Texan here with opiate question for other Texans

[Marfanswonder]

Hey all I’m a brand new baby here, not an opiate baby, I’ve been on morphine time release now for about two years. I have extreme Marfan Syndrome with dibilitating back issues and my joints slip out of place quite often so long story short I’m a veteran when it comes to taking pain meds. Started with plain Vicodin 10/325 and that didn’t cut the pain but all I got out of that was an evil addiction that made me want to quit cold turkey 3 times and each time the withdrawals almost killed me but i admit I wasn’t prepared or knowledgeable on how to quit so anyway pain was unbearable and I feel like i gave up again and then tried OxyContin and I will swear to this day never again will I take that devel medicine. If I thought the withdrawals were bad with Vicodin they were 10 times as worse on oxy that also included this mental and nerve withdrawal that was way more gnarley I had ever been prepared for but I’m a strong bitch and was determined to come off of those. So fast forward to today and I finally found a message that dulls my pain but doesn’t make me a fucking zombie or want to just check out of life. Having said that I still struggle with having to take meds at all and it makes me angry at life and my body. And my specialist has all but put me to pasture since I have a progressive disease that isn’t curable and will kill me eventually but witness I hate is when they don’t listen to me when I know my tolerance has changed ya know. I mean who better to know our bodies than us and HELLO I was born with this disease and I’ve been through things that wouldn’t blow your mind such surviving my heart dissecting while driving my car and i know to this day that surviving that was a god thing. I’m not here to recruit anyone but for me it changed me forever so anyway some of you might now be saying “WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR POINT?” So my point is during the months that I have to take more meds to deal with not walking right or waking up to my hip joints out of place where or how does one find someone to buy a few extra meds to get through until my next prescription is due and it’s mostly only a weeks worth....I’m not talking hundreds here but I’ve decided that in my 40’s I refuse to live in pain and I will do what’s necessary to live out my days pain free. And I’m not talking heroin or whatever some of these other drugs I’m reading about I’m only interested in finding the drugs my body is used to, morphine time release. Is there anyone out there with legitimate advice? I live in the DFW area and don’t know where to begin to find meds on the street or are there pharmacies that sell to the public like distilleries? Can someone please help this disease ridden body of mine? If I’ve typed something that’s wrong forgive me as I just don’t know. You can private message me if necessary

 

[Chris42393]

Hello! And welcome to BL! I am soooo sorry for your pain. I live with horrible back pain myself and eventually moved to heroin because I couldnt get anything stronger... It sucked. Thankfully Im clean now though. Marfan syndrome is horrible. Im glad you survived your dissecting aortic aneurysm. Those can be very deadly. Im a Firefighter/Paramedic and had a patient with Marfan Syndrome who had a dissecting femoral artery aneurysm. Unfortunately, he didn't make it.

Unfortunately, we cannot give sources here on BL. :/ Chances are... a moderator will be locking/closing this post down. I do wish you the best of luck though.

Just remember, you can buy pretty much ANYTHING online if you look hard enough

 

[Marfanswonder]

Oh oops I didn’t mean to start any trouble. But thanks for the advice on what’s aloud here and what’s not. To the moderator I do apologize