THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE
Poem I wrote a few days after hospitaliation due to heroin overdose. Its about the overdose experience, family involvement, and attempting sobriety. Let me know what you all think or if anything in it you can relate to. Any constructive criticism from those who have knowledge of how poems are supossed to be structured etc please let me know. This is the first one I have ever wrote, If its not in the correct forum let me know as well. Hope you enjoy or get something from it
The battle has begun
Barrel of my own gun facing me
And with my own finger on the trigger
The enemy has all but won
It seems to me my time has come
Struggling to keep my eyes from closing
All my senses going numb
Time begins to slow
As my veins turn ice cold
Realizing that I cannot swallow
I feel my throat begin to close
He’s got me on the run
I can hear him taunting me
The demonesque voices are unbearable
Just close your eyes child, we have prepared your burial
A last ditch attempt, I wave the white flag
This ruthless commander laughs
I accept no surrender
With no strength left to fight
I reluctantly follow his orders
I close my eyes acceptting my fate
Darkness engulfs, as stars begin to fly
I brace for death hoping an afterlife exists
As I slowly exhale my final breath
With an evil grin and souless eyes
He looks directly into mine
Eyes quickly change filling with satisfaction
He sees Im close to death,
I have never seen such passion
God had a different plan
The commander had fear in his eyes
As he quickly retreated
He breathed new life into me
Gods given me the gift of free will
Yet, I gave it to the devil
I will take it back, this is my final shot,
The target is in sight, and I will not disappoint
I will not miss, I cannot miss
I realize now this is life or death
The war is not yet over
The fight will go on
Everyday, without fail
From the break of dawn
Until night has come
These beings have no motive, agenda, or motivation
They do not care about your race, age, or religion
Seeing others pain and suffering is their only passion
Join me in the fight, stand up and unite, if you are in the same situation
Like mine, your life is worth more than being locked in a self made prison
Do not give in to his deception
I see your warriors everywhere I go
Taking husbands, fathers, sons, and daughters around the globe
The devil disguised as a God
You promise them happiness
That doesn’t last long
You take it away as soon as their money is gone
Why I am still here
That I cannot say
I was saved for a purpose
For that I am certain
I have been blessed to defy death on many occasions
However, theres only so many times second chances can be given
My family has pleaded to join the fight for years
Yet Ive pushed them aside, due to ignorance, shame, or fear
But they love me too much, they secretly were always there
I pushed farther away, they could not help, it was out of their control
Watching helplessly as the enemy slowly ate at away my soul
My deslusion I can fight you alone has been abandoned
Your army is strong and are many
However, you underestimate my families ability
Their swords and spears should be the least of your worries
Unconditional love is one thing you cannot destroy
He is not all powerful, he has his weaknesses
The choices are mine, he is powerless
This is my body, my, life and my family
He is only my enemy if I let him be
I dream of the day I will make my parents and sisters proud
I am longing to see the gleam in their eyes
Cheeks a rosy red, smiles wide, and filled with joy
As they can once again proudly introduce me as their boy
Their hearts will be full of pride
As I push my old ways aside
As their son begins his journey home
But this fight will not end, even when hes returned
With my will power and their everlasting love
We stand as one, As I now challenge the enemy come
For this time I am not standing alone
For once it is you who will be on the run
This is final battle, the end of the war
This war is one of the few worth fighting
Drugs will not defeat me, that I am sure
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