checking my pupils and they're still fine, not small at all, but I am super exhausted and have felt a bit nauseous since last night.
The peak effect of methadone is apparently around 4 hours after ingestion, so do you think that if after 4 hours from dosing I haven't OD'ed then it's safe to assume I can go to sleep and won't OD while i'm sleeping? Genuinely quite terrified of going to sleep now.
Sorry if this is rambling and incoherent, I've been feeling a bit dizzy, as if i'm in withdrawal from SSRI's kinda dizzy. (I'm also on escitalopram which I know increases the concentration of methadone) the main thing I'm going by at the moment to convince myself I can go to sleep and not die is that my pupils are still BIG. Fairly big anyway, and I don't feel high at all.
Anyone able to help a guy out here?