Cthulhu
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 15, 2007
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- 234
Long time since I posted on Bluelight... I was inspired to visit the site again after I came into some MDMA this year at a Phish show, and have had some truly breathtaking experiences. I hadn't used this substance in 10 years, and I'm not sure why but this past summer I felt an inner calling to get my hands on some (which was not to difficult to do). Brief background note: I've been using psychedelic substances the past two decades as part of a wild unfolding journey; I think I always considered MDMA to be inferior when it came to spiritual and personal growth type intentions, and also that it is somehow "dirtier" than classic psychedelics - but this past year has changed my mind about that (although I do still believe it lends itself much more to abuse compared to something like mushrooms).
Anyways, in the midst of my experiences I of course got back into reading about/researching the substance. I came across the book Through the Gateway of the Heart, which is a compilation of MDMA experience reports from a therapeutic/personal growth perspective, published in 1985 - in other words, these experiences are from BEFORE it was made illegal in the U.S. Here is the maps link to a free pdf of the book: https://maps.org/2000/11/29/through-the-gateway-of-the-heart-experience-reports/
Some of the experiences described are quite profound and are well articulated. I was inspired by them to take a more intentional approach with the substance myself, and had an utterly mind blowing experience that dwarfed any previous experiences I had at concert, raves, or more casual gatherings with friends. Long story short, I wanted to share this book with anyone who maybe hasn't come across it yet, and also see if others have used MDMA in this more intentional way. Have you noticed a difference compared to more recreational experiences? Don't get me wrong, I've had a blast at concerts and whatnot including with good insights and heart opening, so I don't want to come across as a party pooper. I'm just trying to put my finger on what is going on here when we settle down into a very still state and allow something inside to emerge in those conditions... Thanks all!
Anyways, in the midst of my experiences I of course got back into reading about/researching the substance. I came across the book Through the Gateway of the Heart, which is a compilation of MDMA experience reports from a therapeutic/personal growth perspective, published in 1985 - in other words, these experiences are from BEFORE it was made illegal in the U.S. Here is the maps link to a free pdf of the book: https://maps.org/2000/11/29/through-the-gateway-of-the-heart-experience-reports/
Some of the experiences described are quite profound and are well articulated. I was inspired by them to take a more intentional approach with the substance myself, and had an utterly mind blowing experience that dwarfed any previous experiences I had at concert, raves, or more casual gatherings with friends. Long story short, I wanted to share this book with anyone who maybe hasn't come across it yet, and also see if others have used MDMA in this more intentional way. Have you noticed a difference compared to more recreational experiences? Don't get me wrong, I've had a blast at concerts and whatnot including with good insights and heart opening, so I don't want to come across as a party pooper. I'm just trying to put my finger on what is going on here when we settle down into a very still state and allow something inside to emerge in those conditions... Thanks all!