JessesLoco77
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Hello all! I am new to blue light and was wondering about a certain subject that many have discussed.
I was a heavy smoker for around 4 years, smoking around a quarter a week, some may consider that not heavy others may. Anyways, about a year ago I took a 2 week break from a dry spell the city was having.. I reunited with my brother that I hadn't seen in awhile and he had some smoke, so we figured we would spark up. I took 3 big rips from the bong, was coughing pretty hard, and was done. Well, later on we were just talking, and I started too feel like I was gonna pass out. Kept blacking out and had some tunnel vision.. Well, normally I would want to feel like this, and chase that kind of buzz that I could never get from smoking so frequently. This time I started to freak out a little bit, and threw myself into a panic attack. I came inside and got some water, and we started playing some call of duty. Well, I have surround sound in my room, and the music from the game was just totally tripping me out, and made everything worse.. The buzz just kept getting stronger and stronger and I couldn't manage too calm myself down from the state of panic that I was in. I went into his room told him I couldn't play it, and started to feel these electric shock type feelings going through the front of me, then the back. They were literally making me sway front wards and back wards, it was extremely unpleasant and at this point I was literally convinced from the panic that I was going to die. I was also getting these weird sensations every time I would touch something that felt painful, it was just like a dull sensation of pain every time I would sit down I would feel it in my legs and butt, if I would stand up I would feel it in my feet, if I would touch something or hold something I would feel it in my hands ect. My vision was very laggy type, almost like a frame by frame type thing it was like my vision was clicking when I would turn my head or move my eyes. I usually get that when I'm really stoned, almost like slow motion but it never bothered me before.
After all of this went away and I had managed to calm down by him playing his guitar to me and singing.. I was afraid that the next day I was going to be completely different, and that reality would never be the same.
Ever since then, every time I smoke now, even if I just take a half a hit I go into a full blow panic attack. Heart races, muscles tense up, numbness in face, chest and arms, stomach feels like it's in a complete knot, and I just feel like impending doom is coming. I miss smoking so much, but have slacked off almost completely in the last year. I'm a drug addict and have been taking subutex to get myself to stay away from heroin, but weed was the only thing that actually kept me away from hard drugs. It never did it too me until that 1 night.
There are only 2 things that I could possibly think of that could be the culprit. Number 1: I use to smoke some of the k2 or synthetic marijuana before everyone figured out how bad it actually was.. And it continued to get stronger and stronger so I eventually couldn't smoke it anymore. it was a few years back but I thought maybe it caused some permanent damage to my cannabinoid receptors from some long term effects that it's had on my brain? I thought that maybe every time I smoke weed, that maybe my receptors think that it's the fake bake, and it effects me the same way the fake smoke does.. Just a thought.
number 2: maybe it's just my anxiety and nerves messing with me, but before this ever happened weed used to make my anxiety better.. I do have generalized anxiety, and panic disorder. So maybe it's just all in my head, but I can't understand why it would affect me so late in my times of smoking.
Anyways, I was just wondering what everyone's thoughts were on this subject, I would appreciate any feedback I can get. I really do wanna start smoking again, if someone has some kind of miracle cure for this it would be great, I've also tried to take a Xanax before smoking and it still doesn't help very much whatsoever. The only thing that helps is smoking while I'm pretty drunk.
I was a heavy smoker for around 4 years, smoking around a quarter a week, some may consider that not heavy others may. Anyways, about a year ago I took a 2 week break from a dry spell the city was having.. I reunited with my brother that I hadn't seen in awhile and he had some smoke, so we figured we would spark up. I took 3 big rips from the bong, was coughing pretty hard, and was done. Well, later on we were just talking, and I started too feel like I was gonna pass out. Kept blacking out and had some tunnel vision.. Well, normally I would want to feel like this, and chase that kind of buzz that I could never get from smoking so frequently. This time I started to freak out a little bit, and threw myself into a panic attack. I came inside and got some water, and we started playing some call of duty. Well, I have surround sound in my room, and the music from the game was just totally tripping me out, and made everything worse.. The buzz just kept getting stronger and stronger and I couldn't manage too calm myself down from the state of panic that I was in. I went into his room told him I couldn't play it, and started to feel these electric shock type feelings going through the front of me, then the back. They were literally making me sway front wards and back wards, it was extremely unpleasant and at this point I was literally convinced from the panic that I was going to die. I was also getting these weird sensations every time I would touch something that felt painful, it was just like a dull sensation of pain every time I would sit down I would feel it in my legs and butt, if I would stand up I would feel it in my feet, if I would touch something or hold something I would feel it in my hands ect. My vision was very laggy type, almost like a frame by frame type thing it was like my vision was clicking when I would turn my head or move my eyes. I usually get that when I'm really stoned, almost like slow motion but it never bothered me before.
After all of this went away and I had managed to calm down by him playing his guitar to me and singing.. I was afraid that the next day I was going to be completely different, and that reality would never be the same.
Ever since then, every time I smoke now, even if I just take a half a hit I go into a full blow panic attack. Heart races, muscles tense up, numbness in face, chest and arms, stomach feels like it's in a complete knot, and I just feel like impending doom is coming. I miss smoking so much, but have slacked off almost completely in the last year. I'm a drug addict and have been taking subutex to get myself to stay away from heroin, but weed was the only thing that actually kept me away from hard drugs. It never did it too me until that 1 night.
There are only 2 things that I could possibly think of that could be the culprit. Number 1: I use to smoke some of the k2 or synthetic marijuana before everyone figured out how bad it actually was.. And it continued to get stronger and stronger so I eventually couldn't smoke it anymore. it was a few years back but I thought maybe it caused some permanent damage to my cannabinoid receptors from some long term effects that it's had on my brain? I thought that maybe every time I smoke weed, that maybe my receptors think that it's the fake bake, and it effects me the same way the fake smoke does.. Just a thought.
number 2: maybe it's just my anxiety and nerves messing with me, but before this ever happened weed used to make my anxiety better.. I do have generalized anxiety, and panic disorder. So maybe it's just all in my head, but I can't understand why it would affect me so late in my times of smoking.
Anyways, I was just wondering what everyone's thoughts were on this subject, I would appreciate any feedback I can get. I really do wanna start smoking again, if someone has some kind of miracle cure for this it would be great, I've also tried to take a Xanax before smoking and it still doesn't help very much whatsoever. The only thing that helps is smoking while I'm pretty drunk.
