Hello BTS, well on my side things are pretty ugly, I relapsed on tramadol, now I got a poly drug addiction, I don't know why I made the mistake to combine it with some synthetic noids (here in Romania they are not as utterly strong and poisonous as elsewhere) so this ones are pretty safe, but not safer than weed anyway. I got this habbit because it would give me such a rush combined with tramadol that I can't describe a better feeling than this...
So here I am quitting my game tester job, leaving this city to go to my home town for a few months in order to come up with a coping mechanism so after I quit again I will be more resistent to the temptation. I even think of switching universities really and I consider hooking up with one professor from my home town to make my c++ skills even better so maybe I can find an intern post somewhere until I finish the university or if I switch I will finish that one.
anyways my mom is very supportive ( as she went through this situation with my dad who was an alcoholic and relapsed several times after being checked in rehab,he eventually died but that's another story) and she is ok with me not working or studying for a few months until I learn to control myself and I get better.
All I can say things are not good but they seem to get better in the near future, my contract will be over in 31 as I told my bosses that I quit and then I will head home and I hope everything will be fine, just I'm really scared of getting stuck in my hometown and not returning to this beautiful and big city.