RhythmSpring
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I'm 24, and I will be trip sitting for a man in his early-mid 30s. He'll be taking an eighth of mushrooms, I'll be taking a nibble to get slightly in the zone.
He's had a hard past. His mother was emotionally abusive in a very passive way. He had a wonderful romantic relationship that ended with him being robbed and beaten for no apparent reason. Needless to say, he's built up some mental shields over time. His ego seems very very strong. He's a highly intelligent man, and used to be incredibly functional and successful, but for the past few years he's been agoraphobic.
In person, he's an incredibly sweet man. Sometimes he can trail off into negative thinking/conspiracy-type stuff, but in general, he's polite, respectful, logical, and extremely well-intentioned.
In talking about our upcoming trip, I asked him if he was sure if he wanted to do this, and he said "I'm sure you can relate to this--ANYTHING is better than this, as far as states of mind go." Meaning, for years he has been in mental agony--fear-based thinking and a whole ton of it. So this trip offers something that's at least different.
He understands that he is making this decision for himself, and I think in general his approach is healthy. He has no expectations, mainly because he's never tripped or gotten high. He has taken other meds like adderall, but he's been medication-free for several months.
I'm wondering how much we should talk about the potential directions of the trip. On one hand, having no expectations can be a wonderful thing in a drug experience. On the other hand, there's part of me that wants to tell him: "Your ego is going to fall apart. You may be put in touch with a part of yourself that you have not been in touch with for many years. Are you sure you feel ready to do this?"
I feel I owe it to him to outline the general tendencies of the trip, but I don't want to put negative thinking into his head, because I know he can take that and run with it, if you know what I mean. I want to make sure he knows how powerful the experience can be without making him fearful.
He's had a hard past. His mother was emotionally abusive in a very passive way. He had a wonderful romantic relationship that ended with him being robbed and beaten for no apparent reason. Needless to say, he's built up some mental shields over time. His ego seems very very strong. He's a highly intelligent man, and used to be incredibly functional and successful, but for the past few years he's been agoraphobic.
In person, he's an incredibly sweet man. Sometimes he can trail off into negative thinking/conspiracy-type stuff, but in general, he's polite, respectful, logical, and extremely well-intentioned.
In talking about our upcoming trip, I asked him if he was sure if he wanted to do this, and he said "I'm sure you can relate to this--ANYTHING is better than this, as far as states of mind go." Meaning, for years he has been in mental agony--fear-based thinking and a whole ton of it. So this trip offers something that's at least different.
He understands that he is making this decision for himself, and I think in general his approach is healthy. He has no expectations, mainly because he's never tripped or gotten high. He has taken other meds like adderall, but he's been medication-free for several months.
I'm wondering how much we should talk about the potential directions of the trip. On one hand, having no expectations can be a wonderful thing in a drug experience. On the other hand, there's part of me that wants to tell him: "Your ego is going to fall apart. You may be put in touch with a part of yourself that you have not been in touch with for many years. Are you sure you feel ready to do this?"
I feel I owe it to him to outline the general tendencies of the trip, but I don't want to put negative thinking into his head, because I know he can take that and run with it, if you know what I mean. I want to make sure he knows how powerful the experience can be without making him fearful.